Here we go again, Sneezing..

[StayingClean25]

today is day 2 of coming off of percocet 10s and im not happy, i just went 11 days clean from roxy 30s 2 aday, that was so horrible.. im hoping i dont have bad withdrawls now, i relapsed and took around 15 percocet 10s the past few days after going 11 days now im clean and cant/wont get more pills.. so far its stomach cramping,yawning,sneezin.. whats next, and how long?

[clean_in_ks]

The way you described what you were needing and longing for:

"somebody to show me what life is like off of pills, the money the save or have something to show for with there hard work. I want to know there is a better side then to be addicted to pills, and that i can do this, i can get there if i strive hard enough,  somebody to say, its going to be OK, I wish i had that and the stringht of other people."

Everything you described above can be found in the recovery rooms of NA/AA.  We generally find what we're looking for.....those that are looking for a "connect" in the parking lot of an NA meeting may very well find them.  However, if you are looking for people who are successfully staying clean, have something to show for their hard work, can encourage you and tell you "it really IS gonna be OK".....that's EXACTLY what you will find.
You don't have to talk or share at first....just listen.  You will be drawn to certain people...their style of recovery....their words of wisdom.  Follow the winners, share your trials....and you'll be blessed beyond anything you can imagine.  The strength you long for can be found~

[ROSYouralright]

I can't wait to post o, your 30, 60, 90 days!! I know you CAN do this and I am rooting for you!!
Take it slow...
ONE good choice at a time!

[toothfairie]

ok good....keep us all updated how you are doing ok?  

[StayingClean25]

thank you!, im going to set up meeting for next week.. I will keep you posted on how it goes ;)

[toothfairie]

I've never had anyone at an NA Meeting offer me anything but a hug and support...i'm sure it's happened at some before, but overall it's a great place to start with aftercare...and if you don't like the first one, you have lots of choices in our area for diff ones, you can keep going until you find one that fits YOU.  

[msdelight]

I'm afraid of that also however it's not true. You would really benefit from having a sponsor. Also down the road a little grief councilling seems like a good idea.

[StayingClean25]

That would be amazing, and i will get there, its a new year for new things! Thank you

[msdelight]

I would be proud to post that 30 day victory for you!

[StayingClean25]

I was just looking up N/A a few min ago, i will definitely think about going, the issue is whit this is, ive heard N/A is just a place for addicts to come together and share connections/drugs, not sure how true that is but i definitely dont wanna be in that situation.  I will give it a try though

[msdelight]

Hey dude just wanted to add. ...things on the other side are awesome!!! Only a few days it will be OK! Keep a positive attitude that's the most important thing right now. One day at a time!

[StayingClean25]

thanks yo, so much msdelight, you have always been there for me, all i can say is thank you and to prove myself, that i can do this, i will post on here 30 days clean a month from now.. Thats a promise, I dont make promises lightly.

[toothfairie]

You can also check out NA meetings when you get your car....you will see lots of people that are off pills/drugs and how they did it and are living a happy drug free life....and you can make new clean friends to hang with.  

[msdelight]

Good morning SC sorry you are feeling low. Hang in there the percs are short acting and will leave you faster than the Roxy. Sounds like it's just starting with yawning and cramps. You know the drill :
1. Don't take a whole bunch of other pills to try and make this go away. That's addict behavior. Hunker down and put your big girl panties on!
2. Take one or two immodium when the runs start.
3. Water, food as tolerated, hot tub, exercise, walks
4. OCCUPY YOUR HEAD.  Movies,books, writing etc. Try not to think about how miserable you are, instead focus on the fact that you NEVER want to be in this place again!

Remember that the alternative is buying, using and being homeless in 30 days. You got this my friend! Hang in there!

[toothfairie]

good job on flushing those last few!  and i'm glad you are getting a car...that way you can get out and do some positive things for your life.  Just try and keep a positive attitude...that will carry you a long way...hang in there...few days and you should be feeling much better.  

[StayingClean25]

somebody to show me what life is like off of pills, the money the save or have something to show for with there hard work. I want to know there is a better side then to be addicted to pills, and that i can do this, i can get there if i strive hard enough,  somebody to say, its going to be OK, I wish i had that and the stringht of other people.

[StayingClean25]

Thanks guys, i know, I know im an addic, i know i need alot of things, counsling and so on.. im in a situation where i dont have a car until next week.. yep, i saved up enough to buy a modern car next week, not what i want but its wheels, and im striving to get what i would like in life, you know, the process, soo i need a plan, the cycle is i get bored and start using again, heres the thing, Im more detemined to change now more then anything, im on a fine line rightnow and i need to get on the bright side of it, i need something new, a change, I want to travel i want to do so much with my life, heres the thing, i dont haveANY more connect at all, the girl i got the percs from just moved to vegas lastnight and my other (connect) ive blocked and dont even think about him, so i know i need to get through this, and im sorry if i sound like a sad puppy in a corner about how long will this last ect. I just need encouragement, thats all to do this, Im so so so much happier off pills and i dont want them, i flushed the last 5 in the toilet the other day becuase i came to my sences and said im tired of this cycle.. i feel pretty good today, all i am on is Asprin and that seems to be getting me through this..  I dont have a choice to relapes, I did before, but not now. frankley, i dont want to, thoes percs made me sick to my stomach.  Thanks guys

[toothfairie]

I wanted to add, I think an addiction counselor would help you alot....you really need to check out some aftercare options for when you're feeling better....that will help when the physical stuff is over and the mental/cravings kick in. Otherwise, you will keep on this cycle that you are on now....putting your body thru WDs every few months is not good for it...it's alot of stress on your mind and organs.  

[CRSeaside]

What's next. How long.   For people whom hold the gene or chemical disposition for addiction it is a lifetime.
     The longer you stay clean, the habit to stay away from pills becomes habitual. Neuroscientists claim it takes 21 days of doing something for that thing to become a habit.
       Then there is the first 100 day plan. You are writing the story of your own life. It can be one of dismal failure that no one cares to buy, or a story of courage, vilagence & victory, that you will share with others & thereby make a difference.  There are only two ways to go. The choice will always be yours. Pamela

[toothfairie]

sorry you're going thru this again, but you know you HAVE to cut all your sources out, even if you've made new ones since you've been in FL...hopefully it won't be too bad this time....when the cravings come, remember how you are feeling now...so just pick yourself up and keep trying....we only fail when we stop trying.