Hi New here

[Jessinda]

Good Morning,
So glad I have found this place. WOW, really never knew so many people are like me and trust me, I would not wish addiction on anyone, but am glad to know, I'm not the only one! My name is Jessinda, I'm 36 and have been an addict for three years on lorcet 10/650 and have been of it for 24 hours again!!!! I have tried many times to kick the habit with NO success what so ever! I come here in hopes to get support and help out when I can. I spent most of yesterday crying my eyes out and just being soooo depressed I thought, I want to die now!!!! I'm sure some of you here have felt that way. Of course, I'm still here and still alive. Well, I guess that's all for now. I look forward to hearing from you and getting input on how to stay clean if it's possible??? Is it???? Jessinda Thanks for reading

[pax]

Jessinda, sounds like you need to visit your family doc and come clean with what you are doing and your goal and chances are he will help. i used Ativan and a clonodine patch and I am coming up on my 3rd week barring a 1day slip with norco. If you read my post you will see I was coming off a much greater quantity than you are so hopefully your recovery(withdrawal) will be much shorter and less painful that my 2 weeks of (no fun!!! ) Good luck to you in your quest to get clean,you are on the right track...one day at a time. Soon you will be free again and a hell of alot happier not to be tied to the leash we call opiates!
Best of luck...pax

[pepsi4]

Hi all.  Sorry to break in.  After bouncing up and down, trying to quit, tapering, etc., I've finally just quit.  Granted, it's only been about 36 hours, but I really don't feel that bad.  I really had to force myself to go for a a walk earlier, and really have to force myself to eat and take vitamins, but I also am keeping as busy as possible.  I am realy anxious about tonight (being able to sleep), but I do have a bit of valium.  I also have a bunch of flexeril -- will this help WDs at all (restlessness, etc)?  I'd rather use that than valium.  Also, if I take the flexeril (10mg) and it doesn't work, can I take valium (5-10mg) also? Would be nice to know, but I don't have that info handy.  Thanks to all in advance ....

[hippy]

hey there,
my name is michael
this fourm has been a great help and support to me
in the last 15 months.
it was here that i found out was happening to me
by m abusing 15 vikes or perc's a day.
when i got  here i was  in the dark about the consequences
of abusing these meds.
i started to read all the post and find out why i could
not just quit with out , depression and lack of energy,
every time i tried to kick on my own, each time i tred i failed.
when i came here i found out what was going on and why.
what i could do about it was the most important info.
it was suggested that i get on the thomas's receipe and start to taper down as best i could , which was not to good.
so i quit cold turkey, and started taking the badly needed vitamine 's my body was in need of, by taking all the pills
i had depleted my body of almost all nutreints.
i took b-6
a, c and e
calsium magnisum
l-tyrosine 500 mg 5 a day in the morning with the two 100mg b-6.
there is more to the receipe. it is posted.
the 1st week is hell but after that it gets better and better.
week one the restless leg and body is very painfull.
sleeping is  hard to come by week 1 and it is suggested to take some small amonts of valume in week on for sleep.
5htp is also good for sleep and depression.
there are different approches to this cold turkey  way of getting
clean, but as bad as we may feel in the begining it is doable.
sever depression is normal when we quit, we cry at the drop of a hat.the l-tyrosine helped me a lot with this and the lack of energy.
hot baths at nite are recomended, lots of water, and exersize.
post any questions and read as much of the fourm as you can.
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hippy.

[hippy]

l-tyrosine(500mg caps) 5 to 8 a day week 1  2o3 a day weeks after
b-6 100mg caps
a strong multi vitamine
vitamins  A/C/and e
zinc/ phosphorus / copper/
calsium- magnesium
valium for sleep week 1 and 2
imodium (immodium) for the runs in week 1
the imodium (immodium) is important because the runs deplete us of all
nutrients, and the runs cause dehydration and make the
withdrawls a lot more painfull , in the area of restless leg and body which make the night s in week 1 very difficult.
hot baths at night help to releive the body aches in week 1 and 2.

also things that help in the cold turkey detox is lots of green veggies and bannas,
also lots of water  or gator aid  for lost electrolites due to the runs.
5htp is another  supplement that people have had sucess with
for depression and taking 4 of them help with sleep.
also benadryl has helped some sleep in week one.

[Percalot]

Here I go again, back on the opiate cycle.  I thought that 7.5 months of incarceration would have helped me go back on the straight and narrow but this monster is a lot greater than I thought and my tolerance is already is getting to a level which is going to require a detox.  I can't say exactly how much I've used,  To sum it up -In the past 6 weeks I've done 70 DIlaudids(k-4s) injected, several xanax and klonopin (Ozzy Osbourne's new drug of choice by the way- gotta laugh), a bunch of 10 mg methadone pills, lortab 10's and recently started taking percs again along with a fentanyl patch(25mg).  Unfortunately I live in an area where there is no methadone clinic or any kind of real out or in-patient therapy program for addicts.  I've cold turkied before and it's not a n experience I wish to repeat.  I also have a friend who wants to detox as well.  Input please.  I would greatly appriciate it.
                                Cheers,
                                       percalot

[sundara]

sounds like you need some help to say the least. . . i was a try and try by myself girl for a while, not successful. . . and while it is my understanding that there are not many rapid detox clinic around they are available, i went through i program call project strait, i had a medically assisted detox at home, and then had an 7 week implant put in  . . . my husband thought it was pretty pricey $1400 total with implant,,,,but compared to what we were spending on drugs - you do the math. . . . go on your favorite search engine and look up "nalrexone" . . that's the name of the drugs - there were many links. . . i am 13 days clean and am using the thomas recipe and doing not bad . .. . not great - mind you - but not bad . . . .i had to be clean 7 days before they would give me the implant (which can have side effects as well - that's still got me alittle nervous) . . on that 7th day when i went to the clinic there were people who had flown or drove from all over the country - this particular place is in Troy, Michigan called Project Straight . . .My husband was using as well, he went cold turkey this week . . . didn't want to spend the money on himself . . . watching him withdrawl is horrible . . .going to try to get him to do the recipe . . or call the clinic - he is in day 3 (the worst) . . . .my detox consisted of basically being knocked out for 4 days using 4 different types of drugs - the trick is you MUST HAVE A CAREGIVER TO ADMINISTER THE MEDS. . . NOT BY YOUR SELF. . .i was blessed enough that my girlfriend and husband took shifts i basically slept for 3 days(yes he was still using) .. we have two small kids and someone has to be in some kind of shape to parent . . . .all i can say is as of this moment i am not craving or in pain . . .i promised to at least try NA . . and have a schedule . . . my goal today is to get to a meeting and hopefully help my husband . . . .good luck and blessings to all trying to get clean . . . . .

[AmberHunter]

sundra, good luck to you and your husband... i hope you both go to NA meetings. i have vast experience with NA and had even started three NA groups at one time (the groups are still going, it was ME who quit going!)

i relapsed six years ago after 8 years clean... getting clean again has been the hardest thing i have ever done. all the "not yets" i had in my 8 years clean became true for me... i can't begin to tell you how this has effected my children...

after a heroin overdose a few days before christmas and a bad case of pancreatitis a week later i ended up in the hospital until jan. 15th... i have been clean and sober ever since, almost 4 months now...

i just can't believe how good it is to wake up in the morning and not have to worry about whether or not i had a "wake-up" or not, or would i be getting sleep, or would this new doc prescribe for me, or........... you get the picture...

i am not going to meetings but am staying spiritually connected in other ways and it is working so far. i believe that if you become honest and willing to let go of drugs and alcohol there is nothing that will stop you... i don't have any reservations today, maybe i will tomorrow but i will deal with that tomorrow.

it is wonderful to be alive~!

amber

[sundara]

AMEN BROTHER

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

Dear heart I know exactly how you feel!--I think I'm the relapse Queen!-But it's exactly like the forum doc has stated--you have to really be ready to quit--This past week I came very close to losing the man (my husband) that i adore due to those demon pills! I was taking 12-14 hydrocodone per day!--Pure and simple insanity--Soooo a choice had to be made! Was I to continue down this road of hell (how many pills did I have-How could I get more-What pharmacy would I use?--The anxiety I experienced everytime my stash got low What would happen if it every came out how many pills I was taking?)--Pretty crazy/paranoia behavior for a 48 yr. old professional woman married to a physician!--Anyway I want my life back and I am willing to experience these 5-7 days of being very uncomfortable to do it! And you can do it to with the help of this forum and the wonderful people here offering support--I'm posting alot today since I am in the throes of withdrawal and everyone seems to be ok with it--Its keeping me sane!  Goof luck Peace Prayers, N.O. Lady-AKA Mystere

[no!more!]

hey everyone looking to finally get my life back but i am curious about one thing i take 20 to 25 tylenol 3 a day and i am wondering how bad that is when i try to quit i get really sick and i would like someone to tell me how bad that is  would really appreciate it thanks

[Jessinda]

Hippi,New orleans Lady and everyone thanks for the input. Third day clean and though, I've done this before and think, three day's big deal let's see if you go and get the pills tomorrow. I'm the hardest person on myself, and do the worst thinking of myself. I know I should be proud of the fact that it's been three day's, but I think, I've done three day's, weeks at a time clean and yet I always go back. My thoughts latly have been, how did this happen???? Why do some people get hooked on drugs, or whatever and others don't ever get hooked. Does this addiction thing run in family's???? I have heard that you need to fine what is or caused the addiction. Is that true? Does it help to know and help to keep you clean? I just don't get it cause never ever did I think I would become and addict. I had a pretty crapy child hood, but the one thing I was always proud of is that I didn't use substance to cover my pain or my abuse up. Now 36 years old three years addict and I truly don't get it why I let this get out of hand. Today is Monday, and yes the w/d's are a pain in the @ss, and all I want to do is just stop the withdraws and I know all I have to do is drop a couple pills and I will be OK for that moment. Oh man, I'm a mess Please Help Jessinda

[RStew]

Hi no!more!, my name is Rob. First of all let me stress to you that Tylenol 3's other active ingredient is Aceteminophin (probably didn't spell that correctly but who cares!) :-) and it is very bad for your liver at the doses that you are talking about. I am not a doctor but I am certain the doctor or anyone else in this forum would tell you the same thing.

Now, as far as your question goes. "How bad will it be?" It's very VERY uncomfortable. But it's not impossible. Your body will begin to feel as if you are coming down with a terrible flu. Your eyes will water, you will sneeze constantly, your nose will run...actually everything will RUN if you get my drift! Your legs and your arms will be jittery as if they have a mind of their own. And many people (including myself) have had feelings of depression and hoplessness.

I'm not telling you this to scare you, just to prepare you. These feelings can last a while. But if you are willing to see your doctor and tell him what is going on, he can give you medication that can take about 70% of this garbage away. I just hit my 5th week clean. It hasn't been a picnic but it is so worth having my life back. WON'T YOU JOIN ME?

All my best. Rob

[hippy]

hi jessinda,
everything you wrote, i can say i felt every feeling
you have mentioned.im sure most of have.
so you are not different. we all seem to have missed
something growing up.2 things i know a lot of addicts
seem to have missed is being muture and responsable.
we have to be carefull not to blame others for our problems.
wnen we take 20 pill a day this is very irresponable , not to
mention we are truely killing ourselves.
i know with pain meds it is easy to get caught up in it,
with out even meaning to.
i am of the mind that no particular drug is a disease,
i do not beleive in cocaneism
i do not beleive in herionism
i do not beleive in marijauanaism
and so on
i beleive in addiction for lack of a better term.
these are all part of the problem
i think it serves us better to focus on a solution.
we have to learn to live for one day
the weight of the future is to heavy
and the pain of the past is to pain full
there is a time to deal with the past
and that is not when we are weak and just getting clean.
it takes everything we have to deal with one day in withdrawls
along with some support of others wether that be a spouse or
people here at the fourm or a support group of some kind.
it is smart to get our focus off ourselves
keeping a journal is mentaly and spititualy healthy and
gets a lot of stuff out of our heads.
the best thing is getting some positive results in what we are doing, results are encouraging and give us the motivation to continueon this difficult path
results that is what we need.
getting pasy week one withdrawls is very result filled.
and can give us the courage to continue on.
then we have to exersize, eat right,take vitamines.
talk with others, stay away from anything that may temt us
backwards.
like yourself everytime i got 3 or 5 days clean  by myself
i always got knocked backwards by depression or no energy.
thomas's recipe help with these things, when i finaly
got past week one.
i guess to a certian extent we have to embrace  our
pains and feeling uncomforatable. tell our selves that we
are on the right path and it will get better and better.

peace hippy, hope your feeling better

[Jessinda]

Thanks for the comments and yes your right in what you wrote. I do have that Thomas's thing. I will be totally honest with you, I want my PILLS!!!!! The last time I took my pills was last Friday at 10:45. LOLOLOL How sad is that, I know the exact time I took my last two pills. What a freaking joke I am. I need to ask something, even though you really want to quit, in which I do, is it normal to want so bad to go get the drugs and have that constant battle inside??? I think for me, the w/d's are hard in dealing with it, but the head games that are going on in my head is what is the worst for me. I feel like a war is going on inside and I wonder which one is going to win. Is that normal or am I just crazy. Today is 4 day's without I have a little smile on my face about it but so scared to death I will go back!!! I'm not stupid and I know what I'm doing to my system by taking the pills, but sometimes I just don't care, or maybe I do care but getting high is more important????? I don't know and that is why I came here because I'm tired of doing this by myself and I admit totally admit I can't do this anymore without help!!!!!!!! Thanks Jessinda

[peaz]

No, Doll--you're NOT crazy--you're an ADDICT!!  LOL  This all goes w/ the territory.  We crave the pills because our body and mind want them!!  The physiological is MUCH easier than the psychological to most of us. One of the best things you can do to eliminate that constany mind-game struggle of should I ? shouldn't I?  back and forth three million times a day is to sever all ties to your MD's, pharmacies, and druggie friends.  It's a ***** to do at the time, but I think you will feel a sense of calm in knowing that you DON'T HAVE ACCESS!!  It will free you from a certain degree of that turmoil , IMHO.
    Please just hang in there!!!  It's NOT one bit weird that you know when you had your last dose...I've been clean  over a year and I can tell you my last dose was December 26th, 2001 at 3:00PM.......I quit drinking that January 7th, so I use that as my total sobriety date....See?? We're all alike....!!!  Keep posting...Peazy

[River Ratt]

CALM DOWN!!! Instead of obsessing about the length of time it has been since you last dosed, obsess about how good it is going to feel when you are unchained from those little pills. You have control over your choices-YOU HAVE THE BRAIN NOT THE PILLS!!!!!!! Stick to your commitment to quit. I have been clean for only two days longer than you, I had an oxycontin addiction that I got through but relapsed on hydrocodone and morphine. Though I lie to myself and say "at least I beat the oxy"-I know there is no such thing as a "safer drug". Within a week I started feeling better-physically. As for the battle in my head, I had to make a serious commitment to MYSELF to stop letting something like this take over my life. I hope that I stay as strong as I have for the past 6 days. I know that psycologically I will have a harder time for the rest of my life, but I can't help but feel like the worst is over. I know you can make it to where I am. JUST BE SMARTER THAN THE PILLS!!!

[Brody]

Hi Jessinda:

It's not that crazy to have that cosntatnt battle inside, thats called addiction. Even when you think you have drugs under control it will try to maifest itself in other ways (shopping etc.). Believe me, sometimes I really miss my pills too, but I don't miss the misery of being an active user.

Plase try going to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting. You will be surprised to find plenty of people just like you!! I always had this vision of NA as a place of people with heroin needles sticking out of their arms. And, there are heroin, crack addicts in NA who are great people trying to clean up their lives, but there are also sooo many pill-poppers in NA just like us!!! Believe me, we are not ALONE.

[no!more!]

Hey Rob thank you so much for answering me I dont have anyone to talk to about my problems i am pretty screwed up I live in a town (a very small town) where it is all my husbands family and I already have the hopeless feeling down packed thats for sure I am also a mother and scared shitless I need to do this and still be there for 2 kids and try to act like - Mommies ok-  and meanwhile I am at the point right now the tylenol 3's arent doing to much for me anyway and I am feeling sick all the time anyway my biggest fear is someone finding out what i've been doing to myself for 4 years now but i need to get off the pills sorry i keep babblying on i just havent had no one to talk to I try talking to my husband but i believe he thinks if he just ignores whats really going on mom will fix it like she fixes everything else holly **** do you think I may have a few issues!!anyway thanks for listening take care of yourself  Jodie

[Jessinda]

Well, No pills today, although sad to say I did try to get them. The funny thing is, if I really wanted to get them I know for a fact I could have with NO problems. So, I take that as a good sign huh? It's so awesome and yet so sad that so many struggle with this ****. Awesome, cause I'm so not alone and dont have to keep it all inside, but so sad that so many struggle to get off the pills and stay clean and that its so so hard and yet so so easy just to pop. I do feel better somewhat today and tomorrow I'm sure I will feel better and so on. I do need a support group which would be NA and for some reason I have a hard time going to the first meeting???? Why is that? Maybe, I think it's because of fear, and facing it right on. Anyone else have a hard time going to a first meeting? Are you aloud to bring a friend that is NOT an addict to a meeting so I wouldnt have to go by myself or should I go by myself. I do suffer from anziety and panic attacks so a little confused. Anyway, thanks for comments and I will keep posting and try to help out when I can too. It's only been 4 day's and I'm pretty new to all this cleaning yourself up, but man, knowing that someone is just a couple day's into cleaning sure helps knowing someone is going through it with you. thanks everyone Jessinda

[no!more!]

hey everyone I am scared shittless I am going to start the thomas recipe as soon as i can get the recipe but i already know nothing can be worse then how i am feeling lately  i just wanted all of you to know finding and reading all of your entries has helped me so much i thank all of you    please take care

[peaz]

You did GOOD today by not gettin' those pills!!  Another day clean!! Now stay w/ it!
  No, you cannot take a friend w/ you unless they will be a member, too. The only exception would be when there is an "open" meeting, and there is usually a guest speaker at those, and little to no membership discussion.  Well, there isn't "discussion" at  ANY TIME---You must wait your turn to speak and NEVER interrupt or they'll get on you for "cross talking" and it's a real NO-NO.  You'll see what I mean when you go.  I was nervous, too.  Try to find someone you can relate to.  That will probably be after a few meetings, but maybe you'll latch onto someone right off the bat.  You don't have to speak until you are ready to. When it comes your turn, be polite: say "Glad to be here, and I'll pass for now". The end. It will be cool.
  What I will say is, that if you are going to try NA then give it a fair shot: go to meetings regularly (at least three a week to start). Only then will you get an idea of what it's about. If you're half-assed about it: then it probably won't be worthwhile to you.  Okie dokie?? After you go, and you have questions, just ask and I'll answer any I can.
   Have a good  night, and keep up the god work!! Love, Peazy

[hydrohater]

Hang in there Jess.  I'm on day 3 right now and was hooked for about 6 months, everyday on 7-8 10/325 hydrocodones.  I was initially given them for lower back pain I received in a car accident in 1991.  The pain will creep back every so often so the doc gave me them back in November.  Everyday since it's been hell trying to forget I have them,  hating when I'm almost out, then making that call again to the doc.  Sick of it. My last one was Sunday at 1:00 P.M. Monday was the pits.  Tuesday wasn't much better. Hoping today will get better.  The depression for me is the worst feeling.  But the restless arms and legs stink too.  I'm can't go back to that.  Be strong. God Bless.

[River Ratt]

Jess
Well, today is a week for me.I can't believe I have to be at work. I don't feel any anxiety but I feel so run down. I know all this is worth it though. I will be so happy when I am done with this and can see everything clearly again. Even though I am feeling bad, I'm feeling so much better everyday. I feel like I can breathe a little more, see more, learn more. I let something else control me for so long, I am loving knowing that I control myself now. I live in a very small town. Everywhere I go I see something that reminds me of my former habit.I pass other people that I know use, right now as I am typing this there is a lady that I know has at least a couple hydrocodone in her purse at my desk. She will be one floor away from me all day. I have come too far to kindle the fire again. I don't know how I am doing this. It's like I finally made up my mind and I am on autopilot. I know that whatever it is in me that is getting me through this though is not something only I can do. Just like we had the same habit, we can make the decision to stop- and stick with it. I'm not out of the woods yet, but at least now I can see the sunshine. Don't let those things have chains around your wrist any longer. It gets harder everyday I know, but once you're free and look back at what you accomplished, everything else will seem easy. Hang in there.

[percsnomas]

Jodie, try and take some comfort knowing most of us have been right where you are.........scared; BUT keep in mind, the fear can frequently be greater than it need be.  Emotions run wild with just the thought of detoxing, but just by reading your comment 'i need to do this', tells me you CAN DO THIS.
As Rob mentioned, there are meds(such as clonidine....a blood pressure med; has to be used carefully) that can reduce the withdrawals, but if going to a/your doc. isn't an option(or you simply don't want to bring anyone in on your lit' secret.....we're pretty good at keeping these aren't we), using the Thomas Recipe(designed for cold turkey detox) can help.  I always suggest tapering to people, as it is one way, without additional meds, to let a person down easier.  Just for reference, i tapered off the same number of pills per day that you take, except mine were percs(oxycodone); and it definately helped.  Ya ya, here's the part where everyone says tapering is next to impossible, cause of the will-power thing.........but many people have successfully tapered off their meds(it's just another option).  I used to use T-3's to stave off withdrawals when i was out of my oxy........hell they even sell Tylenol with 8mgs of codeine Over-The-Counter here in Canada.  It's been pointed out that just under 10% of the codeine a person takes in, is metabolized(converted) as morphine.......so that would be approximately 60-75mgs/day for your habit size.
I've also noticed, that although codeine withdrawal mimics most others, the restless leg can be a lit'l more pronounced(i noticed this myself), and thats where the hot baths come in..........as many as you can stand!!
Anyways Jodie, i just wanted to pass on a HELLO, and reiterate that you are not alone; and whatever you need, just ask!!!!

percs

[percsnomas]

Hey, i just realized i sent that message to myself:

(me)percsnomas= percs no more, abbreviated to percs
(you)No more

percs <to> no more

.........sorry, i must be sleep deprived coming up with that one............

[peaz]

Ah--could ya run that by me one more time????LOL  JK  What are the odds of  you posting to a "no more"?? I'm think' of you, sweets......

[Jessinda]

that's what I thought about the meetings. I kinda thought you had to do it yourself and go yourself. I will be looking into meetings in my area today and hopefully get my @ss in one tonight. Peaz I'm so happy for you and although I wish I had more words of wisdome for you, I'm still learning about staying clean myself. You have a week today, and wow that is awesome!!!! I'm right behind you and I have this image in my head of following right behind you. Make since??? No more three day's that's great and I was just there and now on 5 day's. You can do it and maybe like me following Peaz, You follow me so You no your not alone and I'm not that far in front of you. One thing is, I'm so so greatful I found this sight and feel pretty lucky too. Everyone have a clean day and I will try to do the same. It just hit me.....5 day's clean hm... I thought I was still on day three : )  Take care Jessinda

[Jessinda]

Oh I'm sorry got you and no more mixed up. I'm proud you have three day's behind you and like I said, I only have 2 day's a head of you and so follow forward with me if you can imagine that. No more, The thomas thing is a really good thing from what I have heard and have done before in times of trying to quit. It really does work if you take all the pills like your suppose too. It was funny the first time I started taking it, I was freaking out on how many VITAMINS I was taking and thought, it was to many, but did I worry about dumping 20 lorc into my system???? Hell no. Just try it and it will help. Sorry for the mix ups in the names Jessinda

[Jessinda]

Oh I'm sorry got you and no more mixed up. I'm proud you have three day's behind you and like I said, I only have 2 day's a head of you and so follow forward with me if you can imagine that. No more, The thomas thing is a really good thing from what I have heard and have done before in times of trying to quit. It really does work if you take all the pills like your suppose too. It was funny the first time I started taking it, I was freaking out on how many VITAMINS I was taking and thought, it was to many, but did I worry about dumping 20 lorc into my system???? Hell no. Just try it and it will help. Sorry for the mix ups in the names Jessinda

[no!more!]

thank you so much for writting to me right now i am tappering im down to 14 instead of 24 a day i didnt realize i would get sick this soon but i guess after 4 years what did i expect i am very grateful that you or anyone writes me right now i dont have any outs (someone to talk to- me and my secrets) I look on here about 3 times a day just to hear from someone i thank you with all my heart Jodie

[percsnomas]

Hey Jodie, you don't have to thank me; i'm just passing on the hope that was passed on to me, which in turn helped me get my life back!!!

You are in the process of doing the same!!!  I also have two lit'l ones, and a very demanding career.........so i didn't have the luxury of a bunch of "down-time".  I actually didn't miss any work; but i sure as hell didn't accomplish much over that 2-3 week period.

My advice to you would be to not cut so much, so fast.  This is especially important when you get down to the lower doseages.

THE LOWER, THE SLOWER

Also allow yourself to stabilize at each reduced level(like for 3-5 days). One other important tidbit, that was pointed out to me when i was tapering, was/is to don't look to the pills for the "buzz" anymore(you don't really get it anyways).........now you are taking them to stave off/reduce the withdrawal effect!!!  It might sound trivial, but it helps with the mental approach.   I also felt crummy throughout the taper, but i knew it was going to be worth it.........

Anytime you need me/us, just post!!!
We'll help you through this!!

percs

[lisabet]

Hi Peazy - thanks for the informative points about the NA meetings. I talked with hippee about a week ago about feeling like I maybe needed the support of a NA group; still haven't gotten the "gumption" up to actually do it, but I'm thinking of it, and appreciate the comments.  Hope you're doing well, yourself....Love ya, Peaz, Lisabet

[oxic]

Hey Dollie!!

You kind of sound down in your post; so if that is the case, here is a great big hug........and if not, here it is anyway!!

How ARE YOU Lis???

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hey kids are going to bed i have time to sit and write for a bit i am just outside of Jasper acually so yah you are right next door i cant wait to be where you are right now (drug free so long) i have decided to take 15 for a while i dont seem to get so sick   you know i dont even drink alcohol i never even took a asprin until i hurt my back i really am affraid of drugs and i guess i had good reason to be hey lol i just have never felt so damn stupid and low my mother was a alcoholic which is probably why i am so affraid of anything you can get addicted to well look at me now hey i just thought it was ok because my doctor said so what a load of **** but i guess i am still a adult and deep down i knew it wasnt so much the pain no more it was the buzz and all of a sudden i couldnt do anything without them (pills) they make you full of energy and numb all the stress sorry to babble on and on its just the first time i feel safe to say it thanks for listening your nieghbor Jodie

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hey its me again and i am very sick tonight now i am really worrying if i already hurt my liver i feel like i have a really bad fever and i am really shakky is this a withdrawl i just didnt think i would get so sick so soon especially when i am still taking 16 pills a day thanks Jodie

[peaz]

Good Morning!  I may not have specified yesterday that the meetings I go to are AA and not NA, but they are run the same....I'm in a rural area, and  when I was looking to join, the NA "chapter" had just gone klapooie  (???!!) and so I did the next best thing, I have really gotten to like my home group.  So I would recommend trying meeting after meeting, group after group until you find one you identify w/ and/or find people you like.  The people in mine are all a lot older than I (I feel so YOUNG!!) but we get along great.  Good luck, and take your time.  Good to hear from you.  I think percs is a nut--you sound okay to me???  LOL  Love, Peaz

[peaz]

Hey Girl!! Is this Day 6???    That is AWESOME!!  WHOO HOO!! Keep up the good work!! Are you taking lots of baths and managing to sleep? Pamper yourself,  try to drink lots of liquids and buy the best toilet paper there is!! LOL  If you can squeeze a little walk or activity in be/ the Slug  Fest Time, I think it will help you to feel human faster....:-)  Just go easy and keep smilin'......
    In your post above you mentioned that you had mixed up a few of us, and indeed you did, Doll..... I have 16 months clean so I am not about to let you only give me credit for a week!!! LOL  I'm just giving you some ****....I can't keep everyone straight, either.  I have posted to a certain poster for weeks, thinking he's a "he" when in actuality, he turns out to be a "she".....As if detoxing isn't bewildering ENOUGH!!! LOL
     Just wanted to say "hey" and let you know I'm around if you want to talk. Keep up the good work..Love, Peazy

[percsnomas]

Jodie, since only a couple days ago, when you were at your 24/day T-3 intake(of some 4 years), you didn't feel this "fever"(do you have a fever?)...i'd have to say this is 100% certified WITHDRAWAL, and not your liver. You made almost a 40% reduction . You know i am definately not a doc., but you most certainly can satisfy that concern by having your enzymes run.(a pretty simple blood screen)

I know it is rough, and thats why i suggested a lit'l less aggressive cut(s)and to allow yourself to stabilize at each reduced rate.  The art of tapering is essentially twofold: 1.) Cut your meds slow enough, so that you are not shocking your body.  2.) Not dragging out the tapering regime too long, resulting in lessening your resolve to get off pills.  
It really is a balancing act.

I felt "fluey" pretty much throughout my taper(i went very aggressively), but i kept telling myself that is was going to be worth it!!!  And it sure as hell was.

Please keep posting!



  

[lisabet]

Thanks for posting.  I had kind of a rough stretch there for a few days, but I'm doing better now.  Thanks for the hug, oxic. Hugs back to you!!!!  And you too, peazy.  Have a great day. Love lisabet

[Jessinda]

Hey,
YES it is 6 day's today clean : ) Peaz I totally laughed when you said buy good toliet paper, thanks I needed that!!!! I am sorry about getting you mixed up but wow 16, Oh man, is it 16 months or 16 years??? LOLOLOL I can't remember anything, I think it's 16 months and I think that's totally awesome!!!! Yesterday, was kinda crazy for me, amodiam AD is becoming my best friend lolol, It's morning here and I know I have to keep myself busy to keep my mind of the pills. I'm taking one day at a time, but really looking forward to having one week behind me. I'm hanging in there and doing my best NOT to let my thoughts take me back to my pills. I have had enough of being numb and want to have feelings and emotions back, and thank GOODNESS I have a great therapist to help me deal with my emotions and feelings. Take care all and look forward to posting tomorrow with 7 day's clean Jessinda

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hey its me again i am doing better today but my biggest question is when do i acually stay out of the bathroom for more then 10 minutes thats all ive been doing and my stomach is hurting so bad sorry i just had to ask its the worst part and my husband was laid off and we have no money and honestly at the moment i cant afford any meds for it but on the up side i seem to be loosing some weight lolololo anyway thanks this place is like my temple right now percs you mentioned you were from canada so am i  i know about the tylenol 1's over the counter thats how i got started anyway take care of yourself yourfriend Jodie

[percsnomas]

Jodie, i'm glad you're feeling a lit'l better.  Hell i'll send you a box of Immodium, if you can't manage one yourself......I'll even throw in some extra pillowy soft tissue.

I had the runs throughout my taper(on and off), and in hindsight(or "behind"-sight), i should have been more aggressive with the Immodium.

It is very important that you stay hydrated!!!!!  Drink as much water as you can.  If Pedialyte is out of your price range, pick up some Gatoraide.............it's as good as Pedialyte except it has sugar.  Being dehydrated is not only dangerous, but it exacerbates how yucky you feel!!!

So another north of 49'er............wouldn't be West would it??

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hey there Im in B.C. anyway i have been trying to drink more but i need to go get some immodium enough of this so how have you been doing lately this seems all about me anyway take care Jodie

[percsnomas]

I'm in Calgary.....right next door to ya!!!

Yes, get some Immodium!!! This is an almost totally avoidable withdrawal symptom, so you may as well rid yourself of it.

I'm doing fine...... been off percs for 8 + months, and loving it!
The people here are great.

Hang in there Jode

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hey just wondering where you are HOPE that doesnt sound stupid just had a real hard day really could use someone to talk with anyway take care your friend Jodie

[oxic]

I'm here Jodie,

Tell me whats going on, how are you hangin in???

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hey just had one of the worst days of my life and i deffinetly slipped today i have taken 19 today insted of the 15 i was tappering at i was telling you my husband was suddenly laid off well i had to get help with some groceries and the grocery store clerks embarressed me so bad i could have crawled in a hole i came home and just couldnt stop crying and stupidly took a bunch of pills i feel pretty shitty inside (kinda like i failed already) but i will keep going no matter what i already know i have to just that it really was bad today i feel like i have no dignity left today anyway thanks alot for listening YOUR FRIEND Jodie

[oxic]

Hey sweetie, believe me the pills will make you feel like this......like crawling under a rock.  As if we need more reasons to have low self esteem; f&*kin grocery clerk!!

Listen to me though, you have the right attitude......keep pressing on.  In life we will always find someone or something that could set us off into a pill frenzy. I know it is very difficult, but you have to take charge of those situations.

Jodie, you've already made a huge step just being here, and you are still less than your usual 24........so it is really not that bad!!!  Just make a lit'l progress each day, and we'll have it licked, okay??

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hey you are such a sweetheart !!really!! i dont have alot of understanding people in my life but i guess now i do thanks you really have given me gifts like believing there are very good people out there sorry to sound so corny but i had to tell you that anyway there went the shitty day tomorrow is another but i really dont think i will be going to that store again allthough in this tiny town im sure everyone knows anyway ive lived in alot of places and this town is the worst for yappy people i hope its ok with you but i really see you as a good friend and hope when all this is over we will still stay in touch well have a good night i'll check in tomorrow (like thats a big surprise lol) your neighbor Jodie