I have been taking pain killers recreationally for the part 3 years. I would love to tell you that I had a bad injury or illness that started my downward spiral, but in reality I've never had a script, or an excuse. I started taking 1 or 2 lortab a day for the extra boost and the high but in no time I developed a tolerance, and 3 years later have graduated to 3 lortab 10's at a time about 5 times a day. When I cannot find lortab i substitute for percocet but the dose is the same. I don't even "feel" the pills anymore, but cannot function without them. what is worse is that I have been an alcoholic for the past 5 years. I know how dangerous it is to combine pills with alcohol but continue to do it and most nights I'm scared to go to sleep for fear that I won't wake up. I set my alarm to go off every 30 minutes (like that would help) and kiss my kids goodnight like I will never see them again. I have a very good job and I am afraid I will lose it if I go to rehab. I also have a wonderful family, 3 kids and an amazing husband, but unfortunately he is in the same boat as me and is also an addict /alcoholic. A week ago I tried to detox and it was the most miserable experience of my life. The sweating and upset stomach I could grit my teeth through. What made it so unbearable was the mood swings anxiety and loss of sleep. On a normal day without pills I am completely useless but after only 2 hours of sleep a night for 3 days I wanted to kill myself. So I relapsed. Today I went to the dr and all but got on my hands and knees and begged for help. I thought surely if I go in, plead my case, be honest, and show a willingness, surely she would help me. This was not the case. She refused to treat me and gave me the #to another dr to try, who I called, and she requires $250 for the first visit and $80a week after, and don't accept insurance. Worse is the easy she talked to me has me worried as to weather our not child protective services will show up on my door step any minute. I am now on day one of detox for the second time. I wish I could lock myself in my bedroom for the next week but unfortunately that is not an option. I still have to go to work, and take care of the kids but all I want to do is lay in the bed and cry. Not to even mention the financial hit I have taken considering between my husband and I our habit costs about $100 a day. I have seen how supportive everyone is on here and I would just like to see if anyone has any advice for someone who has to suffer in silence while life goes on around me. How long will it last? How can I make it bearable? Please someone let me know.
If you have been reading other posts then you have an idea what you are in for. My concern is that your husband is also taking them. Is he going to quit with you?? The drinking is a concern, of course. A dual addiction is difficult at best. I am worried that you will be tempted to drink to mask the withdrawals. Have you considered rehab/detox?? There they can medically follow you with both concerns. I am sorry your doctor was not of help, it happens sometimes. There are some non addictive prescriptions that can help with withdrawals, but with the added punch of the drinking..I am not sure which ones are viable for you. That is why I suggested rehab. I hope others will chime in with better or at least different suggestions. This sounds like you are in a very hard place and need a plan. Glad you are posting as this is a good site and you will get help. Just know that you may hear things that may be useful, but it may not be what you want to hear. Just take it all in and then figure out what you want to do.
HI, i read your post and it reminds me of myself. i dont drink and im on day 2 of my detox but i would look at my son and wanna cry, i took about 10 tabs a day on and off for 6 years. i pray alot and i have to remember that im doing this! no ones making me but me i wanna get better.your brain will trick u but pray hard eat alot of fruit and just go one day at a time. even though u feel like crap look at ur kids tonight and think i know im going to wake up and u are going to be a better person and mother after a couple days. once u get ur mind focused u will be able to get through even if u have to talk to urself and demand the devil to leave just do it u and ur family will be happier. i will pray for u and just keep reminding urself that this is what u want!
Write that was fast.and you are right I am still drinking to try to ease some of the symptoms but know I am covering up one problem with another. But I am TERRIFIED to stop pills and drinking at the same time so I am trying to do one at a time starting with the greater of 2 evils. I know out will be a long hard road but think I am ready. Know I am ready. My husband is quitting with me but doesn't understand that for me it is an anxiety issue above all. Thank you for skull your words of support and please keep then coming because good knows I need them
Hi. I agree with littlebit667 in regards to your husband. It is really hard to quit by yourself, but when you throw in another addict, it gets many times harder. Does he plan on giving up the drugs & alcohol as well? You mentioned that if you go to rehab/detox you might lose your job. Are you able to call in sick for a few days? You could say you have a very bad flu, which your dr said could be contagious, and she said to stay in bed and rest for a couple of days. The first 48-96 hours are ussally the most painful...though it does vary for everyone. I live in Canada and it blew me away when you mentioned that a dr wants $250 for the first visit. That crazy!! If you look you may be able to fing a dr that will work with you. There is someone on this site that tells me one the of the ways to quit is to taper. I know it will be expensive for you but it is the easiest way to do it. The mood swings and lose of sleep will not be nearly as bad....if at all when the taper method is used correctly. I wish you well and try to keep reading the forums on this site. I really think this site could have saved my life Good luck.....J
I detoxed at home cold turkey (tapering did not work for me, but it does for some). I am almost 61 (jman that ***** to admit) and did OK both times. I relapsed the first time and came back again to get back on track. I am 25 days clean again and hopefully this time it will stick. I wrote this as a basic idea of how it worked for me. I hope it helps.
I kept telling myself...YOU HAVE the FLU! It will be over and I will feel so much better. My brain seemed to get that and settled down a little. It is hard, but doable! The Thomas Recipe (bottom of the page under Health Pages will help. I did not to the tranquilizers and had to cut back on the Ltryosine, but the rest really helped. Imodium, Imodium, Imodium (liquid or pills if the liquid can't be found or you can't swallow it) will help. I took double the dosage for a few days (personal choice) and it helped so much..even with the withdrawals in general and the opiate trots which sucked.
Hydrate and eat! Even if it is just a little every hour or so. You have to eat something to keep your energy up as much as possible.
If you have Restless legs..it is hit or miss what works. Walking seemed to help me some. Hot bath with epsom salts..a little. I finally had to get my doctor to refill my restless legs meds (non addictive) to get some sleep. If nothing works,your doctor might help.
One hour at a time is all anyone can ask. After 2 weeks it gets a little better and I started to say, One day at a time! Your brain will do all sorts of things to get you to take a pill. I found if I was hungry..the cravings got worse. I would try to eat a banana, a few grapes or a few crackers to get that under control.
The hardest part comes after the detox. Your brain will be all over the place and will try to get you back on the pills...It is having to work and not depend on the pills to help.
Good for you. I hope all goes well. You have made a good start coming here....this site has helped me so much!!! Keep posting!!!!!
sooo i am now going on 72 hours of detox and i can honestly say that things are starting to look up! blackie i took your advice, i weighed the pros and cons of staying out of work, and even though i used up the last few days of my sick time for the rest of the year i decided to call insick to work yesterday and today. i still have the weekend so hopefull myst of the bad **** will be over by then. i decided that if i got fred thatit is worth it and if i keep going the way i am i will probably end up loosing my job anyway.the dr who i i initially though was refusing to help me surprised me because when i went to the pharmacy this morning to pick up my birth control there was a rx of valium waiting for me as well. i also have a friend who gave me a handfull of klonopin which i have been taking before bed to try and help me sleep and they have been more than sufficient. i think since i am sleeping and ihave the klonopin in my system it has hepled dramatically with the anxiety effects of the w/d but i can honestly say that this morning i am feeling the physical symptoms full force. worse is that i have a bad case of ovarian cysts and i started a wicked period yesterday and it is even harder not to go getpills when i actually am in pain. the bright side to thaat is my birth control should knock that out by the end of the day. sorry if that is tmfi. i caled my mom and best friend this morning to brag and hearng how proud they are gave me even a bigger boost! . i still feel like breaking down and crying every so often but just keep reminding myself how strong i am and that I AM IN CONTROL!!!!!!!!!. my biggest problem at this point is being so restless and still not having enough energy to do anything How long will it take before my energy and motivation will return? i know it is still early but i would like that to be soomething to look forward to. thank you everyone for you kind words and support, at first i was skeptical about posting but it has proved to be very therapeudic and it is amazing how many perfect strangers care so much. you are me!
I started taking hydros 7.5s one or two times a day for energy...but I wasn't addicted to them until about a 2 years ago when a guy gave me full bottle of them ...now god I don't know how much money I spend on those stupid pills. My contact I got my pills off of the the other quit selling them... I know what it feels like to do without them cause I ran out for a couple of days all you do is lay around with no energy... I just want to feel normal again. Im down to my last two pills ...and im dreading the detox. But I know its for the best...how long will it take to get ur old body back????and its stupid too I would take them just to feel like my old self. Don't get no energy anymore...how long does it take to get over the withdrawls?
HI MY NAME IS PAULINE. today is one week and two days sober. THIS IS MY 3RD TIME TYING TO QUIT.I BEEN TAKING PILLS FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS. I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I QUIT I WENT COLD TURKEY. I THOUGHT I WAS GNG TO LAY IN BED ALL DAY BUT INSTEAD I KEPT MYSELF ACTIVE LIKE CLEANING THE HOUSE OUTSIDE WHATEVER I CAN TO KEEP ME ON MY FEET. IT HELPED ALOT UNTIL I WOULD GO TO BED. AS TIRED AS I WAS I COULDN'T SLEEP I WOULD ONLY GET LIKE 4 HOURS OF SLEEP. IT DIDN'T TAKE ME LONG TO GET BACK ON THEM BECAUSE MY GIRLFRIEND TAKES THEM. THAT WAS ONE OF THE REASONS WHY I RELAPSED. I'M SO TIRED OF BEING ON THESE PILLS. ITS TAKES MY MONEY, HEALTH, PRIDE, ENERGY, AWAY FROM ME. I STARTED THE PILLS FOR THE FUN OF IT BECAUSE I LIKED THE HIGH. NOW I FIND MYSELF ALL ALONE DOING THIS BECAUSE MY GIRL STILL TAKES THEM. THIS TIME AROUNG IT WAS SO MUCH EASIER FOR ME BECAUSE I WAS USING TREMEDOLS TO REPLACE THE NORCOS. I DO GET RESTLESS IN MY LEGS FROM TIME TO TIME. I FIND MYSELF THINKING ABOUT THE PILLS MORE THEN WHEN I WOULD TAKE THEM. I GUESS I MIND **** MYSELF. I AM DETERMINED TO STAY SOBER BECAUSE I KNOW IM BETTER THAN THAT. I JUST WANT TO THANK EVERYONE IN HERE FOR YOUR STORIES BECAUSE THEY ARE MY MOTIVATION.
Hi Pauline - you posted on an old thread and if you copy and paste what your wrote into a new thread you would get a ton of support /comments. Just click on the orange button at the top that says "Post a Question." Good for you for getting your life back and you're doing great! You're over the hump and will begin to feel better soon!!
Hey guys m so glad iv discoverd ds site...iv been addicted to painkillers for the past 2years,myprodols and genpyn to be precise.I used to take 4-5pills 3-4 times a day sumtimes even more.iv now decided to go cold turkey coz I cnt take it anymore,mylife was revolving around these pills.this is my 2nd day now n I must admit is hell I feel like m dying,m restless,cnt sleep and iv lost my apetite.cold and hot flushes the whole day and an upset stomach pains n cramps on my body n feet...I donot hav any suport system or wat so eva.my family n friends dnt knw abt ds coz iv been keepin it a secret all ds time m too ashamed.how long will ds w/d take pls and how long wil it take for me to feel better,I need to knw alteast so dt I cn motivate my self.iv been praying a lot n dt helps.
Man its SOO hard. I cant even explain. Ive wanted to quit For years. Ive almost lost my perfect amazing family... I was taking my father n laws percs. And that got out of control.....And i still couldnt stop. I slowed down. Even stopped taking them alltogether but i was drinking.. My husband confronted me om drinking. He didnt want me turning out like my alcohalic mother.... So... I dont drink anymore. But i relapsed on pills only this time it was my mother n laws norcos.... I hate my addiction. I hate the fact it so hard to quit this time around. Ive done it a few times. But only switched to drinking or other things ... not to mention. But ive turned my life around with a perfect 13 month old daughter. .. And im done takinf her pills. I CANT lose my family. But im Already hurtint ... Ugh. And i took some today.... I know the next week is going to be hard. Thank yu guys for the ideas on home detoxing..... I think i must just get over my pride and tell my husbNd im detoxing and its gunna be hard..... Ugh..... Ok i can do this... ****.... Anxiety like a mutha F**************** thanx again tho... Ok. I can do this... Think symptons of the flu.... I just got the flu.!!! I just got the flu!!! It will all b over n a couple days....... Dnt believe the devil. Dont believ the lies.... Yu dnt want any excuse to take another pil... COLD TURKEY. we can do this.... Dont listen to yourself..... Dont listen to your decieving self... Sleep... When your daughter is... ( YA RIGHT ) And drink lots of milk, Bendryl or tylenol PM... ASPRIN.... Ok. We cann do this LORD BE WITH ME AND KEEP THIS JESSICA... this real me strong and away from temptation!!!!!!! Amen
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