How many others have experienced this???

[c7ski]

Hello All!  I am new to this so I will give it a shot!  I was married for 12 years and found out through cell phone records that my husband was having an affair.  He obviously wanted to get caught because he left the track of cell phone records to indicate an affair.  This totally turned my world upside down.  I love him very much and did my best to continue to strive in education, career and raising our two children.  Anyway, my sad story could continue but it's been over 2 years now and the pain has been lifted.  My problem during the separation/divorce was I turned to alcohol to numb my pain.  Oh boy.....did I enjoy my cold beers and the ones to follow.  My pain was so overwhelming I thought by drinking myself to sleep it would take my pain away.  On certain days, I would drink about 12 beers from after work until about 10pm.  It's painfully clear, I was drinking heavily to subside my pain.  My loving family felt me pulling away from everyone as I would lock myself in my house to consume all the beer I possibly could to numb the pain.  My family held an intervention for me as they noticed many behavioral problems arise including my work (which I absolutely love) was on the decline too.  I entered rehab for 3 days and it was the best thing I could have ever done.  I realized that if I don't snap out of this behavior and try another method to relieve my pain, I would be down the road shaking and going through withdrawals as I witness so many people in with this side effect.  I have never done any illegal drugs, nor abuse prescription drugs, but the beer gave me the high I needed to get by.  My question now, after many months of sober-free living while focusing on my painful divorce and rebuilding myself, can I ever be a social drinker again?  This crosses my mind often and I don't know if this could ever happen again.  Any thoughts?  

[ladyboop]

I see you have much feedback on this.. I will leave my 2 cents.. I was a very heavy drinker at one time. Had to go to hospital for detox. That was 1993. I could have never done it the first few years. A.A really helped me. Did that for 2 yrs. But now I can take or leave a drink. I do not reccomend it. The chances of waking up whatever is inside may be to big of a risk.. For now, Just worry about grtting better.. I too was down that road. Married 18yrs, Plus lost my father to cancer at the same time. Knocked me off my feet. I like you, am getting better...

One day at a time....

   Lady

[Brrrrad]

I agree w/ most of these posts i drank heavy everyday after work for quite awhile so much so my legs were going numb and my side hurt.
I have not had a drink in ten years and my advice is please don`t even give it a chance. Your rite it does feel good thats why we over due it,if it did`nt we would`nt.  Stay Strong and don`t talk your self into anything

[10356]

Congratulations on quitting drinking.. I will be drink free 1yr this July 4th I personally will never pick up a drink again.. Fear... I do not want to tempt that kind of He!! into my life again..  I love waking up everyday feeling good :)

[worried878]

I can feel ur pain...I had to end a 17 year marriage due to the same type thing...he married this girl so then she had to stay in my life and in my childrens life...was alot to swallow to say the least...she dies of cancer last year...anyway...i adjusted and u seem to be as well...I drank alot during this time...happened 15 years ago....i get bad hamgovers..worse than most...and slacked way off after a few years...I have to work and can not afford to feel bad during the day..and dont like feeling bad on my days off...so it really keeps me in check....BUT...my girlfriend...sober for five years can not drink...she has been dabbling with it as of late and I do believe her when she tells me she is an alcoholic now...i had never been around her drinking before...it gets way out of hand and i "think" she is on the wagon again..I hope so...she is the type drinker that could get in very serious trouble..she also abuses drugs but is trying to quit tramadol right now...that is a hard call to make...

[dominosarah]

I am an alcoholic also and i know that i cant touch a drop to these lips cuz if i do its all over but the crying. I am what i am and that is an addict.  Its tough to face our pain but adding chemicals makes it much worse.

You are doing great. Keep looking forward.  You dont need that poison in your life.   sara

[c7ski]

Oh Florida_guy737- It's taken me about 2 years to deal with all this pain stuff and the next steps of being single, single mom...all that **** that comes with divorce.... But....hey....I'll get there!  Thanks again....

[Florida_Guy737]

Hi - congrats on seeing through your pain;  it sounds like you are on your way to the next great phase in your life; you never know what awaits you around the corner.

Good Luck,

[c7ski]

Thank you ALL!  Your comments make perfect sense!  I guess I will have to accept the fact that I went down the road to abuse and overstepped boundaries which was made by my poor choices.  I always hated the saying "you are the choices that you make".......but this analogy is so crystal clear to me know.

[cathy5841]

hi and welcome t the forum.  i was not a drinker, but a pill abuser.  i know i can never take a pill for pleasure again.  as an addict we have trouble doing our DOC in moderation.  most of the time it leads to full blown addiction again in a very short time.  i would be very, very careful with drinking.  i highly recommend you do not ever take that first drink.  addcition is very cunning and wants you to believe youcan do it socially...NOT...good luck to you and stick around.

[malenurse57]

Most emphatically NO!!! I was a heavy drinker for years and just one drink will awaken that demon again and I will not risk going back there. My prayers are with you. God bless.

[scaredmommie]

my husband before i met him was a heavy drinker he would drink vodka from 6 in the morning till about 11 or 12 at night then when he met me he started to stop cause i got pregnant now its been 10 years and he can have a few drinks here and there at parties and stuff you just have to be careful dont over do it just have like 1 or 2 drinks at parties and if the first ti,e you have the feelings of wanting to drink heavily again then its best you not everyone is diffrent.