Never had to go to the streets, thank the Lord,i probably would have been dead if i did. I was getting morphine and percs from my pain specialist so i could always make them last, I got one scrip at the first of the month and one in the middle. But it didnt matter i am still an Addict no matter how you look at it, i was just a legal addict
done did em both... :( maria all is good now...all is good
Dark doorways, high-end uptown apartments, VIP Lounges in clubs and bathrooms in bars. That was the life for me.
Going to the doctor involved to much paperwork.
I hate paperwork. :->
I only used what I got from my dr. She was VERY generous..When i would run out..I would go to see her...and whine that the prescribed dosage was not enough...she would up it..again and again..So glad those days are gone....
Oh gosh, I do both I guess.. I have my doctor, then I go to the ER if i'm really hard up for something.. I buy from friends who know friends.. etc.. I get them from family members. And What is so sad, what someone said above is 'no one would ever think to look at me'.. well when I go to the ER, I mention what I do for a living, and always make sure I look 'so so'.. Like i'm fooling anyone.. pfft! it makes me sick the way I am. And Its sad that I just said that about my self.. I spent $70 this morning, and I will go after work and spend $100.. B/c I look so nice and sweet, and have a great career that I will eff up one day, I ask people to front to me, b/c 'boy I'll get paid on this date, and can pay you,, Front me big time.. I want all you got!" What a joke I am. I'd rather have pills then food. My adreneline rush is so high when I'm fixing to score or know I have somethign to take, I can't eat.. but I have too so I wont' get sick, so I can eat like a granola bar.. And I've even gotten to the point of asking people that I don't even know.. Just waiting at a store to see if someone looks like they might have something. I could get killed doing that.. But sweat is pouing down my face, and I need it so bad. I've even asked people that i do business with.. I could lose my job that way.. I've gotten lucky that way twice, but one day, I won't be so lucky. I am at work now, and had to take 2 tens b/c my head hurts so bad, soo soo bad.. god I'm so effed up.. Oh well, did that answer your survey!!
i got mine from a guy that was getting them legally....and then i kept buying all his ****...i could get them from my own dr but only 3-4 times a year so i was careful when to ask..
a women that use to be a guy.!
i got my heroin from a dominican transvestor
i did both but mostly off street and i got up to a 2 hundred a day habit and i was getting a decent deal cuz i bought em so much compared to other people i knew buying em from same people WOW 200 a day everyday mayb i could get by on like 150/160 but geez that is soooo dam sick i cant even stand to think of that sht
I always bought from the street, but my DOC was not pills, although i did buy percs a few times off the street. Doing coke brought me to some nasty places sometimes, but when craving, all my fears went away and looking back i risked so much going to some of these dealers. I dealt with some bikers for awhile and i remember some crazy stuff. One of my friends at the time also dealt just small time, but they were never really true friends, just people to get high with. Drug deals don't always go smooth. So glad those days are over.
Oh my gosh, I took only prescription from my very own rheumy, and later Pain Specialist. The ps really must have thought I was shopping, I really wasn't in search of anything but answers, he didn't know that. He questioned my SLE and I asked him why he wasn't sent anymore information on me from my previous dr( rheumy) and he said "I don't know" I was pissed about the way I was treated oh, man!! After being on here awhile it all made sense to me. Nevertheless, I am a chronic pain sufferer and someone who needed more and more of the same **** that my body seemed to grow use to. No matter, someday I may have to use the pain pills again but I will treat them with a greater knowledge than before.
Guess I needed to vent a little too!
Ella
I lived on the streets using and using and using for 2 yrs. today I can happily say am clean and warm and dry!!!!.My doc was crack and booze.
thinking back on the situations i put myself in to get pills..literally scares me to death now..u can make some pretty strange friends in the dope world...and looking at me u would never guess i was in those types of places..my mama would kill me! I do feel that doctor shopping or blowing up a complaint in order to get more pills is wrong as well..but alot safer..altho doctor shopping is a dangerous occupation and can land ur fanny in ail just as quick as buying on the streets/if not quicker...i was surprised to c how many here used without going to the streets..more than i woulda thought...oh well..thing is we all got a handle on it and being here is a wonderful place for all of us to be! (:
My scripts eventually didnt fill my need ..... so I went to the streets. I spent time and nights in places where people got shot rather regularly..... as I reflect upon it, it was quite insane. Have no idea how much money I put in the underground economy - but I do know that it was significant..................
i now live in the south east soon to be west coast, but i can tell you that it is not hard to find a doctor to get you pills
pain management clinics are called dope houses! there everywhere!
it does not matter where you got you drugs, some people that come in for treatment feel as if their problem is somewhat less than a street junkie, but they go through the same detox, and respond to the same tx
i find no difference in my disease when i am taking doctor prescribed meds, or herion
my body does not know the difference, it feels the same, however there is more of a stigma to the lady who sells herself for herion vs., the soccor mom down the steet draging her kids to pain clinics
in the end it didnt matter where got my dope, only what i wanted to do about getting clean
never did i go to the streets.....wouldn't even know how! too much of a suburban mom, i guess....ha! nope, i just stuck with what the dr. prescribed.....glad i did or i might have had a much harder time getting off and staying off.....my dr. was very strict and actually got a print-out every month of what narcotics you picked up and where (legally, at pharmacies), so you wouldn't even be able to dr. shop with him (good thing, too)....he's on top of things.....as long as you take as he prescribes, you're fine with him....but if you went off and screwed things up, you would have been outta luck with him.....and doctors like that are not that easy to find around here either.....EVERY neurologist i went to said no to any narcotics (although one prescribed a small amt. for me (1-2/day) over a period of a few years.....but can't find 'em anymore.....that's why i was referred to this pain mgmt. guy....so the south is not the only place where doctors are stingy with writing out the scripts.....in my opinion, i believe they've ALL, all across this whole country, stopped handing them out like candy....they've seen the epidemic they've caused in the past....good!!
NEVER did i buy off the streets thank heaven but I had two surgeons a family Dr and a comp. Dr all of them gave me pills I was getting oxy, percs, loratab, soma, kolonipin, paxil, flexeril so i didnot need to buy off the street, and my wife was getting oxys and loratab, and some darvon from a pain Dr. I was in heaven but on my way to @3$%
I did both.Like you the prescriptions never lasted and I would start blowing up the dealers phone.I would 'borrow' pills from people too,then have to return them when I got my script filled.Sometimes,towards the end most times,by the time I got my script filled I owed them all out.I was spending on average anywhere between $150.00-$200.00 a week!!!!!!!! Makes me sick to even think about all the money I was blowing on my habit and all the things I could have done with that money.I'm so glad to not have to live like that anymore.That wasn't living at all......Kim