How much longer

[wantinglifeagain]

25 days off 200mg of oxycontin daily for 2 years.. Still sick 1/2 the day and other 1/2 I'm ok. Very little sleep yet. .Anxiety so bad I can't leave the house. More like panic. Chills, shakes, sweats, diahrrea and a lot of gagging... Is this PAWS or slow withdrawl??
Any help/advice answer will be very appreciated. Thanks

[VICourageous]

Good Job so far..Just keep pushing forward..I always say Time will mend this open wound..With Time comes Patience. Try not to put a time limit on this..Some bounce back quicker then others..There is a lot of factors involved why..Like how many Years, How many MG in a Day, what Drug, Age and Health. PAWS is a bit overrate at times on here..Your Brain/Body is still re-adjusting back from the removal of these Stims. Just be careful with the Benzo. Over 15 Months ago I c/t a Benzo with my Methadone & one other Drug..The Benzo made it lingerer on for ever with the Anxiety. Try to redirect your Mind from this issue..I sure hope you are drinking plenty of Fluids. Get some electrolyte and protein powders. Make sure you are taking some good Vit/Min..We have to replenish back what we have lost during our Substance Abuse. Exercise & Diet plays one of the Biggest roles in this recovery..Are you planning on getting after care, or are you already hitting some meetings or any out side support?? Just keep checking in and letting us know how it is going or just jump on in..There are many other communitys that need support too! Be Safe!!! Just stay in-tune with the Mental waves..This here shall pass in time.
Bless

[wantinglifeagain]

Man...90 days.. Great job to you. No na yet. Its been almost impossible to leave the house as my anxiety hours to panic as i start to. This is all new to me.. I was a drinker in the past and have dealt with some anxiety before but this is through the roof. I'm supposed to go back to work next week and at this point i just don't know if i can. Next Friday i see a doc for this issue. In the meantime i have had to take some very low dose Benzos. That scares the scares me badly...i can't handle any kind of another withdrawal right now phsycologically but its the only thing that helps.

[gnarly_1]

Hi that was quite a habit you had , you did not become a addict over night you wont get better over night ether . I detoxed off methadone and was dope sick for 90 days so I know how you feel you should start to fell a little better each day each week it comes in baby steps..''.as addicts we want it and we want it now'' but recovery does not work that way it is what it is and will take as long as takes just know you will get better. I often say this to people...''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' this to shall pass hang bin there and keep posting with time you will get better have you checked out N/A yet??? if not get to a meeting good luck and God bless..........Gnarly

[Amandag78]

No worries. Some times even I have 3 sucky days, then 1 great day, and it does play with our heads and emotions quite a bit. But at least we are all going through the same thing together. I have 5 weeks clean today and im not in perfect health, but its way, way better than day 2. Again, your doing really great.

[drywallking75]

Been clean for three days from perk tens. I have always had abuse problems but nothing like this. I have been on drugs for most of my 38 year life.  Funny thing is no one knows bc they im the strongest person they know .but in reality im the weakest bc i hide my problem so well.

[Hjk77]

You are doing amazing.  Congratulations on your 25th day.  That's awesome.  I am on my 27 day clean from oxy.  I was taking 3-4 a day I was taking 7-12 lortab a day before that for a year.  I mostly used at work because I hate my job and the pills made my day go faster.  I go back to work tomorrow and I quite nervous about it.  I can tell you I feel much better than I did 10 days ago and I know I'll feel better 19 days from now.  The mental is what is getting to me now.  I freak out all the time about things that hasn't happened.  I make up negative stuff in my mind and freak myself out.  That when I pick up my guitar or clean something.  I was very lucky to have a dr help me with my anxiety.  There are vitamins out there that can help you like, liquid B12, and L-theanine for anxiety, Epsom salt for leg cramps.  Your brain has to heal and vitamin B's are good for the brain.  My dr gave me a lot of anti depressants like cymbalta, trazadone, hydroxydine but I can't take any of them cause they make me sick to my stomach, and they make me puke.  Good luck.  I am not a strong person if I can do it you can too.  This website has really helped me, I am on here a lot if you want to talk more.  

[OxyTired]

My daily dose of oxy was 1/3 of yours. But I abused it to, up tp your level and beyond. Mental clarity and peace take awhile. Our brain chemical messenger system becomes totally deranged on oxy. But it will heal, if we are patient.
I don't tell myself I want to feel such and so by this or that day clean. Seems not to work that way. At six months clean for me, many issues are gone, but I am still a work in progress.
I just take it one day at a time now, and try to work my recovery program to make each day just a little better. Works sometimes, sometimes my best efforts go all wonky, but I consider the day a success because I made it without pills.
I am kinda scared of them. I know how much I like the buzz. So I have been trying to follow the advice of the Forum here.
Cut all sources.
Let others know my "dark secret.
Work a daily program.
Keep my guard up. Somewhere in a later post, Kyle said the battle is never over. We are never cured. But we can live a clean life. Just keep that number one always.
To your question, the mental battles ease up considerably with time. We just cannot afford to get to comfortable and complacent. The addictive beast is always with us and waiting patiently for a moment when our guard is down.
Best to you!

[wantinglifeagain]

Thank you both..I needed to hear something that made a little sense. Yes, I'm way better than first couple weeks but nowhere near where I thought I'd be at day 25..

[tooter212]

No it's not PAWS. I thought I had it too. Also thought I was going to die. But guess what. so does everyone else. It's just a time thing. You should be feeling better by now though. You do feel better than when you first quit don't you? I'm 2 1/2 months clean and I can tell you, it does get better!! It seems like every 3 or 5 days I see a marked improvement. I can't wait to see 90 days!! They say that's a real big one. I know you hate to hear the word "time" but that's what it takes. Don't give up now,you'll soon see a big difference. God Bless you and have a Happy New Year

[Amandag78]

Hi, sounds like your getting better. You say half  the day your ok, the other half not so good. Thats quite normal in later stages of w/d's. Shouldnt be too much longer now. No energy and tiredness is the last thing to subside and that takes 2-3 months to fully end. But oxy is strong as you know, and your a trooper coming off those. Anxiety hangs around as well but mine finished at day 30.

A big well done for 25 days, very long time for you im guessing. The days will get shorter and you should take a turn for the better by about day 30.  Most people do, some dont, but the half days feeling ok and then not, means your getting better and hopefully the next week or two you should be feeling much more alive. Best of luck.