How to get off these stupid hydros

[nikole65]

Well I have been on vics for about 5years it has ruined my life in every aspect , I get 120 of them a month (10milg) they r gone in 7 days if that. Then for the remainder of the month I get them off the street. I'm still using but as of Monday I will be out of them,I really want to stop taking them I'm just so scared I hate not being able to sleep at nite and being so depressed I went through wds last Friday and made it until Monday whn my script got filled can someone please help me I can't say anythng to anyone cause my family Is very judgemental and my boyfriend would kill me if he knew so can someone please help me :,(

[Michiganguy328]

Hang in there Nikole.  Have you talked to any treatment centers?  Have you talked to an Adictionologist?  I can only talk from my experiance and know that they have been a huge help for me.  Be strong and keep telling yourself "This to shall pass" when you feel you have hit bottom.  Keep posting and hang tough; life is so much better when your head and body are clean and free...

Gary

[Lisa034]

Baby please do not be so hard on yourself.  Sometimes, a lot of times, relapse is a part of recovery.   Do not focus on this thing you did wrong, but try to learn from it. One thing and I think the first thing you must do if you want to get clean and stay clean is change your telephone number!!!! You must change people, places and things.  Like another wise person on this site said today "you can not get on the ride if you are not in the amusement park"  Pick yourself up and move on.  Do not stay stuck here or else you will not be able to move on and move forward. Good lord if I posted everytime I have relapsed there would be not other posts on here but mine. I have not taken a pill since March of this year.  Just keep trying and one of these times is gonna be your time. I promise!!!!!
Sending my thoughts and prayers your way
Lisa
Jacksonville,FL

[nikole65]

I screwed up big time I fought it then an hour later went and bought some why ol why did I do this to my self I'm so ashamed of myself tall have helped me so much but I let the devil n and screwed up god I wish I could die please what have I done

[Lisa034]

Sooooooooooo did you do it or not.  I am thinking no,,,,,,,,please hang in there you are so very close.  Just one or two more days and you are home free.  Find out where some NA meetings are close to your house, you dont have to talk you can just listen. Please just hang in there baby girl not tooo much longer.  

Lisa
Jacksonville,FL

[qiut4myself]

don't take them, day 3 is the worse. If you can just make it another hour, then a day, then a week. You want off the ride, you have jumped off, so stay off! Everyday from here out will get better.

[nikole65]

So I just met with the dealer he was going to give me three well that wouldn't get me high so why waste that so I left them n the car and left I feel like **** now im cranky cause if I had the money I woulda bought the pills Jesus what is wrong with me

[nikole65]

Ok so I need some help fast today is day three of withdrawls my dealer just called and he has vics I'm so close to getting some I don't knw why I keep screwing up on day three please please help me say no god I'm a lost cause

[Cindy5574]

Happy B-Day on on day 5 of Cold Turkey. I hope you have a wonderful B-Day!

[Lisa034]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!  You are doing great you are almost there.  This is a good present to give yourself and your family.  Go to gnc and get some valerian root.  It is natures valium and it will help with the anxiety and it will help you sleep. Hang in there baby girl you are soooooo close.  
Sending my love
Lisa
Jacksonville,FL

[nikole65]

Hi it's 1030am I went for a walk with my boyfriend it felt good I'm hoping today will be good because it's my bday and I don't want to put on a fake smile bob how had it been for u these last couple weeks clean what can I start to expect or hope for I just want to start feeling better thanks for keeping up with me

[jstntime]

Hey again,

2 weeks ago, I was exactly where you are now.  This is a critical time for you.  You need to muster up the will to get through this.  Most of us on here know exactly how you are now feeling.  

Get through the day Nick.  Keep your mind busy.  EVERYTHING gets a little better after the end of day 3 and when you feel the physical symtoms going the other way, you will feel empowered to go the rest.  You ar SOOOOOO close girl, please hang in there.

It all comes down to how bad you want it.  Short-term pain for a lifetime of freedom.

Go Nikole!!!!!!

bob

[nikole65]

Well here it is 330am I haven't slept at all this is driving me insane I'm so tired but can't stay still how long does the rls last i just would like some sleep I hate opiates god I hate them thanks for responding back guess I will tlk to ya soon

[jstntime]

Hey again,

The highs and lows are very normal Nick.  The same thing happened to me (and many others I've read about).

You aren't faking the love.  Just think how good it will be when you're out of your fog.

If you can't sleep, don't lie in bed.  It is too frustrating!!!  Get up and come here and read or write how you feel.  It is always a nice reminder later about why we need to stay clean.

The sleep will come, I promise.

You are soooo close to getting over the hump.
We're pulling for you,

bob

[nikole65]

Thank u yea I think I'm going to get vitamins tommorrow cause I'm having really bad highs and lows one min I'm laughing alil bit then the next I'm crying and wish I would die i knw that's not the way to tlk but at this point why lie I have done so much of it with these stupid pills I'm over it I want to love my boyfriend sober and u knw what's the worst I have been high the entire time we have been together so does that mean I'm faking the love or is it really there I feel like I have a mask on and I wish I could rip it off.thank ytall for all the inspiring words it helps more than I would have ever imgained I hope everyone gets a piece of mind and some sleep cause geez I would love to sleep thanks again.hugs to all

[Michiganguy328]

I am with you on the Vic withdrawls and I'm also on Benzo withdrawl too.  It all started with a script from my "Doctor" and 7 months later I finally figured out my body was dependant on these drugs.  The best advice I can give you is to do what I did.  I went to the hospital my "Doctor" worked out of and told them what was going on when I was in the beginning stages of withdrawls from refusing to take anymore.  I scared the **** out of them and they found me an adictionologist and a treatment center.  It was hell to get off these and I'm still going through withdrawls after 32 days, but there is light at the end of the tunnel and I feel a zillion times better.  Please seek professional help from a withdrawl clinic.  

Gary

[bmdad]

Congrats on day 2! Every passing hour of being clean is something to be proud of. Two years ago I went cold turkey and it was on my birthday. I just told my family I had the flu so my parents wouldn't come over. I also have kept mine a secret so if people question how you are feeling just blame it on the flu. Do you have any refills on your script? If so, I would call the pharmacy and tell them you no longer need them. Also, you could talk to your doctor and tell him you no longer need them. Tell him you haven't taken any for a day or two and he may prescribed something to help. One thing that my doctor prescribed was clonodine. It is a blood pressure med that is prescribed for withdrawals. It helps with the elevated heart rate associated with withdrawals. It also helps with the hot/cold flashes and can help a bit with the sleep. One thing that has helped me more than anything is exercise. I know it's the last thing on your mind due to the lack of energy but helps so much. Just start with a short walk around the block. You'll be surprised on how you'll just end up walking further and further each time. Toss in some headphones with some of our favorite music and give it a try. I noticed while walking or jogging that I didn't even really feel the withdrawals. Not sure if it was because my body needed the exercise or my mind was just preoccupied by it. Either way, I feel exercise is a must. It helps speed up the whole withdrawal process. Also be sure to push the fluids and eat healthy. Check in to the amino acid protocol in the health pages. The vitamins and supplements really help restore all the nutrients we lost while using.
Be sure to stay mentally strong and remember that it will get better! I know it's hard to believe that we can get back to our previous state before using but we can and will. It's just easy to think like that because sometimes a bit of depression sets in during withdrawals and we think our life will never be the same. The fact is you life will be so much better once you are clean! It is so worth the fight! This fight won't be easy and sometimes you'll have doubts on whether or not you will win. But remember that many others out there have won and people are winning the battle of addiction everyday. You can also win! Just stay mentally focused and tell yourself every minute that failure is not a option. I wish you the best of luck and if you need anything, please let me know.
Brian

[nikole65]

well im on day two,yesterday all i did was cry,but today i got up and got some breakfast,im not feeling great but not awful either,lastnite i didnt sleep worth a darn but oh well i guess,tommorrow is my bday it will probably be the worst day yet :(

[keekee57]

Hi nick, either get help, admit to doc of your problem, as your system will quickly addapt to more and more. please get help

[jstntime]

Hey Nick,

It very well may be easier.  I have seen many comments on "re-setting" WD's but they are all over the place in terms of what effect short-term use has.  It's different for everyone.

I took a few ativan on days 4 and 5 for sleep and they worked pretty good.  I didn't get the amnesia though (which would have been nice ha ha).  

Yes, drop the dealer.  Your own Doctor may give you some if you tell him what you're dealing with (if you can).

Great choice to stop you guys,

bob

[nikole65]

thank you im hoping i can get through this,last week when i went through wds i was hurting but not bad,do you knw if this time when i go through wds will it be worst than last week the same or maybe (crossing my fingers) a little easier? ive asked around for benzos but havent had any luck my dealer has them i think but im not going to talk to him anymore and he is being a jerk so i think its better for me just not speak to him, do you think i could go to the er and tell them im having a time with anxitey and maybe they could scribe me something or is that not a good idea either

[googzy]

Can u get ir hands on some benzos? When I've withdrawed I've taken them for the few nights that I couldn't sleep. I has 2mg bars that I broke in Half. They give me amnesia of sorts, which is good cus I don't remember how ****** I felt that night. Just make sure you stop taking the bemzos or you'll have another thing to wd from, been there and the benzo wd makes the hydro wd a walk in the park.

It's noon and I haven't taken today, day one. I've found that I don't feel the effects of the hydro on a full stomach... So when I feel the urge, I've been drinkig juice or a protein shake until I'm full, mentally I know taking the hydro is a waste so I haven't taken any... Hehe.

[jstntime]

Hey Nick,

You still have some work to do.  It might not be as bad but depends how many you took over how much time that will determine that.  It's ok.

You obviously can go 3 days.  Gitter' done, you are SO damn close.  When you start to feel the symptoms going in the other direction, you will wish you had done this long ago.

We're pulling for you,

bob

[nikole65]

Yea I should have not picked up the script Monday I could have made it probably but instead I went and got my script and messed up my 3days clean.do u think the wds will be worst than last week it wasn't horribly bad I just didn't like that I couldn't sleep that's the worst for me so now come tommorrow I will be wd again I will not get anymore because I have no money so that's a good thing I just don't knw how Ima be able to function :,(

[jstntime]

C'mon guys,

Your ONLY mistake was the first one you took and for most of us, it came from a "professional".

Don't be so hard on yourselves.  The scared feeling is because you already know how you're going to feel.  If you've made 3 days, my God, you are SOOOO close to getting over the "hump".

Googzy, your story mimicks 95% of us on here.  It is WAY more common than you think.

This drug makes you believe it is no longer your choice to take.  Don't believe the lie,  it is 100% your choice.  Make a plan (like Googzy), get sick, get through it and get back in control.

It all comes down to how bad you want it.  Do you want to stay on the carousel????

Post back often and everyone here will walk you through this,
It isn't easy, but it's very doable.

Signed, a long time rider who wishes he had gotten off a LONG time ago!!! (2 weeks today!!!),

bob