How to live a sober life?

i am 22 days clean and while i'm proud of this, how do i get over the fact that life is BLAH! i don't feel like i want a pill and i am seeing a counselor who specializes in addiction--however, i have no energy and no desire to do anything! everything seems to be a massive undertaking...it seems everything i did centered around pills, from getting up and having my coffee to shopping, cleaning, ect...you know the drill!

i know that when someone relapses, it starts waaay before the craving--and i'm afraid if i don't get a handle on this i will relapse...please help me to figure this out!

[freshstart01]

Be proud and don't cave. Keep talking to friends and family . I caved and regret it. I feel guilt. You don't want those feelings. I take a pill once in a while otherwise would be 40 days clean, took 1 day 16, bad move! Stay strong. How did you bring it up with your counselor? Seeing one today.

[ladywithtime]

my counselor suggests that i meet new sober people...sounds easy enough but i'm experiencing major social anxiety so going to a meeting freaks me out! you said that you're seeing a counselor today? that's great! don't be afraid to be honest because believe me they have heard and seen everything! lol. my counselor is helping me so much, however, i'm at the point where i need to help MYSELF more, ya know? at this point my lack of energy and motivation is holding me back big time! i'm sitting here with a bunch of teenagers and i swear they are worst than toddlers! actually they are depressing me!

i want to wish you luck with your counselor, they can be a great help! God Bless.

[freshstart01]

Thanks. Dr put me on wellbutrin for depression and fatigue. Suppose to be stimulating, thus not making us so tired .... I'm nervous about counselor. Since I currently am taking a pill a day. Will they turn me away? Am I suppose to be totally clean?

[ladywithtime]

i don't think that will be a problem because when i first started to see my counselor i was on a very low dose of suboxone (.5mg) and he knew about it. the fact that your reaching out to see a counselor shows how much you want to be clean. be honest, listen to their advice and learn about yourself and this horrible disease of addiction.

[freshstart01]

Thanks. I will do my best. Are you off the subs now? Did the counseling really really help?

[ladywithtime]

i am 22 days clean from the subs and about 6 weeks clean for perks/oxy...and yes the counseling does help me. in the begining the counselor was another person who held me accountable--and when i was going through the worst of the w/ds it felt good to talk to someone who understood what i was going through and he made me feel i wasn't alone. now that i'm past the acute w/ds he is helping me to navigate a life that's sober.

as i stated in my original post, the hard work needs to come from me...meaning, i only see him 2xs a week and the other 5 days i'm on my own and that's why he wants me to seek sober company through AA or NA, hence, my dilema. the social anxiety is getting to me so i need to figure out how to get past this. the counselor is all but one tool--and as recovering addicts we need all the help we can get!

[freshstart01]

I see. They are 1 tool but we need many. My counselor also has an NA group....Good luck and thanks for info. Very helpful.