Hydrogirl, Please talk to your Parents

[Gypsygirl66]

Hydrogirl, I truly wish you would talk to your parents you will feel so much better once theey say it's ok and they love you. I know that you believe that you are going to somehow crush your them. Believe me as a parent you are wrong, they are going to be relieved. I don't care how much you think you've let them down. ALL a parent wants for their child (especially daughters) is for them to get the help they need. Your being an addict is not going to be a big surprise after all you've been through and it certainly, PLEASE BELIEVE ME won't disappoint them,  even if they didn't know. They love you UNCONDITIONALLY.

[Gypsygirl66]

They are you bestt chance at getting the help you need.

[lil_rab2005]

I totally agree with gypsy.. I had to come clean with my hubby and he loves me so much that he's supporting me and knowing that it makes it easier knowing he's on my side.  Then I quit my job of 4 years to just get away from the things. ugh.. I wish the best of luck.  You can do it!!  God bless, lil.

[beachtowel]

I wanted to tell my parents very bad, ,I knew that my Mom saw a huge difference in my personality and appearence but could only speculate to where my life was at.
I finally broke down and went to talk with my dad, he put a 30-30 rifle to my chest and walked me out the back door telling me he didn't have junkies in his house................................

[lil_rab2005]

I really do feel sorry for your experience in tellin your dad... that's terrible but I don't think that's how hydrogirl's parents are gonna react if they knew she was stealin and took her in anyways.  They love her to death obviously.  Tellin them she has a problem with the things will actually make them think better of her then her stealing just for more money in her pocket.  I'll be praying for you also beachtowel :) take care.... and I'm here if you wanna talk   lil.

[Gypsygirl66]

I guess I can only speak from a mothers perspective. Only you know your parents. I'm telling you though that this is a rare case above

[lil_rab2005]

And I also talked to my own mother.  I'm 36 years old and I felt like I was 16 again.  And she loves me for it.  I promised her that I would never take another pill again though.  And she and I know I never break a promise.  That was a thing in our family never to say promise unless you damn well meant it.  So I have that promise to ride along with my children and hubby growin' old with me to give me encouragement not to do it ever again.  I'm tryin my hardest.  The lady down the street has had them for 3 days but I told her not to give me one no matter how much I beg.  I did ask her for one 3 days ago though but that was after I told her not to give me one heheheee so she didn't thank god!!!  Take care and god bless, lil.

[beachtowel]

Most addicts have core issues....it is the physical make-up of these issues that is the source of many addicts.
My father was my biggest core issue, but I have overcome them and living a much happier life these days......

I am not saying if it is good or bad for her to speak to her parents and I do know it is probably easier for a girl with her parents...I hope so....
the bottom line is if an addict has a good support group behind them there success rate increases dramaticly............

I always wish the best for everyone here,  I may come on a little blunt with some of my comments but I always try to tell the truth even though the truth sometimes can feel like a knife............

[Gypsygirl66]

I can understand your hesitation sitting on both sides of the fence here. Even if you can't be totally honest with your parents and say "I did it all for my habit" still tell them say something you may be more comfortable with like " while I was  selling them I got hooked and now I'm addicted" "I'm in w/d and I need your help" Believe me they are your answer. If you want the help. Maybe you are not telling them because you truly still want to use and if you tell them then you know that it will be over. I would think you would be at or close to bottom, maybe not. Think  (reread your first post) about all you've lost and all you can gain by giving these up. And the answer is in your parents. That's all I have to say

[hydrocodonegirl78]

You have no idea how much having all of these people I have never even met me before, supporting me when I needed more than ever.....  I know that if and when I tell them, that after a while they would be just happy for me that I was getting the help that I needed....  But, my parents never once took any **** from me when I was growing up, but at the same time they gave me enough rope in high school so I could get all of my partying out of my system.  And they really had nothing to say to me, because each night at 5 pm sharp, out comes the cocktails, and then wine with dinner, and maybe an after dinner drink as well....  And I know that especially my dad can't go one night without a drink.... I mean he was in the hospital getting ready for a triple bypass, and he had my mom sneak in wine for him......  But, no never one of our family would have a problem, especially because alcohol is legal....And for my family admitting you have a problem with something is a sign of weekness.  If you have a problem then you deal with it yourself, or else pretend it doesn't exist at all.
However, I do know with myself that the second i took my first drink or smoked my first joint, I knew that being ****** up was much better than being sober.... Luckily, i got it all out of my system mostly in high school, and therefore didn't flunk out of college my first semester like all my friends did.  And I have tried everything in the book, accept herion, because my god that is just so wrong..... and look at me now, I am a junkie for the same main ingredent in herion.... Go figure....
Anyway, I am taking it one hour at a time today..... I haven't slept all night, but just took two valiums from my mom's stash, for "flying" in those large commercial airplanes... But, that is ok as well.  I am feeling a little less desperate after the valiums, but before this they never seemed to work for me...  
But, what really saved my day was finding something I have been searching for months.  I was first actually trying to find just one pill, and instead I finally found after months of hating myself, my engagement ring that I thought I lost forever..... And when that happened I thought it was certainly a sign that, we weren't meant to be together...  But, finding the ring the way I did just now, as in some strange way given me a new sense of hope, that I never had before.  If I could find a ring thatI had lost for over six months, in someplace stupid that who knows what might happen in the future.....
TTYS-just wanted to find a huge pile of pills...and i know it is so bad....

[sosad5306]

They are your best chance.  I told my parents too and they are simply relieved to have me being honest agian.  THey said they want me back and I know your parents do too.  I know it seems hard but I was surprised at my parents will to help.  
Please tell them....

[Gypsygirl66]

I am glad that yoou found a little bittt of peace in that ring. And the future does holld so much for youu as long as your not on the pills. I can understand and appreciate everything you're sayingg about you're parents. I grew up in the same way I donn't really have parrents to fall back onn now my dad is gone and my mom is just too old. So, I'm doingg this on my own here on day 13. I had to move our mini-fridge in my bedroom and fully stock it, set up all delivery services or I would have died of dehydration, I still can't drive today or wouldn't dare try my luckk. It can be done alone but, I was really prepared. Also, I was on an enormous amount of meds 1000mgs MScontin (which I weanned down from 1400mg over past year) and otther pain mesd for severe chronc pain. So that is why on day 13 I still can'tt driive.
You are in for a roughhh few dayss and are going to have at the very least tell your parents that you are sickk. Do you haave a Dr. you can call for some meds to help you thru like antii-nausea, BP  etc. I'm guessing not. You should at the very least if you are goingg to be alone in that basement get a pill and suppository for the nausea, so you cann keep hydrated. Keep going don't get that sccript filled for that junk. You are on the righht road and we are here for youu
You will be in my thoughts and prayers, God Bless