I ACTUALLY FEEL GOOD!!!!!!!!!

I am keeping soooo busy, as to not burden my mind with extra thoghts of pills.  I am in bad pain, but I feel clear headed for the first time in forever.

I am not even close to being ok, I know, but it sure feels good to go to work and be proud of that.

Also am feeling much guilt over responsibilities neglected.  Feeling like I need to fix everything at once that I have let go for so long.

Going to work now.  I think of my friends here and carry you with me.  This forum was the catalist for my beginning a new path in my life.  My soul longs to be free.  I can almost taste it.

Peace

[1dery]

I am so glad to hear that. I have been wondering about you because it is so wierd but since I have been reading this forum, everytime I had a question or wanted to say what I was feeling, you would post my exact question or thought......and right before I signed on I was thinking to myself that I would love to fix everything at once and to remind myself to be patient...Anyways thank you for all of your posts they really helped me to stick to my taper.

[jen76]

Fixing things takes time.  However, once you are on the right path, things seem to fall into place and that empowers you to continue.  Once you start doing the right thing, and you see how other people perceive you, it is an incentive to keep up the good work.  I am so proud of the accomplishments I have made in the three years that I have been drug-free.  Granted, I enjoy a drink at night, however, I am off of the crystal meth that consumed my life for 10+ years and that is great.  Once I got clean, everything fell into place and I saw how simple and easily maintained life really was.  Just keep moving forward and DO NOT LOOK BACK!!!!

[ThursdayNext]

You sound great.  I'll be thinking of you today.

[rsd_al]

ME tooo!

Im gonna bust out the excersize ball, and do some working out on that, then get outside to my stationary gym, and get me a good workout!!

Maybe I will be able to reverse the atrophy in my rt leg??? Hopefully be able to sell the wheelchairs someday hahahahaha!!

Right on everyone!!!!

You go creek!!!

[nefesh]

many of us may feel we're way way up the creek... some of us prolly feel we're way way up the creek and missing a paddle... a few of us feel we're way way up the creek without any paddle... but YOU man, YOU'RE way way up the creek paddling full steam with ten paddles and on the verge of starting the outboard engine!!!!!!!!!   Way to go!!!  sorry I'm so out of... synch... but you are one who doesn't just talk the talk - YOU walk the walk!!!!!  Congrats on each and every additional moment clean...               nefesh

[hopeful mom]

I AM SO HAPPY TO HERE THAT YOUR ON YOUR WAY. PLEASE DON'T FORGET TO POST YOUR SUCCESSES. I PLAN TO READ THE SUCCESS STORIES TO MY DAUGHTER. SHE AND OTHERS NEED TO HEAR THESE. THANKS SO MUCH. YOUR GIFT TO ALL IS RECOVERING. KEEP IT GOING.

[sunny8008]

Oh creek that is such great news. You keep up being strong and you beat that dam* demon. Smiling, Heather