I am so frustrated!!!!

Today is day 6 of not taking Vicodin. I am so frustrated. I didn't take Ambien to go to sleep last night and tried the Natural stuff from GNC and it did not work at all. I just layed there all night. It made my depression way worse. I had to call in sick from work today due to all of this and I also have the runs. I wanted to see my primary care doctor yesterday and the voicemail for the office says that the Nurse Practioner quit and they have to find a replacement for her and the Doctor. My doctor was elderly so I think something must have happened. They will not know what will happen with the office until mid June. I have to shop around for a new doctor today and I know they will not be able to see me today! I did not want to take anti depressants but I guess I have no choice. I have suffered from depression most of my life. I have 6 weeks of Lexapro so I took one pill this morning. I feel a little better but the gloom is still hovering over my head. I worry about my job but like my husband says...... Take care of your health and only focus on one day at a time. I know he is right. Gosh...is this going to end soon?

[iknowicandothis]

Yes, it IS going to end soon!! Congrats on 6 days, i know that was the worst 6 days you've probabaly ever been through. I'm now on day 16, and after that first week things got better exponentially. After the physical w/drawal subsides, you're faced with depression and lack of motivation/energy (that "gloom" hanging over your head). You just have to fight through it! And you have to KNOW you can, b/c you've survived these 6 days already! Are you taking L-tyrosine? now, it's not like taking a drug where you'll feel instant effects and make you all of a sudden better, but you should look it up and try taking it daily. It helped me! Also, EXCERSIZE!!! I know you probably don't feel like doing Anything, but if you can just make yourself go ride a bike, go for a walk, go to a gym, or just do some stretches, you'll feel a soaring sense of accomplishment once you're done, and you'll feel better (physically and mentally). Do this everyday like a regimen, along w/ taking vitamins and B12 for energy. Don't let yourself slump down, Pick yourself up and i promise you, the ride is much easier to tolerate if you don't let it get you down. Be proactive with the exercise, as it pumps natural endorphins in your brain to make you feel good. I'm not saying go run a marathon, but trust me this helps incredibally with depression and overall well-being. Well, that's my advice! Trust me, you're past the worst and just take it day by day. Keep a journal of how you're feeling and see the improvement daily. You'll do just fine!!!!!

[sway1]

have you considered a 12 step program? worth looking into and it's free! sway

[want2bme]

I agree with iknow...I am on day 15 of being clean from vicodin and everyday that goes by I feel more and more like myself!  Looking back to day 6 and 7 I remember they were tough on me mentally!  I was able to sleep by the Grace of God....Not like I ussually did but I did get some rest.  The Thomas Rec. is the method I used to get this far..still am doing this.  I would force myself to get some excersize by putting one foot in front of the other.  Not for a minute did I really want to be doing the work..all I wanted to do was lie in bed but I understood that if I wanted to be successful in this I would have to earn it.  I actually cut the grass on day 3 which looking back I do not know how I did it.  It took me a long time to do this but I did it and it felt good mentally to have something accomplished for the day.  I have 5 kids the oldest is 13 youngest is 2 and my house was falling apart...I would force myself to clean a certain area and then I would feel proud and less anxious due to it being done.  Once I started to think a little clearer ..(maybe day 10) I would set goals for myself on what I wanted to get accomplished for the day.  Little goals...laundry ..pull weeds..things I thought I could do...Once I did those goals I would push a little furthur to do a little bit more.  I think that it took me three years to do this to myself....I cant expect it to be better overnight as much as I would love for it to be quickly repaired.  Like your husband said..one day at a time.  You will get there...you are six days past the start:)  everybody is different but I think from my experience and what others write the physical wds should be ending soon...take vitamins..stay hydrated and get excersize!!

[Wannabebetter]

I found a new doctor and I am now going to force myself to go for a walk. Wish me luck since it is 100 degrees outside :0)

[dominosarah]

This takes time to get your body back into sync.  You say you are going to the doctor but have 6 weeks left of your anitdepressant.  I think i am confused but that doesnt take much at times!!!           sara

[Wannabebetter]

I stopped taking Wellbutrin for depression last Sept and have not been on anything since. The reason why I stopped was because my doctor switched me onto another right away instead of tapering. After the 2nd day of switching I went into withdrawals and neither antidepressant worked at that time. He gave me samples of Lexapro. 6 weeks work. I just took one this morning but I have an appointment to see a new doctor next week since the old one is closing his practice without notice. He must be very ill. I hope this explains it better. The Wellbutrin withdrawals were 10X worse than this. I felt everything that I am going through right now but with vertigo for a month and a half. I just have to remember I made it through that, so I can this. By the way.....I did go for my walk! It was hard but I did it.

[Wannabebetter]

I meant to say I have 6 weeks worth of Lexapro on hand for depression and I can ask the new doctor for a script. Sorry...I had no sleep last night.

[want2bme]

Good job with the walking!  My husband and I both have this addiction and stopped the same day.  He had an awful time sleeping or lack there of.  He also tried tappering with other things that I think made his wds harder for him.  He seriously went for 8 days without sleeping more than 1 hour at night.  He tried taking Ambien..xanax..valium. no luck:(  he eventually did sleep after he took some CAL/Mag mineral suppliment along with the Hylands Restful legs suppliment.  The Cal/Mag came in a liquid form from the vitamin store and the Hylands Leg came from walgreens. Good Luck!
K

[want2bme]

I forgot to add that ...for whatever reason my husband has had really bad experiences with wellbutrin as well.  He went on it for slight depression once and had an awful time~I watched it change his personality for the worse.  He then went on it under the Zyban to stop smoking about 10 years later  and AGIEN it was an awful experience.  This has been the only time he has been on antidepressants and is now scared of them.  He has alot of American Indian blood and somebody once told me that they metabolize things differently.  Do not know if this helps but I thought I would share it with you.  It is interesting to hear about the experience you had with the welbutrin because until now I thought it was only him.

[shelby001]

i also had a horrible time with welbutrin, made me afraid to go outside, really freaky!!!  
psychotic feelings, got off that quick!
hang in there wanabebetter, you can do this.  i'm on day 7, feel like crap, but pushing through. i've been through this before, it's around day 14 that i start to feel normal again.  anxiety and depression get me after the physical wd's, stay active!!!  and try to eat.

[Wannabebetter]

How do you make it through the depression and anxiety? I have insomnia that makes my depression worse. I have no desire for anything. I have high sensitivity to stuff right now...sounds, smells...etc. I just plan feel hopeless. I haven't eaten anything today except for gatordade and ensure. I need to get my mind to stop thinking!

[merrymaria]

hi there and much congrats on 6 days...i know how you feel and it sux...when you don t sleep you feel like total dirt...i went through the same thing when i quit the opiates....sleep was horrible for me...what helped me the most was neurontin...it s an RX used for nerve pain but it helped me sleep some nights...melatonin helped some but i had to take 9 mg...the good news is sleep will come...it just takes time for our bodies to get back to normal...i thought i would never sleep again but it does happen...it took me about 8 weeks to sleep normally but i was an abuser for almost 4 years...everyone is different but you will sleep.  depression can hang a bit but it does go away as time moves on...i still have a bit but i think it s just life in general...nothing to do with pills...be patient and hang in there...i bet by this time next week you will feel much better...wishing you many ZZZZZZZ s...maria