I came clean and got shot down!

[HedHurtz]

I have posted here before as a Fioricet and Adderall addict. I see that some people have read it. Well, I came clean to my husband last night. I wish ANYONE could have been a fly on the wall for this converstaion. It went down like this. First, I must tell you my husband is a DEA agent in Miami, so telling him was definitely rough. I told him that I take too many pills and that I want and need to quit. He said that he already knew, but he though that I seemed fine, taking care of our 3 month old daughter just fine and that other that spending too much money all was JUST FINE. Okay, I said that I'm not fine and I need to go into detox. He absolutely refused to let me go! He said there is no way that I could go, noone could take care of our baby and he could not do it himself. I would have to detox at home. I said, I could try to do it but I will need help. He said...(get this) just stop and take a couple of shot s of Vodka if I get shaky. So here I am, he's at work....I have Vodka and a 3 month old. Thank God I have a few pills left. He took the rest that I didn't have hidden. I cannot beleive this! What the hell am I in for?

[PS >>>>Annie]

I love you too. lol  I have a post for you under our little boogie man thread. lol  
Peace is the best choice, but we have to speak our little hearts sometimes, otherwise we would loose the privelage of debate.

Sweet dreams sister,

Annie


Cindi.....If you are reading this, I love you too. lol (:

[Brighty]

Pwhew.... I am getting exhausted !!!! This thread is expending so much of my energy and everytime I read something I feel this sense of distance... no connection... like all my forces are scattered.... I am going to tell all of you that I love you... also.... I will choose peace instead of this.

Love, Brighty

[PS >>>>Annie]

See my 4/5 post to Brighty under the Vicodin thread.

[PS >>>>Annie]

I guess there are unequivocally two sides to every issue.  This one happens to be the DEA.  Evidently you are one of the rare patients, who is able to get medication when needed.  If you were standing where I am, you would understand my advocacy.  I can not go through the whole ordeal again, but I am here to tell you that I have had my share of human suffering. "Policing pain medicine" THE WAY WE HAVE, is causing people to suffer needlessly.  I am living proof of that.  But no body gives a rat's ass.  I will ( here, and anywhere) stand up for intactable chronic pain patient's rights.  What has been going on is inhumane.  Curbing addiction at the expense of suffering, is not the answer.  
While we are all working, and living our lives...they (DEA) are spening 24/7, planning an attack on someone.  I am not unreasonable.......Some deserve it, and some do not.  My doctors do not deserve it.  They are excellent in their field, and I do not think they should be held accountable for every script they write out.  This is absurd.
Well, my friend it looks like we have some serious things to work out.  Are you still in a great deal of pain? I am so sorry for what you went through, and it is my wish that you don't ever, have to suffer needlessly.  Thank you for your response, I do appreciate it, and I am for freedom of speech.  You definately are entitled.
Best Wishes to you!
Annie

[Thomas]

This is Patrick with his "cookie" fixed (no jokes). The best books are not necessarily the most expertly written. Most of my favorites are favorites because they're full of passion and uncompromising truth. Perfect grammar and professional organization are easy to find in print. Passion and truth are not.

Jack Kerouc's On the Road was written in one non-stop methamphetamine-powered rush, using a single teletype roll so he wouldn't have to pause to feed in paper (back in the typewriter days). In fact, he took that teletype roll to New York under his arm and sold the book!

The first editor's reaction was, "This isn't writing - it's typing." Apparently this didn't stop them from publishing it.

Anyway, think about what I said. Dreams can come true.

[spook]

Their is a thin line between,genious and things people cannot   understand ,keep  balanced on that line and you maybe able to give(SEE)both sides of the coin on an equaul toss,I know exactly where you are coming from and going to and you control it all.you have obviously had some enlightenment from Psychedelics or entheogens.
I think you are certainly curently taking an Opioid? and that elevated you to a state that loses contact with your prelearnt enthogenic background,this causes a problem with some peole NOT me as I understand the dual nature of hedonisim and empathathy,you are doing well and and please get wasted for me just occassionaly,I can relate to you and when you **** up and  really do need help, we will be here."No man is an island"
all the best jimininez (while it lasts')