I cant take this anymore.. Day 8 and im in the mud still,KRATOM WITHDRAWL???

[StayingClean25]

Most of you guys know from my other post that im kicking an oxy habit at home and im on day 8,  Help me through this, Lastnight i went to bed around 9pm, well i wasnt havin it, i tossed and turned until 12:30. Finily i went to sleep at 4am and woke up at 9am, My whole face is Swollen, not to bad, im sneezing like crazy and im very distressed, I stopped taking KRATOM yesterday, I hope its not withdrawl from that, as far as i know we dont have much info on Kratom but omg, I know im in withdrawls from a ******* pure plant.  please help me.. i cant deal with this twice in 8 days, i was only using 3 Capsules aday for 5 days.

[toothfairie]

Hope you got some sleep...just re-direct your thinking from buying the pills to the new car you want....the cravings will lessen with time...just hang in there!  you are doing great my FL friend!!  :))

[StayingClean25]

i get chills just reading all these comments.. I have goose bumps now.. I couldnt sleep so i got into my Jacuzzi for 2 hours.. in/out/in  and feel so much better/ Note-hot baths help to if all that is aval. so yeah I try, and not to brag but i have a great job, accually im 27 and have my own business as a physical therapist and sometimes money can kill, I need to change that habit because everything i make money i think of opiates(past tense).. im going to try to sleep.

[meegWpaw]

hey Staying Clean hope you are doing ok, you sure have been through a lot of struggles, both in the past and now with your detox/withdrawal.  hang in there, dude you are doing a fantastic job!  your enthusiasm and strong spirit come through.  keep it up!

[atthebeach]

how are you doing?

[atthebeach]

Make sure you stay hydrated very important. That could very well be causing the dizziness. Drink ensure, juices, vitamin water.
Lots of fluids.
Great job on walking. Wow 5 miles that's awesome.
You are doing great. Keep on keepin on.

[StayingClean25]

Thank everybody for your support, as of now i dont have anything ecept aleve and some otc sleep aid.. im geting dizzy alot.. i walked 5 miles today.. i cant type rightnow

[clean_in_ks]

Hi guy!  I've just gone back and read thru all your threads.  I'm so sorry about losing your mom to an alcohol/benzo combo...and your dad to opiate/heart issues.  PLEASE don't follow in their footsteps....you are so young and like you said, have a great job, a great place to live, and a fresh opportunity to live a new lifestyle.
It's time to address the loss and the grief that you were masking with substances.  Once the substances aren't altering us...the feelings have a way of glaring at us.  Since you are newly relocated (even tho you found a connect there)....you CAN find some new recovery friends, some aftercare support meetings, and start seeing a counselor of some sort.  It will help you SO much to talk about all that has happened and share your heart.

As I read thru your threads, one thing kept jumping out at me....the still existent mentality that "taking something" will eliminate the pain of w/drawals.  You tried Tramadol....and Kratom....and Weed....and Lyrica...and your opiate receptors haven't even had a full 24 hrs yet to begin healing.  Your central nervous system doesn't know what to think....so I hope you'll stick with the basics (aleve, imodium, protein foods nutritional supplements) and allow your opiate receptors to begin to heal.  Each of those mind altering chemicals carry their own w/drawal symptoms...so PLEASE just drink lots of water, get some exercise, and find some outside "skin on" support once you aren't too sick.

I also related to your having a wreck totalling your car, being without wheels for the 1st time since you were 14....the same thing happened to me....however, I WAS hurt physically (and I don't blame God).  I am older than you...so looking in my garage for over 3 yrs and not seeing "my car" out there felt like "someone had died".
God restores.....and heals.....and in His time....not mine.  I now have a car that I love....I am healing.  You will too!
I hope you'll really make a concerted effort to find someone to talk to, some recovering addicts to hang out with and know that you have a glorious purpose in life.  You are talented, young and will touch many lives simply BECAUSE of all you have been thru.  

[msdelight]

Omg clean that is so so sad! Please stay here with us and don't give up! We will be your family! Take it easy with the immodium. It's only for the diarrhea. It's not gonna help with the mental no matter what you may have read. Less is more you know? You don't want to get all blocked up because the whole point is to get the drugs out of you! Keep going you're doing great!  

[StayingClean25]

Thanks all, @atthebech, thank you for what you did, its hard to talk about my passed but yes, as you know ive lost both my parents and grandparents and my sister in in Atlanta Ga.  my father passed away in front of me due to his heart and opiate withdrawl, so even this isnt my first rodeo, i keep thinking of all the **** that has happend to me and look im on day 8.. really amazing for me.. expecially whan a drug like opiates can make you contimplate suicide.. im 27 years old and moved back home to central florida back in june after my pops passing, i was clean for 2 whole months then relapesed in july/august from a 10mg percocet. here i am again, its alot to deal with mentally and phisically but im going to make a youtube vidieo today to get my mind off of things.. for the record im not suicidal i was just stating that opiate withdrawl can sometimes make you think about that. thanks again,.

[tooter212]

Clean, I feel your mental anguish. I'm going through it also. They tell me it to shall pass. I'm counting on that. Just hang in there. Pray a lot, pray for others. Read a good book, watch a funny TV show. anything to get your mind off your self. Praying for you. God Bless

[atthebeach]

hey, I read everyone of your posts through the year.
my heart goes out to you. you are so young and have been through so much heartache.

hun please get yourself into some counseling, church, support groups, grief groups. there is healing and restoration.

please stop using all mind altering substances, they will just prolong your withdrawals and prevent the healing.

you need to find new hobbies, new clean friends, an exercise regiment.
stay away from the people, places and things associated with your use.

is your sister there or in your home state?
please find a support system for yourself, through counseling, church, support groups.
you can heal and find peace. there is freedom from the chains and bondage of addiction.
sending hope, encouragement, support, prayers, healing and peace,
Debbie

[toothfairie]

LOL that will soon go away....take that hot bath....i was taking 3-4 a day in the beginning....

[StayingClean25]

thanks toothfairie, we will chat in a lil bit, im going into a hot bath, damn i have the me heat on in Florida..haha

[toothfairie]

Just hang in there....i agree, stay away from the Kratom and any mind altering substances....you need to get ALL that out of your system and let your brain receptors begin to heal....there will be good and bad days....just hang in there....8 days is great!  keep your eyes on that prize!  

[StayingClean25]

Thank you ms delight, I only have aleve and cough surup and immodium, OHH yea, imodium helps withdrawls... I dont ever want kratom again, along with any opiate, Im just in mental anguish, but posting here helps tremendously, i think i will take 4 Imodium the a hot bath?? and ofcourse look at the beutiful car i am getting myself after this mess.

[msdelight]

It's not the kratom although please stop using that immediately! What your feeling is the opiate detox which will last up to 2 weeks. You will have some good days then a string of bad at first. The only things you should be ingesting is motrin and and immodium. Please see the Thomas recipe below for some help. Do not drink, smoke pot or take anything that's not in the recipe! Go look at the picture of the car!!!