I feel like I have been beaten !!!

[beauholly]

I have my refill of 50 10/500 Lotab !!!!  In front of my keyboard. I have only taken 3- 5 milligram Percs in 11 days !!!  I unfortunatly just took one. I had the worst itch to do so .. I feel an unbelievable weakness.....  This bottle could start my W/D all over again.. Im so sad...  What do I do to stop myself from taking another in an hour like I normally would and then 4 more after that ??!! I cant throw them away. My brain WILL NOT LET ME !!!!!   I could sell them...  Im at an all time low !! Anyone ???

[HelpinUtah]

Honey, PLEASE THROW THEM DOWN THE TOILET NOW!  It's not worth going through the withdrawals again!  You CAN do this!  Once you do it, you will be so PROUD of yourself.  You'll feel rejuvenated and know that you can overcome anything!  PLEASE FOR YOURSELF - THROW THEM DOWN THAT TOILET!  You are in my thoughts and prayers!  

[mommy2be25]

You already know what to do! You are having a strong battle with your addiction right now. That is what's telling you that you just can't flush them. Man do I know that feeling. I still don't think I could bring myself to flush 50 Lortabs! But if you really want to be clean that is what you will have to do. Get rid of them! They will only harm you. See, the devil gave you them early for a reason. Maybe a few more days and you would have been stronger, but no, he let you have them during your weakest point. And to REWARD yourself with the thing you are trying to get away from? Does that make sense to you? Really, does it? You have to make this choice! We are all here for you and I pray you make the right one!

[Mandapanda17]

agree with cathy, I know I sure wouldn't be strong enough to have them sitting in front of my face. ugh.. you have to make the decision to want to be clean...

[cathy5841]

you are not strong enough...you have already taken one...those pills are gonna take you down if you dont get rid of them...dont let them do it to you.  if you could resist them you would not be addicted....

[dominosarah]

Taking a pill is not a reward.  It is the devils reward.  Look at how you are feeling right now??  Rewards are supposed to make you happy.........i know this is a struggle right now but you have the key to unlock those chains that are keeping you down.  Reward yourself and your babies by being clean.  That is the biggest reward you can have.

[godguidesme]

look read what you just wrote, your w/d are prabaly so bad becouse the pills are there, you will feel w/d but in my experience it was always worse when the **** i used was close by, you " rewarded" yourself. just read it what do you think? you will reward yourself again or say screw it i cant do this and just take them. it is the devl, but dont let him win GO FLUSH THEM!! if you want to be clean it wil not work any other way

[beauholly]

       I would never ever want a baby to get a hold of one. I have two myself !!!  Im crying because I know you all are right !!!  That one pill hasnt even hit me yet but I feel like Im W/Ding for some reason. I have a horrible stomach ache and the chills for the first time in a while.... Is this my brain or what I dont understand ...... maybe STRESS !!!!!!  Im still reading everyones post....and I hear you "throw them away" I just cant Im telling myself They are in the cabinet and I want to see if I can be strong enough to resist !!!  I feel like I can ... The only reason I took that one was because I felt like I needed to reward myself for doing so well !!!! I think this might make me CRAZY !!!!!!  I wasnt even supposed to get them till Friday but the devil put them in my hand early !!!!!!!!

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

If you cannot flush them - then give them to someone to hold for you - with the understanding that no matter how much you beg .... you only get the prescribed dose...getting rid of them is the best thing to do, though

[dominosarah]

I know you dont want to be a prisoner to these pills anymore.  Take a stand and take back your life.   You can do this.          sara    

[dominosarah]

You are stronger than the game your mind is playing with you.  Please just flush them.  Look at how awful you feel with them sitting in front of you.  Get rid of the temptation.  Selling them is illegal.  What if a child got ahold of them.  Please just gather the strength and tell yourself you are a strong person and can just toss them.  sara

[cathy5841]

OMG, i cant believe you have those pills in front of you.  you are setting yourself up to fail.  goingtomakeit says..."you will get clean when your desire to be clean is stronger than your desire to be high"..that true.  if you want to prove you are serious about getting clean to your addiction...and yourself...not us....but you, flush them NOW...otherwise you will take them...i know, i am an addict with almost a year clean and you put 50 freakin pills in front of me and i will justify taking them....please just flush them otherwise it will drive you crazy...you have taken one...that means a little pill beat you once this morning...show them who is really boss,YOU....

[godguidesme]

it sometimes one minute at a time, you have to get rid of them, I could not not take them. you dont want to take them or you wouldnt be here!! hats a great thing. maybe you could give them to someone but you would still have access to them, get it,    you should just flush them recovery is hard enough without having to deal with this also. I would flush them, as long as there around you will struggle, and you will prabaly feel worse im here chan,