I gave the money to my wife

[redbull]

i gave the money to my wife and told her I was craving bad. I spent 2 days craving and thinking. I have been prayfull non stop 2 days asking God to handle this for me because I cant on my knees (take it away) Mind games bigtime. I CANT USE! I feel so good. I woke 4 am smiling as though its solved. I feel good, God made self will only God can cure self will ( hand it over) I can't do it he can so I'm giving up. The Big guy is now in charge. I didn't even look in my wifes purse where theres some pills and its 4 in the morning. I can't go back , I know i cant go back with all my heart. I have to go back to sleep, but Im doing it with the biggest smile on my face. I have such peace in right now. It's going to be ok....It's ok to be ok...right gnarly?

[Innerstrength67]

Great job redbull! We need to always be on guard. It's just the way it is. Our disease is very patient. Just be in today because that's all we really have.
Keep it up!!!

[atthebeach]

One day at a time. One moment at a time if need be and just for this moment you have let go and let GOD. That is awesome. You are doing great. You are making it. You feel so good now don't let the enemy of your soul rob you of that. Don't believe those lies you can't just take one pill. No sir. You are on the recovery road and you are there to stay. GOD give peace to my brothers heart mind soul and body.