I hate liars

[No name22]

I had about a 30 mg of oc left to split w/my "b/f" well I know a liar and he is one!!! I run to the store remembering exactly how everything is left! I come back oh look it's gotten smaller...Gee he lies to me about it when I know what I saw. Thanks f-ing scum...So of course I snap tell him to get out he wont and then I throw my cell at him and now it's broke so on top of HIM and going through this I wanna snap wicked bad. I hate him and he begs me and plea's w/me haaaaaaa is all I say to him I could care less what happens to him now. I have to only do for myself and my lil one and what happends w/him is not my responsiblity...Sorry everyone i'm not looking for sympathy I do know it's my fault for putting up w/such bs, but I had to vent and I have NO PHONE

[No name22]

Thank you best advice yet...Have fun w/the meaowssss

[Savas]

Try to get past how you got where you are, it will just hold you back. Boyfriend's fault...not his fault... it just doesn't matter anymore. What matters is where you are, and what you're going to do about it. If you spend to much time chewing the gristle of "what might have been" and "what should be", you won't have the time or energy to take care of yourself and the wee one.

[No name22]

Most defiantly I will be clean. It was just sooo easy to get caught up in the industry I work in aswell as the buisness he owns.

[jfrick50]

I agree with Bonnie on this one. Especially do it for your little one. Two parents that are using and are fighting over it probably all of the time. Not a good situation that you want your child to grow up in. I really hope that you get clean for the sake of your child, esp. since you are using these for rec. purposes. Most of the people on this forum, as Bonnie said, are trying to get off for legit. pain, because they would rather live with it. Although, I do applaude you cutting down your habit... just now, you have to get completely clean. PLEASE do it for your child. No innocent child deserves to grow up around that.. Especially with both parents using! Keep us posted!

[No name22]

There are sooooooo many people where I live and at my age that are messed up on pain meds and some are waaaay worste than I am...I've cut myself back in the last 3 months from 120mg's to 20mg's a day I make alot of money and have spent it all on oxy's I had a 1000$ a week habbit and realized I am waay to materialistic to be someone to spend my money on something so pathetic I'd know I don't need these pills and don't even want them for the high anymore I just want to be done and have my life back, vaca's shopping, ect....I know most of these people here used them for pain. I'm to stubbor and gready to not get clean. I finnaly after going through this for a yr now and going to seek help from a Dr...

[BonnieAnn]

I am sorry but I have to say again. You, and only you are responsible. Like you said, he did not put them in your mouth.

I hope that you will stop blaming him and just do the right thing. Get off the pills, ESPECIALLY since you use for recreational purposes.

If you read thru some of the posts, you will see almost all of the people in here take pain meds because they have legitimate pain. Almost all are weaning off or quitting because they would rather live with the pain, or find a different way to deal with the pain rather than take the pills. Again, please read thru the posts.

Until you stop blaming others, you can not get clean.

Good Luck.

[No name22]

Oh no I understand, but the reasoon I blame him is because he could have stopped me knowing the long term effects aswell as the w/d's I think. Not 100% him, but most sorry I hold grudges towards him...He was using the whole time I was pregant and I kinda knew. Yes recreational use his cousin sells OC 80's all day. But I just think why wouldn't he tell me what would happen long term why, why would he let me do these drugs not that he put them in my mouth and made me swallow BUT he knew and I honestly don't care what happens to him I only care about me and my lil one...Sorry I know i'm thick headed, but my friend ask me all the time to get her some or let her have some and I wont! At the same time I understand you.

[BonnieAnn]

I do feel for you hun. However, please do not misunderstand me, but HE did not get you hooked. He is not responsible for your using, nor is he responsible for your recovery.

Only YOU are responsiblefor both. You will need to stop blaming him and start working on your recovery.

Like I said, he is caught up in his addiction. If he weren't high, would he act like this? Probably not.

I may seem a little harsh, but I am trying to make you understand.

BTW, may I ask: Were either of you taking these pain meds for "legitimate" pain, or recreational? I have not hear your whole story so I am asking. Hope you understand.

Keep posting, please.

I am here, Bonnie

[No name22]

Tell me about it, but seriously I would not do that to someone I loved, because yes we are trying to wean off, but I feel as if I have to do it all. Men are just so stupid most of the time and well after this stunt i'm finally going to make him tell his mother. He comes from a very tight italian family who thankfully love me and understand this somewhat. After that I hope at least we can be done once and for all...He got me hooked knowing what it was to feel like to w/d I not knowing how it was whatsoever and yes I do mostly blaim him, because if he cared he shoulda stopped me B4 it got this far! Sorry if I sound hearless, cold or selfish,...I'm beiging to think i am geez

[BonnieAnn]

Addicts are addicts. Did you expect something different.

If you don't mind my asking: Are you both just using, or are you weaning? I could not tell from your post.

Hope to see you post again.