I jumped off methadone today!!!!!

[Lisa034]

For all of you that know my story, I did not dose today,  as of yesterday I was at 10mgs and I just made up my mind last night that I am just so so so so done!!!!! So here I go, no more done for me.  Today is just my first day so I guess I will see what days 3,4,5 or 10 have in store for me.  I have to belive that it will be the same as my taper was.  I dropped 20mgs just a few weeks ago and I am thinking that it should not be any different then how I felt then.   For those new comers that do not know my story,  I have been tapering off of methadone for the last 6 weeks or so.  I want to say Thank you so much to all that have been my rock thru this all.  Yall know who you are!!!!  I want everybody to know it can be done.  So, I will see what is gonna happen over the next few days or so.  

Lots of Love
Lisa034
Jacksonville,FL

[salsinator]

Hi Lisa - looks like you are progressing slowly.  How are you feeling today?  I hope that you are doing better.  You are nearly there!

[Holliee]

Yeah girlee you made it to day for I am so so very proud of you more than you know. You will still have some bad days but you can do it. REmember we are all here for you to support you  in good and bad times. HUgs and kisses! Hollie

[Lisa034]

Thank you so much.  You do not know what you have done for me, not just the drug thing and the wd, but you have truley opened my eys to a whole new way of life.  A good life, a life without drugs and most important, A life with GOD in it.  Thank you so much for all you have done for me and still are doing, God has really given you and gift and he is working thru you in so many ways.  
Thanks Again
Lisa034

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee....well you have done it...you have made it thew the worst part
im so proud of you and happy for you..your resolve to quit has proved strong and your willingness to preserver even when it gets tuff has
shown your inner strength...you want it bad and it shows...well most of the physical stuff should be over ...other then being a little ackey  and
drained of energy....give yourself a big pat on the back you have made it off one of the most addictive substance known ...now comes the real work......this part of it I call the "mind screw" ...its dealing with the mind without narcotics ...its dealing with the racing thoughts ...the wild dreams..the sleepless nights as well
as the guilty thoughts that plague ones mind because we aloud
something like this to happen to us ...again your mind can be your biggest asset or your worst enemy....mine has sorta been both
when I go into a blue mood..or the "stinkin thinken" takes over
I tell myself....its just the methadone rearing its ugly head....
she is evil and cunning and will try to take hold of you anny way she can..again I cant emphasize enough how important trusting god is..and truly believing that he can deliver you of this addiction
god has help me thew my taper as well as eazed my withdrawals when they seamed to be more then I could handle...when your all alone and it starts getting to you...pull close to god..he dose hear our cry and answer ones prayer...Lisa  everyone's withdrawal is different but everyone"s withdrawl is the same as well...we all have to go thew some very uncomfortable stuff...each of us will find different
parts of the withdrawal more difficult then others...for me it has been the anxiety and im 24days into it ...and although its getting better it still lingers around in the evening for me..I am going to be SO HAPPY when this to shall pass with time...annyway I just wanted to be the first person to congratulate you on your progress..you are fighting a good fight and YOU WILL BE SUCCESSFUL
your freind Gnarly                  

[bbq33]

A few more things I thought of when I was on Methadone. Methadone can mask other disorders you might have developed. When I came off of Methadone I found out I had Fibromyalgia that caused me to ache all over my body which kept me from sleeping. I would go to sleep at about 10:30pm and wake up at 1:30 - 2:00am. That is all the sleep I can get. Lyrcia or Cymbalta helps that. They are safe medicines and Cymbalta helps for depression too. I'm not trying to get you on another drug but these are just thoughts that maybe you might have another condition that these safe medicines can help. There not addicting. I take Lyrcia and have pain free nights. Sometimes addictions are caused by people self medicating themselves with street medicines or medicines from other people and bad doctors. Hey, lack of sleep never killed anyone, but is does make the next day hard to get through. A lot of great scientists and artists only slept 2 hours a night. I have Bi-polar and started self medicating myself by drinking. I found out rather quickly I had the disease of Alcoholism. I can never take another drink for the rest of my life. I got medicine for Bi-polar, Lamotrigine, and medicine (I call it medicine because Alcoholism is a disease) and for Alcoholism I use AA as medicine. It wasn't easy and I was fearfull of how the new me and my new life would be but I found out I HAVE FEEDOM from the clutches of drugs and alcohol. I will never go back to where I was because I am happy and content now. Anyway I'm just rambling on now. I don't know if your a religious person but I will say a prayer for you every day at 12:15pm for God to get you through this and get you healthy in your mind and body.
Stick with it, the rewards are GREAT!

[Lisa034]

Thank you so much for all the support, it means everything to me. I go to NA a lot, but over these last few days I have not been able to make it.  I just did not feel like it, but yall were here for me.  Wow thank you sooo much,  today is day 4 and I do feel a little better today.  

Thanks Again
Lisa034
Jacksonville,FL

[gnarly_1]

hey dude...we must have jumped at around the same time I got 23 days today
and all and all am feeling alot better...I still get anxiety at night but most of the
other stuff has subsided ...how do you feel??? the energy thing has been a bit much but I have finely found somthing that helps...its liquid B-complex...you take a droper full in the morning and you dont feel the energy drop thing as much in the afternoon
you can get the stuff at walmart for 6 bucks its worth every penny it realy does help
good luck to ya and congads on kicking the liquid handcuffs.....Gnarly

[mmafan84]

hey lisa, im glad to hear you made the right choice, it might not feel like it physically as of now but in your heart i know you know you made the right decision.  By looking at your post, i guess today is your third day clean, thats something to be proud of, tomorrow will be four even better, and so forth.  As for the pain and mental aspect of the whole thing i wish i could help you, but you know that i got off 24 days ago c/t so i do feel your pain. My prayers will be with you.  

Everyone has there own way of going through detox, i don't think anyone is the same because everyone's personality is different.  For me, i sat outside all day, literally until dark with the kick while reading books, just a suggestion, sometimes reading will keep your mind off of things.  

I know this whole process is sooooooo exhausting, mentally draining, and physically challenging but you can do this, there are a lot of people on here that are supporting you including me.

Not trying to sound cliche' but a couple of weeks is going to pass either way.....i can't tell you the thousands of times i thought to myself during my 5 years on methadone if i would have only gotten off of it a couple of weeks ago i would feel so much better now.  

Stay strong, and once you get through this horrible nightmare it will be enough for you never to want to touch methadone/opiates again, i promise.  

Love and prayers go out to you, if you need anything or want to talk just message me.

Brian

[mr.lucky66]

You can do this. It may not be easy but a slow taper isn't any easier and you are at the jumpimg off point of 0 mg. of methadone that so many methadoninans try to avoid or pospone. The 12 step support is good and trust God! and have faith. I've done in many times even faster and it's doable. Do you have any support meds, clonidine etc? if not it's okay too. all the best

[Lisa034]

Thank you soooo much for everything.  This worst part for me is now   Its 7am where I am and I am alone and my whole body hurts.  I did pray to god this morning.  I hope I can make it just thru today,  I dont know  I am just soooo tired, physically, and mentaly.  
OHHH GOD JUST LET ME GET THRU TODAY!!!!

Lisa034
Jacksonville,FL

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee it 10.48 and I was thinking of you so I thought id post to you
I hope you get some sleep....anny is good I know it can be hard...spent a few sleepless
nights myself...the main reason im writing this is during the evening and night
my withdrawals got worst...its 3 weeks clean for me and I still get hit with night anxiety
I just want to incorage you to hang in there till morning it will come and with it some
relief of the withdrawals....it would for me...again it a good time to pull close to god
just talk to him and tell him how you feel....he is a loving god and only wants the best for you...I hope you dont read this till morning...but I wrote it for you if you do wind up
desperate at 3 in the morning....your friend ..Gnarly  

[rafe44]

Im detoxing off Subs right now myself, so lets do it together girl. Lets leave this hell behind us once again.

[kiylen]

Lisa, I'm glad to hear from you but so sorry for what you're feeling.  I went through some major withdrawals this weekend when I tapered (now at 35) and it almost got the best of me.  You are sooo strong Lisa.  You have been there for me numerous times and have been one of my closest friends.  You are in my prayers.  I'm so scared because I've been through this before and it's coming up again here in a few weeks but I know, and you know, that everyone on here cares and they are here to help.  It will pass.  And yes, it will seem like a lot longer than it really is but you are a determined, willful person and you deserve this.  I know there is not much I can say to make the pain go away but I really hurt for you.  Please know you haven't worked this hard for nothing.  Keep looking upward to God and He WILL listen to you.  He knows what's in your heart and what has been all along.  I care about you a lot from talking with you so much and I could just cry knowing what you're feeling.  Please message me if you feel like it, I know all about everything that goes along with this and you know you can tell me anything.  I'm praying for you now Lisa.  Don't give up.  We're all here until the end.

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee....well you took the plunge ...the sharks dont look as menacing from up
on the rail...but now you have to swim with them...just remember your not in the
ocean alone...god is beside you....he will take care of you and get you thew this and you wont get eaten by a shark...today  you celebrate your first day clean YOU HAVE DONE IT.
you may be struggling and holding on by a thread...but your still holding on
and where all proud of you..IM  PROUD OF YOU...your one day closer to the rest of your life...and these withdrawals you feel will only be a memory ...hang tuff you have what it takes....right now my heart goes out to you...I know how it feels to be in withdrawals..in a word it sux..but again...use your symptoms to strengthen your
resolve to fight..you got to want it bad and I know you want it bad AND YOU WILL MAKE IT....one day at a time ..dont let your fear scare you into submittion let go
of it...give it to god and let him Cary the burden ..I know this all sound so ez but in realty it can be hard to apply ...but remember your mind is your biggest asset and if you can at least try to stay positive..as hard as it might seam...it does help ....
keep posting there are alot of people here who care and like myself will do
whatever we can to eaze your pain..good luck and god bless...Gnarly  
  

[leeisgettingclean]

lisa sweetie we are all here for you! stay strong...you can do this

[kolo13]

Hi Lisa, I hope you are doing alright today. I'm thinking of you and trying to send you a little energy through the ether.

[NorcoQueenoftheUniverse]

Hey Honey.. You CAN do this!  Although I know nothing about methadone withdrawl I just FEEL in my HEART that you are a STRONG PERSON and can do THIS!

God Speed to you... my dear...

Much LOVE and MANY PRAYERS!
NorcoQueen

[bbq33]

4 years I was on 30mg Methadone a day for my back pain. It finally quit working. It is only suppose to stay in your body for about 4 or 5 days. I tapered off 10mg per week and had only very slight side effects. A little nausia and insomnia. Felt a little tired. A little diarrea. Nothing to worry about. It was pretty easy. I took some safe herbs. 1,200mg Valerian (or Valerian Root) three times a day. It calms things down. 3mg Melatonin long acting 20 minutes before bed. I'm not sure if these herbs helped but they can't hurt.
Lisa034, congrads on making the decision to get off the stuff. (no more constipation). I feel like I am normal again!
bbq33

[seahorse1963]

It gets better, your past the hardest part...this bites I know but it can be beat and like someone said we are pulling for you..dig deep down inside of you and keep up the great work..turn to God and He will help..get up and do something, anything, put on music, dance, pace, go for a walk or bike ride anything!!!  Hot bath, post, keep your mind off of this...your doing great!!!!!!!!!!  We are proud of you but Gods delights in the victories :)

[jstntime]

First off, I am so happy for you Lisa.

Did you ever go down the steps and think there was only one left only to realize there were a few of them left????  It really ***** but it is very much like that first step off "your ride".

You know you're going to fall but that is little comfort when it is happening.  It takes others to help you up and point out a few things sometimes.  Things like it doesn't last forever, and to make sure you keep busy.

Most important though is that you realize there is probably nobody on this entire site that we would like to see succeed at this more than YOU.

You have helped so many Lisa.  I know this because I am one of them.   It's your turn to join this club.  It's going to hurt to get your membership card but the liberty it will give you will make your next week seem like small payment.

You do have to want it and I pray that you do.  

We're proud of Lisa and we are pulling so hard for you,
Godspeed,

bob

[Lisa034]

Thanks for your support girl I really appericate it.   I am just having a hard time with this.  I really dont understand how I can go from 110mg down to 10mg and feel nonthing.  So I just jump from 10mgs after being on it for 6 days and i feel like this.  Wow   Really off only 10mg  thats like one pill.  I just have a hard time wraping my head around that one.  I used to take about 60 pills in one day and I would see people taking one pill a day and I used to think wow if I could only take one pill I would just stop.  So how in the hell is this little 10mgs kicking my ***

Lisa034

[Holliee]

hey hon hang on and stay strong you can do this an I am so very proud of you. Message me if you need.

[Lisa034]

Ok here I am today    I woke up again and I feel just soooo dang tired but cant sleep   I mean not for any good period of time.  I was at 110mgs about 2 mths ago and Saturday was my last dose at 10mgs,  In the last two months I never had any physical withdrawl.  One time I went from 30mgs to 10mgs and still felt nonthing.  But I do have to say  Holy **** because the withdrawl is here for me now.  I am just so mentaly sick of everything.  Why is everything so hard just everything.  I can not stop crying and I am growing very tired of that.  Oh my god if I can just hang in and get thru today I know that tomorrow will be better, but it is so hard just to see past the here and now.  In some sick way,  I do belive that maybe It did not have to be this hard and maybe I wanted to feel the pain.  I dont know anything anymore.  All my thoughts are racing.  Why did I do this?  How could I have let this happen to me and everybody around me?  I dont even know what I am saying.
Lisa

[seahorse1963]

Rock on lady...remember this too shall pass and it does :) Godspeed!!!