I need HELP. OMG I cant feel this way anymore!

[Lotus55]

My doctor does not know the answer and I NEED an answer.  God help me evey single morning I wake up feeling like a piece of ****. My body is on edge...my heart is going fast and everything hurts!!!  This is EVERY morning.  I DO NOT feel like my normal self and I cannot stand it anymore. I can remember waking up feeling happy, refreshed, stretching and just being thankful for my life so I know the difference :(

My first thought is that my meds are doing this.  **30 of oxy twice a day and break through Norco, only allowed two 7.5 but my pain needs more** I THINK maybe by the morning my body wants the medication and is feeling this way but 12 hours has certainly not gone by and I HAD TO TAKE*one of my 3 Norcos left* for knee pain that woke me up.  I have 3 Norco pills to last 15 days.  
I cant stop crying I cant take this anymore.  I am 52 and have been through spinal taps and liver biopsies and treatment for Hep C and I am SO done with the medical field.  I WORK IN the medical field, at our local hospital for 16 years.  I dont know where to turn NO ONE can give me a freakin answer and when I come the docs CRINGE cause they do NOT know what the f*** is wrong with me!!!  

So I keep thinking I want OFF Of the oxy....if it is making me feel this way?  But I have actually experienced a VERY FEW days where I felt good!!! SO what is UP????
THe pains inside my body are unbelievable.  Deep aching pains that make me think something REALLY wrong is going on.  I am not a hypochondraic...I NEED to know what is going on !!!  Right now my legs ache, I have right flank pain, right pelvic pain, neck pain, hand pain, but mostly always my legs.  This is ON oxy...For Gods sake.  I have fibromyalgia and I dont know if it could be THIS bad?  What about the  jittery feeling.  Total UNREST.  HELP. I dont know what the hell to do!!!!!!!

[oxysbliss]

Morning, deep breathes.....try and stay calm....just cry...Let it go....it does more damage holding it in....even if you think you arent..

Girl...its the pills...with long term oxy  use.....your body DOES FEEL LIKE ****....DAILY.........I have gone threw my wd stage....Yet I still take the odd perc here adn there......which will be completly gone some day too......

I used to feel like **** every morning.....I stopped taking pills..with a few slips here adn there...and with alot of prayers...complaining.....whinning, writing, changing the way I ate...changing EVERYTHING around my life...I had to replace my drugs with something HEALTHY...and dig deep into that..I have TONS of puzzles...puzzle books.....books to read...I journal a heck of alot...and I LOVE MUSIC and sing often....

IN time...I am where I am today...a little centred..and that feeling waking up in the morning, though most days I am still pretty sore...I dont wake up with regret...or guilt or shame...I wake up...with a smile...most days....it comes in time...You just have to hang  in there..gather up all this information not just from me but everywhere..and find things that work for you..It isnt going to be easy....and you are going to want to give up..but write about your time right now..so you remember.......what it feels like now..so you can compare later

All the best to you Lotus...>I am here for you..usually here at least daily from time to time!! Please be good to yourself....and HAPPY THOUGHTS.....Change the way you think to good things......dont beat yourself up..and just carry on...

I hope you have a better day ...I have to run to take a 13 year old to the denist..I will keep an eye for you when I get back

Much Love
C

[Lotus55]

OMG...say go ahead and cry and BOOM the flood gates open.  ok if it IS the meds...what do I do for my Fibromyalgia. Like i said, I have SO MUCH PAIN even on the medication.  I want to ask my doc for just Norcos and STOP the OXY completely.  Do you think that I can do that?  Just stop taking a total of 60 oxy a day and replace with 30 total of Norco?  God my doc is a primary who does not know what he is doing.  He took over my pain mangement when my doc had to leave.  I CANNOT go on like this.  I have so much wrong with me.  This is one more thing.  WTF....

Your kindness just makes me cry harder.
I belong to Alanon and maybe I could use some of my 12 step stuff with this.
I have mourned my health when I got Hep C and now the fibro ****.  I was botoxed for my migraines and that set off another flare of pain in my body.
I am so TIRED of this ****.  SO freakin tired.  I dont know if I am up or down or what.  I dont know what to do.  I have NO anxiety meds...I was weaned off them a year ago..........

[mom2rachie]

You really need to be careful of your tylenol intake.  Norcos have tylenol in it and that can do damage to your liver.  I don't think taking 30 norcos a day will be healthy for you.
Talk to a pain specialist.....

[Lotus55]

I am sorry if I made it sound confusing I dont take 30 norco a day.  Lord  no.

I take 30 MG of Oxy twice a day.
I take 2 -3 norco a day at 7.5 MG

I want to cut out the oxy all together and just take Norco cause I am afraid the oxy is what is making me feel so sick every morning. Plus my pain is out of control on this regimen

Thanks!!!!  Lotus

[fishmeal]

My wife use to take vicodin for fibromyalgia and is not now and acturally doing better because of it... She had a very weird experience with the oxy even at low doses.  She quit everything and is better for it.  Even though she may have had 5 in one day one time she was taking vics normally for the most part... it still took her a couple of weeks to get normal feeling.

[Lotus55]

thanks for sharing I have made a call today to have my pain managment switched from my primary to an actual pain management group. If  I am going to take freaking oxy for pain it shoudl at least take my pain?  Right or wrong?
Well it does not.  And the break through norco help but 2 is not enough.
So I will let you know what happens.THANKS! Lotusflower