I need all the support I can get

Last time I was clean for 14 days, but the overall body aches were horrible. I could barely walk, and decided to take one or two on an as needed basis. Well, that turned out to bite me in the ***. I am doing it all alone; no body in my family knows about my relapse. My questions are will muscle relaxors help with withdrawls, and will antidepressants help as well? I want to be clean; I just dont want to be in emense pain everyday. I need all the help and support I can get. This is really hard for me, and I am so disappointed in my-self for letting this happen. :'(

[133113]

Hi Wolfsgirl,

First off do not be so hard on yourself.  You cannot change the past, what's done is done.  

I have been trying to stay clean since last June.  I always go 7-10 days and relapse.  I know how hard it can be with the cravings, aches and pains. I also know that the way you approach them is really important.  

You know they are going to come and you are going to have to deal with them, so put a plan in place to deal with them.  For me, when I would get those thoughts or feel crappy a week or so in, I would dwell on them and think about it for too long, instead of just stopping myself and moving on with my day.  Of course then I convinced myself to use.

I have found exercise, reading and music really help my mind to not focus on the thoughts about using.  I can also tell you that after about 30 days you will feel significantly better.

Reality is really plain and simple, you can continue using be a addict forever until something bad happens, god forbid death or you can clean up, go through a little pain and have a great life.  This is an idea I have just come to grips with, there is no inbetween

[kyle505]

A question...Do you experience pain cause by an injury, health condition or surgery? If so, then you need to talk to your doctor about wanting off the meds and what can be done to help manage your pain. If the pain is just from withdrawals, then you'll have to grit your teeth and ride it out.
When I was going through detox I discovered some aches and pains that had been hidden by my med use. It is very doable...Just keep posting, read the posts on this forum, and take it hour by hour.

[LostNoMore]

Hi  and welcome! You are doing the right thing by talking about your struggles.
it's ok to fall down, just get right back up and move forward. And I agree about facing the pain and discomfort of withdrawal. It's uncomfortable. The first few days are not a huge amount of fun. My detox serves as a constant reminder of why I don't want to go back to using. Once I was through the worst of the physical stuff, I realized that I was going to live and LIVE FREE.
Today, at day 25, I can function, I can smile, I can do normal things and feel pretty good. Some of the mental and emotional stuff is still with me, but I know it's temporary, and all I need to do is not use for another day (or hour) and I will feel a bit better. It adds up. There are dozens of stories on this forum of people just like you who wrote about their experiences. I would suggest you take soe time and read about other's experiences. What I doscovered was that my fear of the withdrawal was much worse than the actual detox. Good luck and God bless.

[Blackwolfsgirl]

My pain is from a car accident in 2000. Ihave tried talking to my doctor, but he wanted to put me on Suboxine. I heard that is worse and I dont want to detox from that later. I just read a post that said gabapentin helps with wd. I have some of that. Have you heard anuthing about it helping with opiate (vicodin) wd's?

[Blackwolfsgirl]

Also, have you heard of RLS, but getting it in your arms. It is driving me crazy. That and the weak feeling are the two I cant handle the most while going through wd's.

[bama88]

my arms felt so rubberry when i detoxed and oh i would have a whole body jerk....so yes i understamd. back to your question...muscle relaxers will help with achey (achy) arms and legs anti depressants to lift the depression opiates give...our brains stopped maling our chemicals natually so an anti depressant helps jump start the seritontin and dopimine where missing...give the anti depressant a couple of weeks to really kick in....and eat lots of banannas

[Blackwolfsgirl]

Is there anything else besides bananas? I hate bananas.

[phiaNorcoqueen]

hey i just wanted to say congrats on making this difficult decision .. I know how hard it is.. But with that said i can be done .. I am now at day 29 and it is alot better than say the first couple of weeks..  Hey i have to say the gabapentin helped me tremendously it helped witht he sweats , diarreah (diarrhea),overall took the edge off..  it helped me so much .. But that is in my own opinion..  when i was going through the first few days of the detox i was actually up eating , and doing stuff i mean i didn't feel 100% but i did feel okay..  Wasn't wallowing in my misery..  I don't know why the gabapentin helps but it does.. But it is your decision rather you take that or not ..  But it does get better in due time..  Oh and to comment on the RLS i think just about everyone ever going through this has experienced that.. And i too had that feeling in my arms like they were fighting something ..  Not a good feeling ..  Hey remember WE CAN DO THIS!!  it all comes down to our decision of wanting to GET clean and STAY clean..  But hey i am here if you need anything .. Rather it is just somebody to talk to..

Sophia  Keep on keepin' on!

[phiaNorcoqueen]

oh and for the RLS i found taking a multivitamin and potassium and magnesium , Along with Epson salt baths helped tremedously..  

[Blackwolfsgirl]

I went to the store tonight and got B, C, E, and a multiviatmin.