I need help PLZZ

[TeddyBeerz]

I have a 1600 mg a day Oxycodone habit. I shoot them on a constant basis, on the clock kinda thing. I also slice open and INJECT Fentynal and Morphine patches when I can get them. And! When Its around I shoot several bags of Heroin daily. Plus last but not least in the pills I take about 30 mg a day Xanax.

I also smoke freebased crack cocaine, but thats not addictive to me. Its a once a week kinda thing. Luckily crack and marijuana (the only other drugs I enjoy) are not physically addictive.

But anyways, I'm looking for a way to quit. I want some opinions you see. I cant go to rehab, my wife of 20 years has no idea I do ANY drugs at all.

Just want some suggestions

[CATUF]

impressive

if your wife doesn't notice the huge quantities of drugs you say you're doing, why would she notice that you're off at rehab. just tell her you're going for a walk and then come back in four to six months

[worried878]

I must agree..u gotta be joking?  u do all of this and ur wife doesnt know?  or at least u think she doesnt know?  or maybe she just plain doesnt want to know?..the sheer cost of this blows me away and u must be a millionaire..if u r not then she has gotta know

rehab may be a good step in the "forward" direction.....this is truly close to unbelievable but if this is for real, then please keep posting because there is alot of help here

[Dezdon]

HI,
1600mg of oxy a day? I think thats the most I have read about here.
If you are doing that much, I would start to taper imediataly and stop shooting up and using the phyentanol.
  Its a start, and you have taken the first step by posting here looking for help.
I so wish you the best of luck. Im sure, soon other members can post more on this with more experince with that size of dose. There maybe some medical issues if you quit suddenly or too fast. A professional detox maybe required in this case.
  1600mg and your wife doesnt know? wow.
peace,
-dez

[kjbriggsy]

man i have to say i am utterly shocked that you are not dead. no joke. a lot of people od doing half of what you are doing and then to say your wife has no idea?! does she never see you??? use some ofthe money you HAVE to have on rehab. insurance or not a month or two of rehab would be less money than you are spending in a week on drugs. i am just blown away. not being judgemental jut truely amazed you are still here. IF you are being honest about this you are truely blessed to still be here on earth. take that miracle and turn around your life. you have to start somewhere so start by being honest with your wife and get yourself into rehab. you cant go c/t on that amount- especially the xanax. i am really just amazed...the combo of drugs, just that amount of xanax alone i would think would stop someones heart. well slow it down to the point where it stops beating....good luck to you. i hope you are being honest here because these people can be lifesavers to many....im sure there are more than a few that would attest to that.gl.

[Holliee]

I think that a good bet for you would be to get into a methadone clinic I to use be on oc and I am now in methadone cinic and its saved my life message me if u have questions

[hockeyguy369]

I am not here to question anybodys situation but its hard to believe this story especially that yor wife does not know. If this is tue I would suggest a rehab immediately. i dont know if you could survive ct. I am no doctor but I would think there would be some serious medical risk with ct. I wish you the best of luck. I only know what I went through using a quarter of the oxy you are using and the trowing all the other drugs in the mix. i agree with everybody else you must be a millionare. Use some of that to get some help
good luck      

[TeddyBeerz]

Sorry for maybe phrasing some things wrong. I know it sounds massive, but most of these drugs are not taken on the same day. I maintain on xanax at like 10 mg,   but 30 mg is my 'get high' dose. I have been on downers for yeaaaars.

Wife doesn't know because I am very good at hiding it. Yes I get marks from my injection, so i take large breaks where i snort to get rid of them.

[bluespence]

sorry, i agree with the first couple of posts...this is literally unbelievable...obviously if this is true I know you don't get your pills from Doctors or if you do you must doctor shop. This would be a huge financial habit so where do you get that kind of money, what kind of job to you have? Lastly, there is no way your wife doesn't know you do all these drugs unless: 1) she is on drugs too and completely out of it, 2) she is locked in a closet and never comes out or 3) she lives in another state and never sees you and you two do not share a checking account...

If this is true, please give us more info so your situation becomes more believable because everyone on here wants to help, there are a lot of huge hearts on here who would do anything to help someone who is struggling with addiction, but no one wants to give sincere advice just so someone can get a big laugh on the other side of the computer!

[scaredmom330]

wow. I am amazed you are still here..that is alot of potent drugs..you can't go c/t you must taper under a doctors supervision, rehab would be the only safe way...Your wife has to know, she just doesnt want to acknowlege it...there is no way, if my husband was shooting drugs i would know, what about the track marks? what about how you act when stoned? I want to beleive this but it is hard to ...I am not judging you, just amazed I guess...you have taken the first step by posting now the next step is telling your wife, she needs to hear it from you not a ER doctor that you have o/d...please check into rehabs in your area...you my friend are in serious trouble....take care and please keep us informed..we are here to support you...good luck

[10356]

From what I'm understanding as a ex junkie that did slam and did not care about the tracks.. You are starting to dabble with slamming your drugs/ most of us are as hooked to the needle... not taking long breaks... If you do not mind me asking.. how do you Not nod out in front of your wife.. As I understand this you are hooked to oxy and xanax but will use anything you can get your hands on.. right.. If so been there.. The only way you are going to quit is if you really want too.. That means cutting ties with friends that use.. your connection.. making changes is a lot of work.. Being honest with your wife and yourself is a start... Taking the med by mouth....Maybe you could work out a taper plan with her.. she could hold the pills and dole them out getting you to a lower dose.. I find it hard to wrap my mind around that much oxy being used in a day and the wife not noticing... Still if you really want this you will find a way.. Stick with the forum.. it is a great place to get understanding the truth and support.. I wish you well on your journey... lesa

[frustrated431]

It doesnt matter wheather or not his wife knows or if his story is believable we are here to help him not judge or determine wheather hes telling the truth or not........
TEDDYBEERZ,
you need help and im glad you are reaching out may i suggest an out patient program if thats not possible you should start by tappering your useage...
maybe you could go to an NA meeting while you are tappering or part of anout patient program...
If that doesnt work maybe you should consider telling your wife so you can go to a detox or a rehab....part of the addiction is the fact that people hide it sometimes when you let people know it makes it easier to quit the drugs....
GOODLUCK and please know that I BELIEVE your story and feel for you,please keep us posted on what happens

[avisg]

With that much drug use I think the only way to safely get off the drugs would be rehab.You are playing Russian roulette with your life and one of these times its going to end badly.It would not be safe any other way to get off of that much xanax or oxy without medical supervision.If you truly want help maybe the first step should be coming clean with your wife.You have been together 20 years I bet she would be more supportive then you think.good luck

[kjbriggsy]

i think it absolutely matters whether he is being completely truthful because if he isnt there is a much better scenerio and more to work with and if he is then he is seriously risking death. at that amount of potent drugs per day its a miracle that he is with us today. that being said especially because of the xanax he really needs to get into a doctor supervised detox. because he cannot safely taper or c/t it on his own. it is not safe. if detox truely is not an option for w/e reason(and if you really are seeking to gain your life back the wife not knowing seems very small compared to the life you have ahead of you) then you need to go to a methadone or suboxone clinic and make sure you tell them about the xanax because it is not a safe combo and at 30mgs its deadly. we are definitely not judging we are concerned but also hesitant to give heartfelt comments because of how absolutely mind blowing this guy can even type at that amount of use and the extraordinary cost it would take to maintain. aside from that if anyone gives advise other thn seeking medical help would be literally life threatening to this man.  so no i dont think its out of line to question it or to simply hear more of what is going to get a better idea because where it stands as of now just like i and many others have already said its an absolute miracle this man is alive let alone able to uphold a functioning sentences on this forum. its not meant to be harsh or judgemental. its reality. i know that im certainly thankful that somone kicked some reality into my butt so that i got up off it and got help... is there more to this story or anything that has been left out?

[Jacqui805]

I don't want to get into a debate over whether this is true or not.  You've stated this is your deal, and you're looking for help.  Beyond that it is no one's place to question the validity of your post.  I would like to say though, that I'm sure some of the people who are wondering about this are wondering because of their experience with the drugs and what certain amounts meant for them and for their level of consciousness and and functionability....not to mention the cost to them.  I am only even mentioning it this far to state to you that I don't think that anyone who questioned this is mean-hearted or wanting to cause you any pain.  They are just not wanting to invest time and emotion into something that they see as not being possible to be true from their own experiences.  Like it or not, there have been people who have come here to pull the wool over people's eyes.

Now then, as a nurse, I have had one patient, who was on 1750 mg of morphine a day at one time, and that was just one of this patient's medications.  There is no ceiling effect with opiate medications.  With time, as someone is on these medications for a long period of time, their tolerance for the drug means that for the same effect to occur, they will need to increase the dosage of the medication.  

I am not sure what the right answer for you is, but I will say, that I for one, am worried about all that you are putting into your system, and certainly because the chance of an accidental overdose is real.  With this large amount of medications you're on, a careful plan for detox is in order.  I don't know what that is, but I just know that you can't just play with this yourself.  So many things can happen to you if it's not done properly.  

You mentioned that your wife does not know about your addiction.  As a wife, and one who loves her husband, I'll tell you from my point of view that I'd want my husband to tell me.  Relationships are complicated to be sure, and if it was that easy, I'm sure you'd have done it long ago.  Sometimes though, our own insecurites and hang-ups keep us from doing something that would be good for us.  We convince ourselves that others will feel a certain way about us when we tell them certain things...only to later find out, often enough, that we were wrong.  I think that talking to your wife about this is probably in your very best interest.  After that, I think the opportunities you could have for detox will open up for you.

I wish you the best of luck with this and hope that you stay safe.

Jacqui

[neverb4addicted]

I am not going to comment on truth or non truth aswell..I feel that if Teddy has posted then he is having a drug issue..no doubt about it. Dosage exacts dont really matter its that he posted looking for help...Good For You Teddy!! Please know that all the people on this site are here to help and are absolute angels that some of could not live without.  They speak from experience and from their hearts in trying to help those of us who need it.  Stick with it and keep posting till you find the right path for yourself to take to get off all these.  You do definately need to do that..ASAP my friend.  As for your wife not knowing..honestly hun..you need to tell her.  What you will go through coming off all that even if it was at lower doses than you stated will be very visible to her that something is going on..Trust her, love her, and be honest with her..She is you wife, she may be upset but with time given to understand she will be there to help and support you through it which makes for much greater success having a spouse to support you.  Please dont take peoples surprise about the dosages as not belief..its just surprise honestly. Who wouldnt be with that amounts going in your system. Please think over talking to your wife..admitting the addiction is always always the first step..you did so on here so now you need to do the same to her.  If nothing else and you cant get her to understand..show her this site..it will help her understand ..and she can post aswell..our angels on here will help and answer things for the ones of support the person going through this hell also.  Your in my thoughts and prayers teddy, I hope you find the right path to take to get rid of this problem....msg anytime you wanna chat..I am up for a talk anytime.
Neverb4addicted.....
Good Luck xo

[worried878]

and perhaps u meant 160 mgs of oxy and not 1600?  as 1600 is a humongous dose...but people quit all the time..u will need help tho...this forum is great...and sub may be a step forward with intense aftercare...it would be fdangerous to quit all of this ct and the xanax would have to be tapered..sometimes they will step u off to a weaker narcotic like valium...what is your plan?  what is it that u are capable of doing to quit and wanting to do to quit?  I am sure you have been thinking of some different alternatives to quit...lots of help here and we can help u mull over them til u decide what to do

[TrayCee]

ditto

[frustrated431]

thank you for agreeing with me and thank you for posting it!!!
thats exactly what all these forums need less negativity and more compassion.

[dominosarah]

Sit down with your wife and tell her exactly what is going on.  You need some medical supervision coming off all of this.         sara

[theeagle]

Okay dude - I do believe you. I was once in your shoes, in fact. For all the folks concerned about what this is costing teddy - for my situation I was trafficking cocaine. The other drugs were written into the program as "overhead" - all the people snorting, shooting, and smoking paid my dues for me. I am not proud of that - just explaining. Teddy - you gotta get away from the needle first of all. It will kill you. I landed in the ER twice on life support after miscalculating doses. Its just a matter of time. And you dont even want to think about what chemotherapy for a year to treat needle related hepatitis is like. It bites big time. Some hypnosis has been shown to be effective when quiting the shooting up. So has accupuncture. But you have to get it done. The only alternative is that it will do you in. Then you can give  more attention to quiting the rest of the cocktail that you enjoy. You will most likely need professional help - you definitely need to enlist your wife in the effort. Keep posting here now that you have started.....it can be done...I didnt really think so at first ....but I am headed into two years of abstinence now. And its been 20 years since a needle.......

[Greatgreebo]

dude, listen to theeagle.
Also, go to lisacamdave profile-her story will break your heart and will let you read what a truly sad story you will become if you don't get off the drugs.
Good luck and stay strong.
greebs

[mr.lucky66]

Weather the dose is correct or not he's probably taking a lot of death drugs. I have been there a time or two on high doses of benzos and opiates but never stayed at that level for more than a few weeks at a time. One thing I can tell you is that it not fun, ie not much pleasure. I would doze off and wake up sick and puking, needing more fast. also IV narcotics are stronger and they wear off faster. You can kick the oxy and med.. supervison would be advised. The xanax is a different story and should be handled after opiate detox, longer and slower. all the best