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I need help with oxy w/d
Hello Everyone,
I have been reading posts on this site for quite sometime now and just got up the guts to post something of my own. I am a mother of two small children ( 16mos & 6yrs) and I have a problem with snorting oxy's. My husband also has a problem with the pills. We are on day 6 of w/d's but we did slip up yesterday and do an 80 each. I just needed a break of feeling so bad. I think I'm over the hump of the physical w/d's but mentally I feel so messed up. I'm on Paxil for depression and and anxiety and I also take ativan for breakthrough anxiety. My paxil is only 10mg and does nothing really. I feel like i want to climb the walls. I feel so trapped, no one in my family knows and there's no way that i can tell them. I just know if i do another oxy i'll feel good. I just want to feel good. I can't stop crying and this anxiety is hard to deal with. after reading through these posts it helps to know that people are going through the same thing. I have been taking suboxone that i get from friends but can anyone reccomend anything to help. I've tried hot baths and chamomile tea and vit. c pills.....when will these feelings subside?
oxymom
I have been reading posts on this site for quite sometime now and just got up the guts to post something of my own. I am a mother of two small children ( 16mos & 6yrs) and I have a problem with snorting oxy's. My husband also has a problem with the pills. We are on day 6 of w/d's but we did slip up yesterday and do an 80 each. I just needed a break of feeling so bad. I think I'm over the hump of the physical w/d's but mentally I feel so messed up. I'm on Paxil for depression and and anxiety and I also take ativan for breakthrough anxiety. My paxil is only 10mg and does nothing really. I feel like i want to climb the walls. I feel so trapped, no one in my family knows and there's no way that i can tell them. I just know if i do another oxy i'll feel good. I just want to feel good. I can't stop crying and this anxiety is hard to deal with. after reading through these posts it helps to know that people are going through the same thing. I have been taking suboxone that i get from friends but can anyone reccomend anything to help. I've tried hot baths and chamomile tea and vit. c pills.....when will these feelings subside?
oxymom
Just hang in there girl...I knwo its rough...as you have read most of the posts....for alot of ppl....the mental wd lasts for lord only konws when..even I dont ...I just know its rough...and just stay here..a.nd talk...thats all I have been doign .....and so far..its day 3....and its almost over...so there is a plus...
Have you tried natural remedies like valerian root or st. john's wort? I'm nervous to mix those with the paxil, i just want to get better or should i say be able to function quickly. my husband took this week off so we could do it together but he does way better then I do. He does not suffer from depression and anxiety like i do. lucky bast*rd :) Anyway, I've got to do this. Not only for myself but for my family, especially for the kids. I hope that my scewup yesterday wont set me back. I dont know if i can go through this all over....
Good for you. Keep up the good work!! Could you ask your dr. for Ambien? It would help you to sleep which may help you feel better and more rested, and for me, it made the days go by quicker knowing that I wouldn't be up 24/7. Good luck.
Does ambien knock you out completely? I have to keep one ear open for the baby incase he wakes up at night? I tried taking 1/2 dose of tylenol pm but it did nothing for me. I pray this **** ends soon. I just want to be normal again and enjoy life with my family. I'm at a point where I feel like I'll never feel as good as I did on the oxy's....
One of the best things I read yesterday was a post of straight info. about the brain's response to these drugs. I'm sure many of you know BUT ... As the drugs work on a certain type of neuroreceptor (opiat receptor) they DIMINISH our brian's NATURAL production and use of another neurotransmitter. Thus, as we go 'higher and higher' (and cont. to 'feed' the opiat recptors that extinguish the others) our 'baseline' is going further and further DOWN.
Thus when we quit we are faced with a much father 'crash' than we realize as we have:
1. w/d symptoms (the body's response to the lack of the drug) AND
2. Our brian's diminished neurotransmitters (which it DOES begin to produce and use again but it takes time)
This kinda helped me understand what my body is doing and that it IS correcting itself and I have FAITH in this.
Thus when we quit we are faced with a much father 'crash' than we realize as we have:
1. w/d symptoms (the body's response to the lack of the drug) AND
2. Our brian's diminished neurotransmitters (which it DOES begin to produce and use again but it takes time)
This kinda helped me understand what my body is doing and that it IS correcting itself and I have FAITH in this.
Thanx, that really broke it down. I'm really glad I founf this site and got the balls to post. I have to be honest though, I just screwed up again. This is my biggest problem. Its a viscious cycle for me. I just cant take the feeling of wanting to crawl out of my skin anymore. I used to be such a strong person but once i found these pills it just took me over. This is the second day in a row that I've taken an OC and now I am feeling horrible about myself. I really dont think that I can get these out of my life, I think they've got me forever. I feel like crawling under a rock and dying! Why am I so f'd in the head???
I'm taking Valerian Root right now for Vicodin W/D symptons, it helps a lot but since you're on other anti-anxiety drugs it might not be a smart move..they help me with the anxiety, depression, and chills but i'm doing a taper schedule instead of cold turkey. You would probably benefit from going to see a doctor and getting on a script of suboxone instead of getting them from friends. It does get better, try not to cheat and after 4 days to a week you should start to feel a little better. Best of luck to you and hope you get through it.
You have done the BEST and HARDEST part: YOU have become honest with YOURSELF and US.
(I don't mean you were dishonest--I mean that our addiction isolates us with shame and we crumble inwards and it tells us that we are terrible etc. and not worth human connections.)
If you can't bear the w/d, find a doctor expereinced with drug addiction and w/d (you can surely find one in your area, even if you call your locval hospital, detox unit).
It's important to know your roadblocks. We all have things that we just can't manage. If this is one for you, then ADDRESS it, don't beat yourself up for it!!
(I don't mean you were dishonest--I mean that our addiction isolates us with shame and we crumble inwards and it tells us that we are terrible etc. and not worth human connections.)
If you can't bear the w/d, find a doctor expereinced with drug addiction and w/d (you can surely find one in your area, even if you call your locval hospital, detox unit).
It's important to know your roadblocks. We all have things that we just can't manage. If this is one for you, then ADDRESS it, don't beat yourself up for it!!
this might sound stupid but im nervous to tell my dr. I know there's the who confidential thing but what if something bad happens to me in the future like surgery or something i would need pain meds for. If I tell my dr about my problem it will be in my file forever right? So does that mean that in the event that I would need pain meds, for whatever reason, would they give them to me? I know it sounds stupid but it's something that i think about. I have to say though, this forum has made me feel better. It really helps to takl to people, other then my husband, who are going through the same thing I am. I've tried talking to one of my friends but she just gives me the "you can do it" about once every two days through an email. Thank you guy's for the advice. I am going to definitely post and check threads everyday, you guys are a big help...:)
Although I think it would be VERY good to tell your doc (good for you) so he can be aware of this if and when you DO need something (legit), if you just can't, find an addictions MD and go to them inthe interim. as you are not seeking drugs this is in NO WAY 'doctor shopping' and believe me addiction specialists are all too familiar (and understanding) about these things!!
ArlingtonAddict you are a great person to talk to , thanks. I'm going to try to get some sleep, and hopefully I wont feel like hell tomorrow because of my relapse today and yesterday.
Use the relapse to learn something and move on--do not beat yourself up!!!! HUGS!!!!!
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