I need positive energy! In Norco detox and need good thoughts!

[Nomonorcs]

I need positive energy! Please send me stories of how wonderful life is on the other side. I need something to look forward to.. What's the biggest change of you?

Thanks for the encouragement!

[jojolovesherboys]

Thanks for posting ur comments, I really needed to hear this.

[gnarly_1]

Hey how you doing??? I just want to encourage you to hang in there this is a battle one in baby steps ever hour is a victory  try not to watch the clock time will stand still right now the best thing you can do is try to stay positive your already 2 days into this for many that is 1/2 way keep a positive attitude this is  1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental so be ready to fight it out on both fronts if your week pray that God will give you the strength to get threw and he will you only need the faith of a mustard seed  and at times when I was in the jaws of it that was all i could do but when it 3 am your up tired worn out and sitting there shaking God is all you got I would keep saying this when it got bad...'I can do all things threw Christ Jesus'' keep posting for support..........Gnarly

[mcblon972]

benefits of no longer taking painkillers.....
Much better sleep, less mood swings, saving tons of money, less bouts of depression, no longer in constant withdrawal, more energy, hopeful about future, ability to make smarter decisions, feel closer to God/Higher Power, no more guilt over damage I am causing to myself & to others, higher self esteem, learning how to deal with emotions in healthier ways, found it easier to let go of destructive relationships & starting to trust and allow new, supportive friends in, no longer hiding, learning how to have fun and relax naturally, my physical appearance has really improved....
It hasn't always been easy, but it is soooo worth it. I finally feel like I have a future now.  You can do this! One day or hour at a time and soon you will have your own list of benefits :)

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Hold on hun...the ride is almost over.  You are thinking right now that it isn't worth it...we all think that...but it is oh so worth it.  You have enough inner strength and courage to see this through...and you have a huge family here to help you thru this.  Whenever you feel you can manage come post...we don't care if you want to cry, **** & moan or be joyful.  We are used to the moods...you need to get used to sharing them...don't hold it all inside...let it all out okay?

I'll be back later tonight...until then...I'm praying for you all the way!

[Ejm7263]

GOD said to you;
Behold, I have done a new thing. Know & perceive it springing forth & flowing out of You!!!!!
I'm on day 18 starting to feel better. Your going to feel better a lot faster than me. I've been on methadone & others...
Praying for you. I've had days, minutes, hours just like you.
But today I'm closer to life than death, light than dark, joy not constant sadness.
You are too.

[Nomonorcs]

I feel like death and climbing the walls. I can barely focus and respond but I thank you all.

Kaye, mylynn, chasing freedom, gnarly u are all God sent.

Keep me clutched in prayers

I will post again soo.

[ChasingFreedom]

Girl, I am testifying to you that every difficult day is SO worth the freedom from the poison's hold on your life.  I used to never get past day 10.  When I finally realized that I was the only one who could break me free and absolutely no one else could do this for me is when I finally REALLY dug deep enough to see what it was like beyond day 10.  I am so happy I pushed myself because life is so much sweeter.  I see everything with a sharper mind and I enjoy being around people now.  Being clean sure changes one's outlook on life too.  It's GREAT to feel alive for the first time in years.  You're absolutely right, a positive mindset is the key to making it.  Start every single day by saying something positive about yourself.  Love yourself.  After the first week every day get easier and more tolerable.  Keep diggin'.

[mlynn2014]

I'm still doing ok! It's bearable! The second half of the day was almost normal. I know to take it as it comes. That one pill threw me into some horribly acute withdrawals all over again. Don't do it. Lesson learned for me. It kicked my but physically and knocked me to my knees mentally. You don't have too far to go before you can function. Not perfect but function and that my friend is beautiful. Remember it dang sure wasn't perfect using. We felt like crap and worried everyday. This I will take and love!!

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Okay be careful of what you ask for.  I haven't done this here yet but here it goes...my first NA introduction per se:

Hi My name is Kaye and I'm an Addict.

It all started when I was a very tiny little girl I think.  My father was a functioning, full out violent alcoholic.  He beat my mother and brother all the time.  He did not beat me (he said later it was because he was scared of me) but I was emotionally abused all the time by both parents.  By the time I was a teenager I believed everything they told me...that I was ugly, that I was dumb, that I was worthless and that I wouldn't amount to a thing.  Well, what did I do?  Set out to prove them right (stupid yeah?)

In those days I experimented (the 70's) with pot, cocaine, lsd and whatever else that came my way...and my favorite were downers.  I never got addicted...I always quit before I got addicted because I was scared to death of turning into my parents.  I chose not to have children and God made sure I couldn't have children.  I thought to myself "See? Even God thinks I'm worthless and shouldn't have children"

Here I am in my late 20's, working, lonely and very, very shy.  I met a man, my future husband, who was very outgoing, loving, everything that I'm not.  We understood each other right off the bat ... but the problem was he had been a junkie for about 10 years at that point.  I told him he could only have one of us...not both of us.  He chose me and never touched the needle again.

Now we are in a serious relationship, I'm starting to show signs of medical issues my mother had....bone spurs, high bp, high cholesterol, arthritis, knee and shoulder issues.  My hubby was by this point diagnosed with the most viral form of Hep C and was waiting for a transplant.  I was taking any pain medicine the doctors would give me so I could survive taking care of my hubby.  I still hadn't a clue about what these drugs were doing to me or about the addiction problem for long-term pain patients.

Over the next 10 years I worked, took care of hubby during his various medical issues and continued to take the pills.  A few years ago I noticed I was starting to take more than prescribed...sometimes only one or two but sometimes 10 .... this scared the heck out of me!

I also noticed other issues...thinking to myself oh I could snag one of those empty prescription forms (I didn't) or if I ask around I should be able to find someone who deals this stuff (I didn't ask).  All I knew is I had a problem.

I told my hubby...I had to because he was dealing with his legitimate surgical issues and he needed to know.  He was, as always, very supportive of me.  He locked up all his drugs into an iron gun safe.  I have no way to get into it.  I had been lurking on this website for a little while and I finally opened my mouth and did the hardest thing I ever did in my life... I asked for help and I got it...tons of it and thank the good lord for that.

NA is not really for me because I clam up in groups of 2 or more people though if there is nothing else available I will go and just listen.  I see my pastor twice a week and we deal with my addition issues, I also am now seeing an addiction counselor, exercising several times a week and working with an online substance abuse support group.  So far this after care program is working for me.  I'm learning what triggers I have so I can work on those trigger.

If you had asked me 64 days ago if I could do this I would have said hell no...but now I say oh hells yeah!  Anyone who has the drive and determination to get sober and stay sober can do this.  All it requires is a bit of time to feel like crap, opening your soul up to complete strangers who nonetheless want nothing more than to help you and lots and lots of aftercare.

I can tell you that the horrible side of withdrawals does fade away but you never completely forget which is a good thing because we need to remind ourselves of what will happen if we screw up and have to start over again.

You will also make real, true friends.  Not people who want to take your money so you can have drugs.  They don't care if you have the drugs or not...they just want to get rich off of you.  You'll loaw the so-called friends who are never really there for you when you really need them.  You will gain sober friends, sponsors who will stick by you and help you out whenever you need it.  You will gain the kind of friends we all deserve.

You will laugh again, love again, cry again (normally), live again and be happy again.  It won't happen over night but it will happen.

I also realized today that I have more friends now than I ever have in my entire life.  These are friends who will not judge me, that will be honest with me and that will do whatever it takes to make sure I stay on the right path....and I'm willing to do the same for whoever needs me.

You have a lot to look forward to but the key word is patience (that is what everyone told me in the beginning).  You have to be patient.  The type of relationship I describe doesn't happen over night.  A true good relationship doesn't happen overnight either.

Be patient my friend...just be patient....one day you are going to wake up and think "wow...I almost feel normal today"...then you will step back and feel funky again and think oh yeah right...I was dreaming...but the next day it happens again and for longer, and longer yet again.

I'm giving you a new middle name for the time-being.  It is Patience.  My dearest Patience...I'm waiting for the day when you send me a message and say hey Kaye my middle name is really _____ I got the patience thing down now :-)

You are in my heart and my prayers!

[Nomonorcs]

I saw both poster - thank you! In fact, I was reading your post about taking that 1 pill and how it was the worst thing ever. It set me straight! Your posting stopped me from making that call so thank you!

I was visualizing your day.. With a lil bit of envy (smile) and great joy for you! Oh how I am looking forward to it!

I'll keep following your journey and thank you for supporting mine!

[Nomonorcs]

Love, love it! I will hold on to those words.. I receive it!

[mlynn2014]

I posted on your other post but I'm only 36 hours into detox....second time this week...many times in my life....but the worst part is the fear. I have made it out to the grocery store, ate a real meal and even got dressed like a normal person this afternoon. I'm still sneezing and at times have some chills but I'm so much better!!! Just ride out the next couple days. Once the physical subsides get out and do something. I know it seems insurmountable but just don't think about it...do it. It will take your mind off things. I'm definitely able to function after 36 hours. It's different for everyone. Don't anticipate anything and just roll with it.

[Bubulous]

When your mind is clear, you’ll see the miracles
Happening all around
Just have faith and give up control
And yours can finally be found
I pray for those with damaged souls
That still struggle today
They lost their faith in their higher power
I pray they find their way
I wish I could help but that’s not my job
I hope someday i can
I’m just like you, I get lost too
For I am just a man
It’s not unreachable, just ask forgiveness
For those whom you have wronged
He will forgive you and restore your sanity
That’s the message of this song
Whether you’re black or white, straight or gay
He’ll always here your prayer
When everyone else has turned their back
He will still be there
It’s the blessing you get for overcoming
The trials you have faced
It’s your will to change and your fear of pain
That brought you to this place
All I have are my words, I hope you heard
The message in my rhymes
We’re united together to fight addiction
One day at a time

Feel Better :)

[Nomonorcs]

Btw, I'm heading into day 2 only :(