So I was well on my way of day 2.... and I relapsed. I couldn't even make it 2 whole days!! I have more... help me. Should I take what I have and taper ... will it make it easier?
Should I throw them away? I dont know if I can!! This is awful.
What were you taking and how much? how long?
This will not be a walk in the park, but you can do it. need more info.
You can do this, others will come on and help later.
Let us know, and good luck! Keep posting.
I was taking 6, 10mg hydrocodone per day. sometimes 5 depending on the brand. I've mentioned previously that i have always been very cautious of the amount of tylenol i consume in 24 hours and never exceed 4000mg. ... but i've been taking SOMEthing for over a year. it's been everyday for a month or so now..... I used to be able to go a few days or a week without anything... but this is rediculous. I just took another one when i signed off of here.... so now i've taken 2 today.... better than 6 I guess..... I juts dont know. I can't help but to feel like a loser.
if u have been clean for 2 days and used once...a taper is kind of silly....if u relapsed for a week or so...then a taper may help....if u can not taper alone then get someone u trust to hold ur pills...if u can not do this than just CT...ur dose is not high...u will be ok in less than a week physically...the mental part is ongoing tho...the energy and such...lasted close to 4 months for me...and i still crave ...get thru the detox...and take it one day at a time...it has to come from deep inside....u have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired...and even then ur brain will play trix on u down the road...there is no miracle cure....no miracle drug to take for a couple of months to make craving and relapse away....u just have to want it
Withdrawal *****, really badly and sometimes making yourself deal with it is the best thing to keep from doing it again. Tapering is always so tricky because you can always find an excuse to take another one that way. Have you thought about any alternatives like suboxone or something to help you? That helped my husband get clean and stay clean for 3 years now. I would only advise taking that as a short term to get through the wd's and stay active, don't allow yourself to think about the drugs when you do find anyting to do, tear paper, make a list of why you don't want to take them etc. Getting off of opiated is one of the hardest things in the world and you have to be ready and willing to do what it takes. Can you go to any type of counseling? That helps.
I want to thank all of you for giving me your support. Honestly I wish that I was sitting here feeling like ****, and letting another day of sobriety pass leading me to be myself again... But that isn't the case. I'm sitting here right now feeling what has become "normal" to me. So... I'm going to try my hardest to talk myself into flushing what I have.... instead of holding on to them like they are gold.I felt so bad having to admit to you guys, my new friends, that I had relapsed.
I honestly dont know what I am going to do yet.... as far as tomorrow goes. But... it will be another day...
we wont...believe me u r not the first and wont be the last who didnt go totally clean on the very first.try...give urself a break even if this was not ur first try......i would reccomend flushing those pills...i would...why hang on to them? it is admitting that u may need them if u do...there is a sense of freedom that is very encouraging to take the power over those pills and let them go...it kinda shows who is boss,,,who has the pwoer...u do...let them go....it is hard to be successful with them in ur house or anywhere easy to get...LET THEM GO!
No one is going to give up on you. I always use the analogy of riding a bike to the process of getting clean. You don't always learn the first try. You fall off the bike and get back up and try again. You don't fail until you stop trying.
your definately not a loser. losers are the ones who dont try. at least your trying. i'm sorry its not as easy as just not taking anymore. but then again it really is. when your ready you will, so get ready ok.
HaHa Thank you guys. I've just flushed 12 pills down my toilet. So tomorrow, I start all over again. Hopefully no more relapses. Thank you all for sticking with me. It's so much nicer to have people who understand.
Day 4 and most lousy symptoms are gone....still craving like mad....only a little stomache ache and a little diahrea left....energy levels coming back, I'm hungry...brain less fuzzy...but why does 3 more days seem like forever?
One word of advice. Please keep posting on this forum. If I hadn't found this place, I don't think I could have done it. I have become close to people on here and believe it or not, even though we are basically strangers, I don't want to let them down. It also gives you someone to be accountable to.
You can do this. Flushing those pills shows that you are stronger than you think.
Don't beat yourself up....and we won't give up on you....we don't want you to give up either. Please keep posting as much as you need to! This is do-able and you can do it. It's hard....but you can beat it!
I am also pretty late in posting but was wondering how you are doing since you flushed them. Did you flush all of them? I think you should. I know it *****. I basically did the same thing two days ago and now I am on Day 2 ct. You can do this. I know how hard it is but it seems like you will feel better ifyou do.
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