I slipped up....help

I was doing so well, but I slipped up and bought 1 loratab 10 today and took it. I feel like such a failure. I know that my usual dosage would be well over 100 pills per week, but I still feel bad. My anxiety was through the roof. I kept rocking in the rocking chair. My other symptoms weren't that bad, but the anxiety brought me to tears. How many people do this?

[Crazy68]

Brother I am right there with you I was doing so good until I found out that I had an interview and the anxiety took over, I thought I was going to die, I kept walking back and forth in front of the place where I had an interview, I must have looked like a crackhead! I went to my car and searched my car to see if I had a pill much to missfortune, I found a 30 mg oxycodone, I took it and actually was so out if my mind I chewed it! I did well on my interview but I feel as though I lost the addiction battle! I am going to taper down from here on out! If I can't do that then my sister said I can stay at her place for a week and she will help me while I go through withdrawals, I have told her every trick in the book that I will use to get the Oxys so don't fall for them! Do u have anybody that would be willing to help u like my wonderful sister is willing to do! I think it is soich better if u have support! I know u and I can beat this! I have beaten the addiction to speed 15 years ago, but this is such a different animal! Keep posting! U can do it!!!!

[Crazy68]

Sorry meant to say sister!

[gnarly_1]

hi Jessie ....sorry to here about your slip up...I have been tring to follow your story please try to keep to the same post it helps us all keep tract of what is going on with you...right now you slipped ...so you pick yourself back up dust yourself back off and continue what you started you havent set your self back much  mabe a day but you got to quite taking pills
there only going to prolong this thing...I can relate to the anxiety it was my worst symptom
it seamed that I could handle everything but that...try a hot soak in the tub it helps
also some sleepy time tea will relax you a bit...the only way to do this is to grind it out YOU CAN DO THIS its just going to take some perseverance...I hope you get some sleep tonight but if you dont let my post encourage you to keep pushing threw even if it 3 in the morning
try praying it really does help...keep posting and reading the posts try to find someone thats right about where you are with your detox if you look it shouldn't be to hard to find ....I will check on you tomorrow good luck and God bless....Gnarly    

[jessiekauai]

Thank you so much for the kind words. If you want to continue to follow me, I'll get back on my original post. I've never been in this kind of forum, so it's taking a little getting used to. I'm getting back on track tomorrow. I'm going to try to do something positive with my money on Friday. Like get my hair did...lol. It's been so long since I've pampered myself. Maybe a new tattoo. Again, thank you all so much, and keep me in your prayers. Not only do I have this addiction to beat, but now we have a tropical system in the gulf. I live in Louisiana at the very bottom of the boot, as they like to say. We surely don't need a storm here, because we have already been hit hard with the oil spill.

[kt52]

sweetie, :/ slipups happened. But you seem to be making grand srtides over winning thid battle. Keep up what you were doing before. I KNOW you cak do it. Xo

[Crazy68]

Thanks for posting to my thread crazy68! I am going the tapering route! I would like to help u because I have been successful in getting off other drugs (speed) so I could help you while I am doing my tapering! I love this forum it has helped me a great deal with what I went through the last weekend! I made it to the three day mark of cold turkey but slipped! The mind is the hardest thing for me to concours I hate the physiologic effects but I can deal better with them than the mental ( anxiety attacks)! Good luck and let's get back to how we were before the drugs!!