I want to stop taking adderall

[klms]

I want to stop taking adderall. When I first started it 2 years ago it really helped me in school, and today some 2 years later I have taken 4 20 mg tablets through out today. Im scared to get help because im in school for surgical technology and I don't want to be denied employment for/ in a hospital. I have no insurance and im a single mom. Like most people lliving in the us today I am having major finacial problems. Plus before I had my son 5 years ago I was diagnosed with being bipolar but never wanted treatment. But now I do. CAn I be denied medication for being bipolar if I admit to using more adderall than was prescribed? Adderall is ruining my life. Im having terrible mood swings, and im sure the mania isn't helping with my depression/anxiety that I have. Im afraid to admitting to needing help I don't want to lose custody of my son? I want to stop cold turkey but I go through terrible withdrawls and I can not afford to miss any work or school? I don't have family or friends that I can talk to or ask for help. Im kinda just out here alone. Like today I felt like a horrible mother and just broke down into tears. I need to be playing with him not on the computer trying to find out if I have a drug problem? This is so upsetting

So anyways after my long rant, I was wondering if anybody had any suggetions. Iv been on this website reading through all the different addiction forums and though I have found that I relate to a lot that I read I never came across my answer? I just went to the addictioncareoptions.com website and they just said I need to see a doctor.

Plus I just took my anti depressant and im smart enough to know that a stimulant and a downer could be fatal and yet I took it. I need the anti depressant I don't want to be on adderall. How can I get help with quiting without ruining eveything Iv worked so hard for?

[lisabisa]

I have been taking adderall for 2 years, first 10 then 15 then 20. I started taking it because my roomate I lived with said it helped her trouble focusing. She used to abuse it and give me her xr, i never abused it as bad as her. I used to only take it on days i had school or had to work, now it is all i think about. I just always wonder why a med that is supposed to help,does not anymore. It has made me extremely lethargic, and i have gained weight anyways. About 20 pounds in only 6 months, how is that possible. So as you can see , this medicine has ruined my life. I can relate to peoples posts in here, and i really wanna stop taking it. But i just got everything back in order for college, and I am afraid the anxiety will be way worse then it is now.I am smart enough to admit i have a problem, since adderall i have taken a lot of other pills i dont need. Like advil, or especially tylenol pm.I miss what it is like just to be able to go to sleep on my own without medication.Does someone have a suggestion?

[branz]

adderall does suck. i've been on it for six years and for a couple off in between and did very poorly in school, and went from 70 lbs to almost 170 lbs. when i went back on adderall, i began doing well in school again and went down to 115 lbs up until last year, and since it's been less effective in helping me focus or follow through with anything and made me increasingly irritable and anxious but whenever i stopped taking it, i would just want to lay in bed or eat all day. i also started taking lexapro a few months ago and it seems to be helping with mood swings but food cravings and fatigue have increased. i'm not sure if i still need adderall for ADHD or if it's helping me, but i'm afraid of not being able to function without it. my boyfriend and i got into a fight because he doesn't like "how i am" when i take it because apparently i get really mean and don't realize it. i got rid of my prescriptions and it's been two days. yesterday i mostly slept and ate a lot. today i didn't have much of an appetite and have been awake all day. the past few weeks i've been sleeping almost 12 hrs a night and that was even before i quit adderall. prior to that, i'd barely be able to sleep! was even prescribed trazodone to help me get to bad. i don't really know what's what but i'm going to try hard, mind over matter and stop taking adderall. i've noticed that i feel more inclined to drink or smoke when i take it, too. i'm tired of feeling like a zombie on auto-pilot. let's hope this works. good luck to anyone else trying this, too.

[mrmorgan]

adderall is amphetimine salt but really its just a type of amphetimine welcome to the world of amphetimines it makes you feel like **** ive takin adderall for close to 5 years ive tried to quit and i cant seem to do so. when i have tried to quit i cant seem to want to do anything but sleep. so i continue to take it because i cant miss work. to put it frank your taking speed . my prescription keeps increasing my depression does to . dont get me wrong i can focus now and pay attention i just act like a tweek and am depressed all the time oh and a little bi polar. sometimes evan a little paranoid...if somebody would have told me i would feel completely like **** if i took this i would of just dealt with my adhd

[4aim2]

I hate adderall, then i run out, then i think i need it, then I love it till I hate it.  It makes me drink, become someone I dont even know.  It makes me anti-social, jumpy, and just plain old messed up.

Every month i go through the same thing.  If it's in my possesion I seem to convince myself that i should take it.  Even when the night before I told myself I wouldnt take any.

I've been on adderall for 6 or 7 years, and it's like everytime i take it, i'm looking for the feeling it gave me when I took it for the first time.  "chasing the dragon"  I think they say!!!  Yeah well I tell ya what. That dragon is a dang good hider!

I need help. I want my boyfriend to take it away, but i dont even like to be around him when im on it cuz i feel like a bad person.  I'm doing something bad.  And if i give it to him, ill want it back.  Adderall *****.

[klms]

I keep checking my pulse and feeling my heart beating holding my chest. Oh yeah hes asleep. Thanks for all your help. all I can do is try to get through tonight. But I have never been so scared. My right arm is tingling. I just need to stop thinking everything is related to the other lol. Thank you

[Clamity2]

Oh yea. Iv'e had a mouth taste like the bottom of a birdcage!! LOL  Head is weird like what?  Are you trying to tell yourself calming thoughts?  Or are you continually taking your pulse.  The reminds me just now!!  OMG  yep I remember the panic attacks on the desoxyn and taking my pulse thinking I was having a heart attack. It was just me having a panic attack.
Is your son sleeping?  I hope so if you're not in china

[klms]

my head is feeling weird, and iv had a horrible taste in my mouth all day? Did you ever have that?

[Clamity2]

Well this forum is free and there are often many people on here that will help you with suggetions. Any chance you can get to a N.A meeting?  Ever been?

[klms]

Thanks I think this is my down fall, I know what im suppose to be doing  relax, take deep breaths, youl get through this but how I feel is trumping my education, whats so sad is even after this I can't go get help. Iv tried to get health insurance I cant afford nor do I qualify for anything...

[Clamity2]

Do you feel better yet?

[Clamity2]

I put adderal withdrawal in the search box but my old dialup computer keeps just freezing.
I used to take qualude and desoxyn all day. ore coke booze and reds.  You have been on the adderal for awhile right.?  Try some calm breathing relaxation in blow tension out. Force yourself to count your blessings. Beautiful 5 year old, smart, etc.

[klms]

I just don't want anything to happen to me while my sons here. I mean I don't want anything to happen to me at ALL! Don't get me wrong

[klms]

no. im in between doctors so the antidepressant is from the new one. I know its ok to take one aderall in the morning and one anti depr. at night but I v taken 4 aderalls through out today.

[JENZ_N_RECOVERY]

hi i too am on adderol....i started taken it for nursing school..it totally helped me and now that im not in school anymore i still take it....but im prescribed 2 30mg a day and i only take a 1/2  15 mg a day! i agree that you should probally try the taper thing....i was addicted to oxyz intaveionusly and my dr. put me on suboxone....it helped so much but i dont think that i would help for the adderol. my dr. thinks its fine for me to still take the adderol b/c of the fact i only take em when i have to work and i only take 1/2 of my dose! but you cando it hunny.....itll be hard but if you put your mind to it you can do it! i hav faith in ya! if you ever need anything im here just pm me! the best of luck to ya sweetheart!! JENZ

[Clamity2]

OK so where did the antidepressant come from. Did the same dr. perscribe both?

[klms]

I never relized how bad I was feeling and what this was doing to me until I actually got on here and started reading other peoples postings and then I wrote one

[klms]

When I have to go a few days without it I can't stay awake I can barley function. And this months prescription I have been taking 2, 3 and then today 4? Like I said in my first post I just took my anti depressant and now im afraid that Im gonna od? Im smarter than this my heart feels like its throwing in xtra beats and my right arm is feeling funny. I swear im not nuts im hoping this is just me having a panic attack as opposed to a heart attack. Im home alone with my 5 year old son. Im scared, I have no one to call. I know im probably over reacting  but its still scary all the same.

[Clamity2]

I don't think you need to tell you take more than perscribed. What do you do for the run out time ? Have you had to go 3 days without?  This is one I'm not that familiar with. I used to take Desoxyn which is speed and remember wanting the energy back but with time I did get it back.

In my (non expert addict opinion)  You are one that does need to taper. I'm going to put adderal wds in the search box and see what posts come up. I'll P.M you if I find something. Hang in there.  I have two people in my life with bipolar. Its a hard one on the mood swings anyway.