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I want to stop using Vicodin
Ok heres is my story..Im so ashamed, I have to remain anonymous. Im crying now. Im in my mid-20's. I started using Vicodin, recreationally about 3 years ago. (7.5's) It started off fun! I loved the euphoria I got, and the ability I had to be social while on vicodin. (Im normally anti-social). I only needed 1 pill to get that great feeling but slowly, 1 pill turned into 5 pills. Now three years later I can easily take 15 pills of the 10 milligrams norco's a day. (Or more).
This 4th of July weekend was really bad. I bought 50 10mg's (norcos), and Im ALREADY out of them.
In JUST THREE DAYS. (I have taken about 80 pills in 4 about 3 weeks back) which is absolutely terrible. And I'm already looking for more. This is no way to live. For 3 years these pills have controled, my finances (which are terrble now), My friends I choose, who I go out with, and what I do. I cannot tell you how many bad decisions I have made because of these stupid pills. The longest I have gone without them was a week. I cannot afford rehab. But I want my old life back. Im so young, and I dont even want to THINK of what my liver looks like. I will end up dead or in jail, and I dont want that to happen.
The more money I have, the more I know I want to buy pills. And taking them comes with a heavy price. I'm stopping cold turkey (its only been 24 hours) and it feels like hell. I wish I could die.
Its weird. Part of me wants that "high" but the other part of me dreads getting a phone call from a "dealer" and having to buy them. That 2 hours of happiness I get when popping 2 pills at a time just isn't working anymore. I may even turn my phone off for a whole week, so that I wont get any temptation to buy them.
If anyone is going through the same thing feel free to comment. I wish you all the best, and thanks for the support.
This 4th of July weekend was really bad. I bought 50 10mg's (norcos), and Im ALREADY out of them.
In JUST THREE DAYS. (I have taken about 80 pills in 4 about 3 weeks back) which is absolutely terrible. And I'm already looking for more. This is no way to live. For 3 years these pills have controled, my finances (which are terrble now), My friends I choose, who I go out with, and what I do. I cannot tell you how many bad decisions I have made because of these stupid pills. The longest I have gone without them was a week. I cannot afford rehab. But I want my old life back. Im so young, and I dont even want to THINK of what my liver looks like. I will end up dead or in jail, and I dont want that to happen.
The more money I have, the more I know I want to buy pills. And taking them comes with a heavy price. I'm stopping cold turkey (its only been 24 hours) and it feels like hell. I wish I could die.
Its weird. Part of me wants that "high" but the other part of me dreads getting a phone call from a "dealer" and having to buy them. That 2 hours of happiness I get when popping 2 pills at a time just isn't working anymore. I may even turn my phone off for a whole week, so that I wont get any temptation to buy them.
If anyone is going through the same thing feel free to comment. I wish you all the best, and thanks for the support.
My son came to me today admitting to his addiction to Narco. He has been taking off and on for five years never successfully quiting. Tomorrow he is to make a schedual to once and for all stop this addiction. I will help him control the drugs but dont trust what he is saying. Father hurting for his son!
I'm in the exact position, this had me straight broke...pawning stuff, I want my old life back as well...I cry myself to sleep every night. It's really tough I hope things goin well for you and I only took 3 today...i want to quit i heard theres suboxone whats that?
I'm in the exact position, this had me straight broke...pawning stuff, I want my old life back as well...I cry myself to sleep every night. It's really tough I hope things goin well for you and I only took 3 today...i want to quit i heard theres suboxone whats that?
My boyfriend takes about 30-40 1000mg pills a day this past two days he has cut it down to 15 to 20 800mg pills a day.. I beg him everyday to cut it cold turky but he says he cant its too hard he gets sick when he doesnt take it. He wont admit his addicted he says he jst does it for the good feeling he gets his been doin it for two yrs now. I tried talking him into rehab but he got mad saying im not a drug addict. I dont know what to do or how to make him stop, even when i told him ill leave he told me that he'll tell me he dossnt do it but how would i ever know.. I dont know what to do i dont know how to help him n i care to much about him for me jst to stand there n watch him destroy himself....
Read all the horror stories about trying to get off subs before you decide especially since you have a few days under your belt. Personally I wouldn't recommend it I've seen too many people get stuck on it. How are you feeling tonight?
Forgive the double post, but regarding Suboxone, my counselor told me that in addition to cushioning the withdrawal, it can help curb cravings. There is Naloxone in it as well, and that prevents you from getting high, even if you do take Vicodin. Do not be embarrassed to go see a doctor that prescribes Suboxone; he/she has seen drug addicts from all walks of life, from the pill-popping housewife to the junkie. They will not judge you and will only do what is best for you.
Have you tried going to NA meetings? I was a little nervous the first time I went to a meeting, but everyone is supportive and it helps hearing other people's stories and knowing you're not alone. After the meeting I approached a lady who was a recovered heroin addict. I felt that I could identify with her the most and assumed she was a sponsor. She gave me her number and told me to call her before I used. Long story short, NA can be a very strong support system.
Have you been staying clean? How are the withdrawals?
Have you been staying clean? How are the withdrawals?
Its been tough, but the physical symptoms have decreased pretty much. So many emotions I have to deal with and sort out, because I have supressed them for so long. And the feeling of learning how to just "be" like I used to, without the pills. They have controlled my thinking so Its not easy, Its worth it though. I'm hanging in!
Im on day 6 almost day 7. I think first 3 days are the worst after that it gets better. Well yesterday was better then today for some reason. Its like a rollercoster to me! I take Nyquil to help me sleep I wake up least once and have to take another shot to go back to sleep. This is my second time trying to stop and will be my last! Im not going to go through this again. I want to be normal again!
Congrats on 2 days clean! You are almost to 3 days clean... Keep it up! I am so proud of you.
The SUBOXONE 8 mg can be a bit expensive but it is less if you go to the Dr. and then the Pharmacy than if you get it on the streets. Just don't use it as a crutch. You can even break the 8mg pill in 1/2 and try 1/2 in the morning and then 1/2 at night so you can sleep well. Even though I wanted to quit so so bad there was no way I could quit cold turkey. The SUBOXONE is what did it for me. I will never go back to Norco's or Vicodin's again! My 2 younger brothers right now are all into smoking 80 mg Oxy's. They melt the casing and then smoke the OC. I have tried so many times to get them to stop and they just don't really want to. Thats why i won't give them anymore SUBOXONE. They just save it for when they can't get high.
Back to the cost on the SUBOXONE its cheaper in the long run if you think about how much you spend on the Norco's and the long term affects that they and the addiction has on you! I think if you do the SUBOXONE for a couple weeks to a month you will walk away from all of this feeling so much better. It took me a whole year to get my life back on track. I'm here for you whenever you need someone to talk to! I believe in you!
Back to the cost on the SUBOXONE its cheaper in the long run if you think about how much you spend on the Norco's and the long term affects that they and the addiction has on you! I think if you do the SUBOXONE for a couple weeks to a month you will walk away from all of this feeling so much better. It took me a whole year to get my life back on track. I'm here for you whenever you need someone to talk to! I believe in you!
Good for you. The time at home will help heal your body and mind. Stay busy, keep posting, and stay strong! The good stuff is right around the corner!
Oh yes! I may have posted this on a different forum, but yes I work, and took the week off. I've done it several times in the past only to relapse. BUT NO MORE! This July 4th was be the last and final time, I will not do this, its a new time for me! Thank God for this forum, or I couldn't have hung in there even this long!
Did you take the week off work? work from home? Maybe I missed something from the original post.
Thanks for the support! It will be 48 hours clean, and I have cut off my phone like so many recommended. Thanks so much!
Too funny about the guilt trip, and YES it is all about the money. He was probably living it large at your expense for some time now. I am so proud of you for keeping him away. Lack of money is usually the best way to keep these people from calling. Keep handing in there and stay positive.
Ha ha.. You are funny. I am a girl. The fiance is a boy... Just to clear things up for you...
I was reading your posts and it looks like you are on the right track! Keep posting because you are going to go through an ocean of feelings. After your body finishes with physical wd's, you will go through crazy emotions. As you can see, everyone on here is so supportive. My fiance is on here too. We talk about everyone like they are our friends! I am proud of your decisions that you have made... Keep up the good work!
I was reading your posts and it looks like you are on the right track! Keep posting because you are going to go through an ocean of feelings. After your body finishes with physical wd's, you will go through crazy emotions. As you can see, everyone on here is so supportive. My fiance is on here too. We talk about everyone like they are our friends! I am proud of your decisions that you have made... Keep up the good work!
To cloudhaginglow, you can do this. I know I have to, and its best for you to keep strong. My heart knows that the few days it will take me to feel better is all I need to keep me clean and sober. Its worth it.
I know the shame and guilt you feel, I feel it too.
But el_em_en_oh posted an AWESOME message above. It says look at your mirror everyday and tell yourself "I wont take these pills anymore." Ive taken it a step forward. And written down all the destructive things that norco's have caused me. Its terrible what I read, but the REAL inner me knows the real truth! And I know before these pills I loved who I was, and NOW?? While doing drugs, I hate it!
Its crazy! Theres nothing glamorous about it. The fun subsides quickly, and brings with it, a heavy cost of pain, lonliness and despair. I never want this again, thats why this time, I have to quit.
Your body hates it now, but your body will be better the longer you are away from the pills. PLEASE stay strong. :)
I know the shame and guilt you feel, I feel it too.
But el_em_en_oh posted an AWESOME message above. It says look at your mirror everyday and tell yourself "I wont take these pills anymore." Ive taken it a step forward. And written down all the destructive things that norco's have caused me. Its terrible what I read, but the REAL inner me knows the real truth! And I know before these pills I loved who I was, and NOW?? While doing drugs, I hate it!
Its crazy! Theres nothing glamorous about it. The fun subsides quickly, and brings with it, a heavy cost of pain, lonliness and despair. I never want this again, thats why this time, I have to quit.
Your body hates it now, but your body will be better the longer you are away from the pills. PLEASE stay strong. :)
Youre awesome. Being on norco's myself, let alone another person its very rough. Im happy you and your partner are on your way to success! I dont have a bathtub, but I DO have a stand up shower, and believe me, Ive been using it! Lol. Watch you and your partners money, it will increase, as you wont be spending money on pills anymore! Absolutely fabulous. Its great, and your sooo lucky. Your fiance REALLY must care about your future, as well as his, if he is sticking with you on your road to recovery!! . (sorry if ive gotten the genders mixed up, but I dont know if ur male or female.) lol. You have a great things going for the two of you both and CONGRATS!
Ok everyone, I want to adress all of you who supported me! Its so good to have a support system!
NORCBEGONE, he has used his guilt trip you talked about over the last 4 hours now! He just called. Luckily he lives an hour and a half away from me. I realized this a while back, but he is using me for my money, because he knows I will do anything to get vicodin. I had been giving him 50 bucks for gas to drive to me, since he lives far away.
Guess what I did? I told him I was out of money!! Lol. You should see how fast he declined to come and give me the pills! I wasn't surprised. He kept calling. Now I know what to tell others that have been supplying me. I need to just tell them I dont have the money, and I dont want to talk. Hey my life is at stake here! So this is definately best you are right!
Ha! That just proves even more, that the people that KNOW you have a problem (I expressed it while we were together), and still supply vicodin to you, do NOT really care about you at all.
Theres NO way I would let ANY of my friends do vicodin. It destroyed my life, and I would never recommend it to someone else.
Im doing all I can so thanks!
NORCBEGONE, he has used his guilt trip you talked about over the last 4 hours now! He just called. Luckily he lives an hour and a half away from me. I realized this a while back, but he is using me for my money, because he knows I will do anything to get vicodin. I had been giving him 50 bucks for gas to drive to me, since he lives far away.
Guess what I did? I told him I was out of money!! Lol. You should see how fast he declined to come and give me the pills! I wasn't surprised. He kept calling. Now I know what to tell others that have been supplying me. I need to just tell them I dont have the money, and I dont want to talk. Hey my life is at stake here! So this is definately best you are right!
Ha! That just proves even more, that the people that KNOW you have a problem (I expressed it while we were together), and still supply vicodin to you, do NOT really care about you at all.
Theres NO way I would let ANY of my friends do vicodin. It destroyed my life, and I would never recommend it to someone else.
Im doing all I can so thanks!
well I am now 4 days clean I did a taper ya the wd's lasting longer but I did try cold turkey I couldn't do it... so I wrote down on a piece of paper how I felt at the time. and then set up a taper schedule. it was only 3 weeks long. I added up how many I needed, got them, I in no way told my dealer anything about this. took my paper to my roommate ( who doesn't use anything) we all have at least 1 person we trust and love. if you don't then either cold turkey it and deal with it for about 4-5 days or find a treatment facility. I gave him the paper I wrote and he read it I then handed him the pills needed to get through it for 3 weeks. ( that was difficult, but I was done with it) you hve to want to stop In order to stop! and we started on the weening I told him if I ask for more do not give me more untill the time fir next dose came. I don't care what I said! I pushed this so hard. but the whole point of weening off is NOT to get high!! remember that. what ever you are taking cut that amount in half or 3-4 days. break the pills in half( ONLY do this when you get down to a handful a day! other wise you will get high) every 3 to 4 days cut it in half if you need longer make sure you have enough. you dON'T want to go back to your source!! bad temptations!! you hav to want to stop you hav to want to quit. weening off is not for everyone, failure is around every damn corner. but just remember you want to stop and don't want to get high. I've tried all this remedies and bleh they don't really make you feel better right away buy in the long run they make you get through the wd process alot faster. but weening again is not for everyone. it's hard to tell someone your embarrassed about yourself or doing this it's hard to stop, but if it is something you want let no one stop you. write down a letter explaining what did how many you are taking how you feel, whAt your plan and goal is. make a taper schedule how many you need and how long. give that letter to someone who you know and trust and know they love you and try will help you! but you have to want it. you cAn't taper down yourself we hve all tres this and we have all failed. very few have that really really high will power to say you had enough. if you find that person just tell them I can't tell you in words hat I'm going through but here read this it explains everything and I need your help! then when they have agreed give them what you have and tell them to stick to the tapering schedule. if they don't understand how to taper tell them to come here and post how to taper down from however many you are taking now, someone will surely answer that! I have seen post like that before on other forums! the person adminstering them doesn't give enough for the person tryin to come down, the person winds up jonesing and goes back. again they don't understand, but hve them post here if the don't understand or don't agree with have on your letter. but just remember you don't want to get high, your weening off and just doing this to feel comfortable! I was in shock myself when I got down to 2 pills a day!!! :-) I never though in my dreams I would ever get down to that many!! but I did and am clean and I feel wonderful today I went for a drive out in the country air listened to the radio fresh air it was so awesome, not once did I think about any pills!! seek out aftercare once you are clean! and know your weakness!! knowing your weakness is a huge strength. during the time of weening your body and mind are going to be tested. you want to heal them both as much as possible ad as fast as possible! I drank a protein shake ( muscletech nitro-tech) the protein iis in powdered form and very easyly digested. get choco if you get it te others taste like butt lol drink lots of water as this mix forces your muscles to take up water and your flushing all the crap out. it also has lots and lots of vitamins your body so desperatly need at this time. green tea works in a awesome subsitute for coffee ( if you drink coffee) I found hen I drank coffee it made me feel worse. green tea you can drink throught the day. make sure you are eating also. know your limits and know how you feel after eating. I know in my case after I ate I felt aweful and craved to feel better so make sure you include that in your taper! if you feel nauseaed or don't feel like eating go for a walk get out of the house don't just sit there thinking about it, cause it will make it worse. all I can say is your in for a body ride and mentally and physically. just have to want it is all I can say!
God bless and good luck
God bless and good luck
Hey I am in the exact same boat pretty much. I can't let anyone know that I'm even on here. My wife doesn't know that i have been even doing them. I thought i had everything under control until just yesterday when i said "F" it i'm going to stop. Now i am only 1 day in and i can't stop wanting to call someone for just a few more to get me by. But you have to stay strong. I keed thinking about all my kids and what they will have to live with if they ever found out. So just please for my help and to keep my confidence going stay strong. I know i feel really bad my body don't want to stay in this skin but I am really trying this time i really am.
At my hightest of use I was taking 50/week, but just shy so i would be miserable for 2 days before it was filled again. This was during and after my surgeries. (who gives 50 pills/week) oh my! Anyhow, I finally decided to decrease out of fear. That was difficult but doable. I know it is a high dose you are coming off of, but there are so many storied here w/ ppl just like yourself who did ct. I'm prone to have seizures so I told my mom and dad to keep an eye on me. It all worked out, and 19 days clean! Try not to over think it either.
who is it on here that always says "you have to be ok with not being ok for a while" Keep up the good fight!
who is it on here that always says "you have to be ok with not being ok for a while" Keep up the good fight!
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