I'M BACK ON THE HORSE!!

[ladyboop]

I have put down the bat, and got back on the horse. That s.o.b, When you fall it hurts like he!! Well I have 24hrs or so, I am sure everyone feels this way, But if the withdrawls were not so darn bad. MAYBE, It would be alittle easier. But then the hole world would be addicts I guess. Sorry for the rambling, This thing just knocked me for a loop... Head is still spinning.
You are all right about the B/F is a big part of all this, and has got to go.. That also is easier said than done. Long story, But he help me out right now. and without it, I would not make it. I have tried to find A roommate. but no luck, I feel stuck...
Guess the point is giving it another go, Thank you all for your kind words and support. I know without it, I would not be able to even try again....

       My love to all of you,
               Lady

[worried878]

And you seem to be in good spirits for all you are going thru girl....u have a plan and u will get where u want to be....got faith in ya!

[malenurse57]

My wife says it's not a sin to fall down but it is a sin to stay down. Now that leaves only two choices. Glad to see you chose the right one.

[malenurse57]

Good job, Lady. Glad to hear you still have fight in ya. Go for it girl !!!!!!!

[Sajonna]

I tried to quit smoking 8x and each time it was worse than the time before.  So I know what you mean about starting over.

I did eventually quit though and yes I am bragging about it.  I will be quit from smokes 2 years this May 30th.  And to be honest, quitting smokes was harder than getting off these pills.  Just a reminder: I tapered off the Narco's by 1 less pill every 2 days and alot of prayer. 4 days off now.

You can do this LADY!

[bobby139]

ALRIGHT, there you go....good job....keep up the good work, you can do it! welcome back :)
hugs
bobby

[louise65]

i reckon it takes most of us a few times till we manage eventually, the important thing is your willing to try again, good luck with it all, louise

[worried878]

I am glad u picked urself back up and will be continuing to fight girl!

[j34]

Drinking lots of water and just taking it easy on myself, the whole thing is not that you fell it is only that you got back up!!

[ladyboop]

No there are physical w/d's.. I never made it through day 4. So I am starting over.. I hate the w/d's soo much... I know it is all part of the process of getting better.. And they seem to get worse, each time I do it.. You would think that we would learn from it..LOl..LOL.. Not a chance....

               Lady

[j34]

I know exactly what your talking about my BF is gone ina matter of days . I went out got a job ,found a little bedroom to rentand I am just going to make rent, I guess I'll have to find a night job. My sponcer tells me what do you have to change to stay clean????????

                                               EVERYTHING

                                          

[Rose703]

I don't know the story about your b/f, but if he's a trigger for you then you should give him the big ole boot ASAP, although I understand the financial bind of losing an income.
The important thing is that you're okay and that you're getting back on that horse and riding her hard!
Keep posting hon and let's get her done!! I'm glad to hear that you're not have any physical w/d's, but obviously the emotions are tough.

[TJack]

Hey, we're all on your side.   You can do it!  

[mommy52713]

lady I am so glad you didn't give up keep on fighting the fight and with each passing day it will get better and better much♥Holly p.s. if you ever need a friend I am alway's here 4 you♥

[road2recovery]

There u go....Try again, u will get it!!!  I am rooting for u
r2r

[desperate1111]

Good for you! i know the 'stuck" feeling all too well. You can do this and I'm proud of you!