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IV LOST EVERYTHING, TRYING TO PICK UP THE PIECES

I POSTED A FEW DAYS AGO WITH NOT MUCH OF A RESPONSE A COUPLE PEOPLE THAT I APPRECIATE RESPONDED  IV BEEN ON ALOT OF PILLS FOR A LONG TIME  IM QUITING IM ON DAY 4 OF SUB TREATMENT B4 ANY1 SAYS ANYTHING LET ME TELL U WHY I CHOSE SUB OVER CT. MY PARENTS I C EVERYDAY R HARDCORE ADDICTS IM TALKING 20-30 BENZOS A DAY EACH  MY HUBBY LEFT ME  I FILED BANKRUPCY AND IM LOSING MY HOUSE IV MANGAED TO HOLD ON TO MY CAR AND DAUGHTER I GUESS I HIT BOTTOM SOMTHINGS DIFF ISMOKED 3 GRAMS OF WEED A DAY TOO AND QUIT THAT 2 DAYS AGO AS WELL I HAVE NO1 TO TALK TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAM A ADDICTS I JUST NEED SUM SUPPORT IV NEVER FELT LIKE THIS I KNO IM GONNA DO THIS  THE DR GAVE ME 8 MGS OF SUB A DAY IV BEEN TAKN 4 MGS A DAY AND YESTERDAY I ONLY TOOK 3MGS I STARTED TODAY OFF WITH 1 MG
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2201043 tn?1340702026
Wish you luck isis! I'm 16 days clean from a long time on methadone and pills.
Good luck!
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ITS FUNNY HOW WE ALL START OUT SO DIFF BUT END UP IN THE SAME PLACE TRYING TO GET THRU THIS 2GATHER
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HEY ISIS I ONLY HAVE ACCESS TO THE SITE AT WRK I JUST READ UR COMMENTS IM TRYING TO FIND UR POST  BUT CANT WHAT R U TAKING HOW MUCH  I WANT TO KNO BOUT U. UR REACHING OUT TO EVERY1 I THINK U NEED TO B REACH OUT TO ALSO U SEEM SAD LIKE ALOT OF US.  U ALSO SEEM SERIOUS ABOUT FIXN UR LIFE IM HERE IF U WANNA TALK  U CAN PM IF U WANT
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2187024 tn?1338025629
I am new here too and I know you can do it. I am a mental Health professional addicted to pills for arthritis and I made the decision to make this my day one!!! I am scared and paniced but with support and encouragement we can do it. From everythng I have read here there are alot of good people all struiggling on the same journey...
Keep strong and for every day you make it be proud of your self...I am here for support and encouragement and I am reaching out my hand to anyone who needs it too..

"Without struggle there is no progress"

Yours on the Journey.......Isis
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2120911 tn?1350922661
hang in there...were behind ya!
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i always knew i would quit pills just never thought id quit smoking weed funny how that wrks but as soon as i started sub weed put me str8 to sleep so i sd whats th point if ima do this i need to do it right
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thank u  i was just wondering  i feel like im clean even tho im on sub i am only taking enough to feel a lil normal i take 1 mg at a time now on day 6 of sub  when i stop sub i will reset it but for now its encouraging me  i feel my mind clearing and my personality changing bck to the old me maybe its wishful thinking but every1 at work has notced a diff and i hav 2 my life is 100% better in 1 week  i still hav sum wd symptoms like the leg cramps but its not enough for me to up my dose i dont plan on being on sub long
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271792 tn?1334979657
Clean time is subjective and everyone counts it differently. Let me tell you how they do in professional treatment centers and you can decide from there.

Let's say you go into treatment and right before you go, you use. That would be your last day in active addiction. The next day you wake up and don't use is your first day clean and so on. If you relapse---even if you take just one--you set your clean time back to day 1. They do not consider you clean if you are on a maintenance drug such as Suboxone or Methadone as these are mind and mood altering "medications".

Again, it is a personal thing and it is up to you how you count it. Either way I am happy to see you making positive steps in the right direction. Keep up the good work!
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hey i set my tracker this morning  i went from the last time i abused a substance since im on sub does that count as clean time???
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i have  2 pits a boy and girl they had pups in jan   thanks for all the support
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Hi stack if u start yout own thread someone is more likly to answer you mate.if u go on post question at the top of the screen.
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I have been on endocet,Xanax,Flexeril,Pristqi,opana er,nexium,isosorbide
and many more. This is just a few of what I have and are still taking.
I have been on Endocet for 8 years.  Some of the surgeries I have had are
Hysterectomy, Appendectomy,3 knee and foot surgeries, c5-c6, c-7 t1
zenker's Diverticulum,laparoscopic heller myotomy with toupet Fundoplication.  I have a disc disease and a rare disease called Achaclasia.
Now I have c7-t1 that are dieased.  I am going to a Pain clinical now
and they are doing nerve blocks.  It helps but the pain is still there.

Any help on what I should do?

Thanks.




  
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Yay pit thats wicked!!! Really happy for ya i bet your starting to feel better already!?
Did u find weed gave u crazy thougthoughts? It makes me really paranoid hiding behind the sette and everything!!
Nice one pit!!
Do u have a baby pitbull?
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BY THE WAY THIS IS DAY 5 OF PILLS AND DAY 3 OFF WEED
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IV DECIDED WHATS GONE IS GONE I NEED TO MOVE ON AND MAKE SURE WHAT I DO HAV I HOLD ON TO
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LOL I GET IT RIZ SHE IS WHY IM DOING THIS AND WHY IM NOT GIVING UP EVEN THO I GIVE HER EVERYTHING SHE NEEDS I KNO THERES MORE I GREW UP WIT ADDICTS SHE WONT THAT I KNO 4 SURE. IM DOING WAY BETTER MENTALLY 2DAY  THOUGHT ABOUT STUFF ALOT LAST NITE.
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You sound like u love your daughter more than anything which shines through.
Would you live for you daughter?
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YEAH MY DR KNOWS EVERYTHING I HEARD TRAM WD CAN BE DANGEROUS BUT IM NOT THAT WORRIED IV WENT THRU TRAM WD EVERY MONTH WHEN I RAN OUT LOL I JUST TOOK EXTRA OXY  IM ACUALLY NOT FEELING BAD PHYS IT JUST THE MENTAL PART I HAVE NO CRAVINGS IM JUST SAD AND KEEP THINKING BOUT MY X HE LEFT ME 2 MONTHS AGO AND MOVED OUT OF STATE WITH HIS X WIFE  PS RIZ YEAH I WOULD DIE FOR MY DAUGHTER  SHES 11 AND HADNT REALLY KNOWN HER REAL MOM IM 28 SO IV BEEN ON PILLS AS LONG AS SHE CAN REMEMBER ALTHOUGH SHE DSNT KNO I ALWAYS MADE SURE SHE HAS EVERYTHING SHE NEEDS MY X IS TRYING TO SUPPORT ME HE CALLS EVERYDAY  TO TELL ME HES PROUD OF ME I JUST WISH I WOULDV DID THIS SOONER MAYBE HE WOULD B HERE 2 HELP I GUESS ITS REALLY HARD HE IS THE ONLY MAN I EVER LOVED ITS HARD TO LET GO.
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Did your doctor know that u were trying to get off tramadol too?  From what I read CT from this may be difficult with medical risks.  Sounds like you are trying the best you can!
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H and oxy are both opiates and come from the opium poppy.but im spliting hairs.LOL.
It does take time please stay with it.yeah u will have emotional wds unfortunatly.try a meeting for some extra support.u can overcome this.life is there for the taking?
Would u die for your kid?
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Hi Pit, just wanted to offer encouragement and support. We are all different in our recovery so do what is best for you. There are many roads to the same destination!
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no matter what happens to me im gonna do this i hav 2 im really done i feel sick with pills and with out them so why would i keep spending my money ?? its been 9 yrs of pills im so tired of thinking bout them the only relief i hav is not worring bout running out since im not abusing my sub!
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thank all of u  for thr kind words i really dont have any1 else i appreciate all of u keep it up it helps
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im acually not coming off h im coming off 60-100 mgs of oxy and 30 tramadol a day  i kno the sub masks wd symtoms  but is it just the physical 1's do i still hav emotional wds honestly tho h and oxy isnt that diff
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