Illicit Drugs

A little about me.  I'm 22 years old, I dropped out of school and have just recently signed back up to start again. I have a fiance, we've been together for 2 1/2 years now.  I was an honors student throughout my elementary, middle and high school years.  also received a 3.75 in my first 2 years of college.  Then..  I started working as a server at a fun restaurant, as many of you know the restaurant business usually involves a lot of hours working with the same people.  I met some friends there what I used to call my GOOD friends.. until I look at my life for the past 3 years.

I was always a party girl with a lot of friends. My phone was always ringing to hang out.  Partying usually only involved drinking.. then I tried cocaine and started buying an 8 ball once a week to share with one other person.  we'd stay up all night and I'd just do more in the AM.. after cocaine I tried Ecstasy and loved it!  My girlfriend and I went out 4 times a week.  taking in about 13 pills each throughout the nights..  The 3 days to recover was enough time for me to catch up on sleep and try to work to make money..  I started hanging out with the drug dealer so I didnt have to pay for my pills..  (No I wasnt sleeping with him)  I met my fiance when I was high and so was he..   now everytime someone asks how we met we have to say some lie like we were at a BBQ..

I dropped out of school and lost my job.  I was so pathetic.  My fiance and I decided we wanted to stop.  I occasionally do drugs until the past month.  I have been able to say NO everytime its been around (which is every time I hang out with friends)  SUcks.   My life is surrounded by drugs.  When I get rid of one influence another comes around..  it seems its everywhere.   I'm stuck!  HELP!!!

[kimmiek]

Hi I know you already know this but you have to start over first by getting into a new circle of friends that dont do drugs.  If I were you I would NOT get married until you both have a decent amount of clean time under your belts.  I know you feel stuck right now and it seems hopeless to have to start over and make new friends.  But you are young, full of energy and you sound like a fun person.  Look how easy it was for you to make the friends you have now.  It looks like  you've done the hard work of getting yourself clean from the drugs.  In order to stay clean, you really need to stay away from the old crowd.  Once you start back to school, throw yourself into it.  Study your subjects and maybe join some clubs that interest you and I know you will find new friends.  Maybe if you are a creative type of person, you can do some kinda art club, or a music club?  They have lots of extra cirricular activities at colleges. There are lots of people who dont get high to have fun.  If your bf isnt really interested in staying clean and staying away from the party friends, you should try to limit your time with him too.  I know its hard but like I said you are so young and you have so much to look forward to.  This is the time in life where you can work hard and put your energy into your school and some fun (not high) activities.  It will pay off and you can get into a career that you've worked hard for and start to lay the foundations for a wonderful fullfilling life!  Good Luck and God Bless  you!!  

[BlotOutTheSun]

hey ive have lived almost the exact same life but i was 19-20 when i was doing coke and extasy, if it hadnt been for my wife getting pregnant id probably still be in your shoes, you need to close the drug connections, they may be close friends, if you have to be around it, you have to be the better person and tell them ive quit and dont want anymore, its tough when its right in fromt of you, but the longer you go on coke and x the harder it will be to quit, get your life back girl, it feels so good to turn down drugs, they only make you happy for a few hours anyway, its not worth your life, give it up now, tell people no ive quit i dont want to live like this anymore, your slowly going down a path of self-destruction, turn it around now before its to late, ive heard about so many people dieing from x and coke, i did both myself i know how good they feel, but i also realized i got a child now to support and guide through life and i want to be there for them, not in a casket 8 foot under, good luck!