I'm Ashamed & Scared

Hello to all.  I have been on this forum once before in June of 2007 because I had a problem with Hydrocodone and was going "cold turkey."  Everyone was really helpful and I was able to make it through the wd.  Now, I am embarrassed to say, I am back for the same reason.  I have one 7.5 Hydro left and tomorrow is a work day.  I know I do not deserve  it, but would truly appreciate anyone that has some helpful words of encouragement as I move toward a predictably terrible week.  Thans

[Beargizmo]

Nothing to be ashamed about..we've all been there.  If you can do it, get yourself to an ER and explain your situation and that you want help getting off of these things.  Ask for clonidine..a blood pressure med that has been VERY helpful to many of us with the withdrawl (withdrawal) effects.  It will make you drowsy, dry mouthed and lethargic for the first few days.  But it CAN help.  I took my last pill on a saturday..went to the ER on Sunday afternoon and by that night had my clonidine and almost immediately began to feel better.  I even made it to work the next day, though staying awake was a bit of a problem.

Please keep us posted, and best of luck..we're all pulling for you.


Jim

[No name22]

Don't be ashamed it's what makes up human...I'm right there with ya i've had my chance to be clean once and forall and fell right back on my face and i'm just sooo angry and am to the point that I can't wait to make myself suffer I hate myself more than you know. It sux,but we'll all get through it some are just stronger than others...I'll be going c/t tomorrow so I guess i'll just see what happens from there...If you need to talk i'm here

[freebird4good]

I'm here too.  

[IBKleen]

Well, you qualify! No need to be ashmed. You are an addict and you relapsed.

What is it exactly you would help with? I am sure someone here could help you with anything you need to know. Also, what is it that you are going to do this time that is different fromt he last? If you learn from your mistakes, you will have a bit of an easier time getting clean and staying clean.

Hope to see you post again.

[dng]

hey we have all been there....so what....just pick yourself up and try again...hey it could be me...doctor gave me vicodin for my back last week... i have been clean for 5 weeks....i'm trying to take them only as needed....so far so good...but who knows....so good luck we are all here for each other.....dee

[fishmeal]

Hey Mark, Maybe you could talk to a doc and get some clonidine and ativan?  That's what worked very well for me during one period of all this.

[markbrewer38]

[markbrewer38]

Thanks for the words of encouragement.  Today is day #1 (cold turkey) and so far so good.  I feel a little sluggish...but overall, pretty good.  It is still early, so I am hopeful this time is not so rough.

[IBKleen]

Good to see you are starting. I hope this time is easier for you also, and I hope you stick with it.

Feel good today......Hang in there.....