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I'm confused, crying scared.its not just detox,we will be joyless for months

  I attempted, now on day 19 reduced 75mg down to 20 mg after Obama won. Just had enuff off all, I was having suicidal thoughts, got off the 10 mg Prozac and oxy 15 mg 5 x day was only rx standing,alone, the devil...on the counter.  So for 10 days I've been at 12-15 day, dr reduced me but now the truth needs to be talked about.

When u have more demands,ull notice withdrawals, yesterday I attempted a 3 hr car drive as passenger, after eating and 1/4 oxy I was car sick,hands got numb. I feel the family will think I'm lying and cancelled, they don't know detox, it's a word, they have no idea how I feel,    Horrible day 6 ,yes 6 days for first withdrawal symptom 75 down to 15-20 day. Then 2 other random days.  I'm sick every 3-6 days.  Ringing in my ears, anyone have that.   What's sad is the brain receptors will hinder me for month of joy. Searching receptor and oxy, this journey turns physical to mental for 3-6-8 months depending on who, dose,how long.  I'm on Wellbutrin 150 mg.  maybe that helps as I detoxes I jumped on an antidepressant.      I'm so flipping lost, I fear joy is gone. I don't laugh at jokes, I feel I seem odd.   My boyfriend said day 6 I seem psycho.  Duh. I'm detoxing, and I will remember who was there for me when I come thru this hell.    Being I support the entire family financially,  I guess I expect support.  Thing is.  It's more than with drawls.   Can anyone please share how long they felt normal 100% normal.  Was it months ????    And when possibly will sick days stop?  Yesterday I coulda done 5 mg entire day, I went to dinner so day ended 10 mg for the day,   I think just take the jump to zero and begin real healing ..I'm so tired,  flabby, feel Shiite outta shape..just not happy.  What a mess I got myself into. I'm 46 2 kids in school, other ones 22 so no worries there, I work as needed on rentals. I need to feel the void also. This is major on many levels.
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Thats great. Exercise releases oxytocin (it makes you feel good) and you will always feel better after a good workout. Its just how it works lol.
I take my boys for a walk everyday before naptime. It does wonders for them! And me. It all happens for a reason and it makes us stronger when we come out of it. I promise you will be ok. With time you will be ok. Try a light exercise first. If you have an X-Box try getting the Zumba Fitness. Or the games that use the Kinect. I play bowling and the boxing is alot of fun. Especially with the kids. I also use the UFC Trainer for the PS3. That is really helpful to.
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Xoxox it's all really emotional,    It's the hardest thing ever, but if people come here,   Have friends watching, feel a bit accountable and love, then we can push each other in the right direction called " clean " .im 24 hrs off oxy and I feel good, perhaps it was due to how slow I did it,   But 23 days isn't too too slow,     By the way it was weird, first 75 mg down to 20, took 6 th day to feel bad,    It was the 2. Week fight from 20 mg down to zero .....   And I hope there's no real damage, I did sit down and wanted to come up with exact dates, seemed   21 months I was using 10-20 mg a day, I remember I'd take 5 mg and cut in 4 so 1-25 mg I took every hr and a half, then upped it 3 months at 40-50mg.   And this last 17 months 75 mg a day got me. Why did I quit, or want too...I was up till 1 am daily, I was forgetful and had dark thoughts of wanting to die.  That's why I got off.  Oxy maked me think of dying, obviously the feel good was gone.         When u want to die, Oxus no longer just a recreational pastime. I'm glad it all happened.  The rubber needed to meet the road.  Some side things are feeling flabby and ears ringing, it's odd, if anyone felt this, let me know.  An exercise regimine would be good......perhaps today I take that baby step . Xoxoxox
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That is so good to hear! Best of luck to you!
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Wow, bravo....    It is hard, I'm going to flush what I have, there's all kinds of meds from even yrs ago, just never touch it, I'm afraid of it all now, I have no temptation for it, near or far, but I'll have boyfriend flush the garbage. God knows I never planned this withdrawal.as I explained to my boyfriend, normal people are at 100% normal, oxy makes you 1000 % happy and detox makes you zero...begging for 100% ....I see why people can't hand. I originally 10 days ago agreed to 30-60 day slow tapper, but instead I just took it when I had total sick feelings, and went from 10 mg down to 5 and 2 days at 5 mg ,I leaped to 2.5 mg for past 2 days.  The.  "L tyrosine ". Is amazing, please everyone. Get it. $7.99 for 100. That's made me smile, I actually noticed a real smile for the first time in weeks with that. My brains realizing oxy is gone and its beginning the healing.......I love u guys... Stay strong and thank u soo so much for your support. I'm sure ill have bad days....I'm thru the woods, I see the light. I thank u all !!!
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well my last norco was at 3:30am 10 days ago....i decided to flush the remaining 30+ pills i had....i wasn't strong enough to do a taper....too tempting.....so with help and advice from here i jumped....i only had couple weeks off work....so i'm still in early stages but was lucky enough to take 2wks off work instead of one.....so that is helping not being at work right now....so i went from 16 norco10's a day to nothing.....and i made it this far....but there will be aftercare of some sort for me....i need it....good luck and keep posting!!  
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Awesome,   So what dose was ur last, how did the last mont look as far as milligrams ?   Weaning ........ I think 5 mg a day is a leap now, if I feel sick I'd do 5 mg until that leap, but I hate the pills period.   No temptations at all !!! It's my enemy, the thought of needing any makes me sick, my mind has grown to hate them.    
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Thanks to all,   Knowledge is power then one day at a time, learning feeling normal takes time.   It's ok, I guess I expected as I got lower I'd feel better, the true journey is when we finish.  But like divorce, no one can tell us when.  1/4 (2).  5 mg, lowest yet.  I cleaned the den.   I know receptors have to begin producing own dopamine.   Oxy took that job, now it's all on its own.    I must say knowing I'd feel " off" for a bit made it better, long after physical withdrawal, allow 3-4 mo to level and return to normal.    I hate the crap.  I never drink, never smoked, this was an accident, once I planned n getting off, I just reduced, yesterday 5 mg, that's a big deal, it means this week I'm done. I allowed 1/4 (4) and didn't need it , needed (2) 1/4 ...5 mg. how wonderful to allow itself 4 pcs and take 2. I'm so dead serious it's the enemy.  Never again. Ever , I swear if I have crazy surgery ill find other ways to manage pain if ever needed,  not this mind screw. 3 yrs and. Damaging risk, the detox, omg.....glad I work from home or I'd just be so so hard to make it.   When we have to get out, that's when we know we are off balance.   Leap this week,  pray its all this week and omg sleep, the legs, I took sleep pill and still rls. Horrible,   What's good for legs all over moving..toss turn ;(.  Xoxox to all u who return to help others.  This is an excellent site !
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Hi Weanqueen,

I was on Oxys for nearly three years. Hydrocodone for the six years prior to that. The physical withdrawal was about a week, but it was not at the same intensity everyday. I took some of the over-the-counter suggestions recommended in the Thomas Recipe. The Immodium was the biggest help plus lots and lots of water.

I am now on Day 31. I did have some mental anxiety off and on for Days 20-to Day 27. I jumped on here and asked for help and I got it!! I didn't use. I knew that using wasn't an option and the people here really talked me through it by sharing their experiences. I felt much better Day 28 and it has gotten better since.

You and I will both feel joy again but not if we pick up another pill. That can only end in insanity or death as we chase a high that, for me at least, became unattainable. The pills quit working. They turned on me.

I would suggest that you stop thinking long term and concentrate on staying clean for 24 hours. Then, the next day you start again and stay clean for 24 hours. All of a sudden you are clean for a month and you are starting to live again. Good luck. We will be here for you.
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If you are down to 5 or 10 mg a day you need to just jump.  You are just prolonging the agony.  I did that for a week once and was in withdrawal the whole time.
Just jump and plan on a few days of withdrawal and get it over with.
Get some imodium, ensures or boosts, a good b vitamin and a b12 vitamin for energy.  Epsom salts for nice long hot baths as they really help.
Scroll down on the right and read the Thomas Recipe as I have probably missed something.
We have all been there and can help you through it.
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4341997 tn?1514588688
welcome and thanks for posting!!!  i don't know much about oxy's but i was on Norco for alot of years.....just 9 days ago i jumped and flushed all pills and canceled my last rx....for ME that was my only choice...i didn't have the strength to taper...i knew i'd just take them....please keep posting on here...there are alot of great people that can and will help get you thru this....if you are really ready to quit all opiates.....this place can help you get started as a support system....they helped me tremendously...as i said i'm new on here only 9 days clean...but i can be there for you and support you when you need it.....stay strong and just try to decide which path you want to take....taper, or jump and do CT...it can be done....just make sure there are no physical illnesses that you need to take care of first!  we are here for you!!!
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