I'm so sick I just want to die

[hope6hope]

Idk if I'm getting close enough on the cows chart to take suboxone. I'm freezing and sweating, can't hold still, trying to throw up but just dry heaving, my stomach hurts, I'm exhausted. I can't take much more but I'm afraid suboxone will make it worse. Help

[needhelp144]

I've taken Suboxone before the 24 hour mark and never had my W/D's increase I also took Suboxone the same day as taking percocets and didn't have a negative effect but that doesn't mean I advise it.I don't think you should be on Suboxone for 6 months but I'm no Dr..I was on Suboxone for about a year then stopped cold turkey.Hell it wasn't easy but if I can do it you can do it,you wouldn't believe what the human mind/body is capable of handling but that's not without saying it won't be easy but you can do it.

[hope6hope]

I also started another thread to update everyone good night I hope everyone can get some sleep.

[hope6hope]

Thank you all of you :) I will for sure be getting all the necessary items to help me through this. So I should plan on a good week or two of not feeling the best when I come off the subs? I just hope it's nothing compared to fentanyl that was hard. Thank s for the support again :)

[ricart70]

Celexa is a decent rank and file antidepressant.I used to take it and it was tolerable and a snap to withdraw from.Also it was only like 10$ for a 3 month supply at walmart.  It won't blow you out of the water if you decide to try it.

[tryinsohardtokickit]

Also if your afraid of the depression getting started on an anti depressant might not be a bad idea  since they take a couple weeks to kick in. That has really helped me feel better. I take citalopram generic for celexa but Didnt take it until after I was off the subs so make sure you check the drug interactions.

[tryinsohardtokickit]

Well I can tell you I was on methadine 3 months taperd off over a weeks time and was on suboxone 8mg for one week and quit cold turkey. I did not get physically sick w throwing up diarhea or anything like that. I was extremly redtless,depressed and physcally uncomfortable could not sit stand lay or do anything comfortably for a week or more. The restlessness and being uncomfortable went away and now 20 days in I still have no energy and cannot sleep. I would Def stick to your goal of 21 days though. Just seek out a good taper plan and like I said prepare yourself with vitamins amino acids potassium (bananas). I also had promethazine for nauseu. I also got all the items for the Thomas Recipe. Make sure if there are any stressful things you can get outta the way now get them done. Im giving advice to you of the things I had wished Id done to help things go smoother. Some things I did do but not all of them. I would also look into na meetings a strong support group.

[hope6hope]

No my doctor wants me to stay on them for 6 months but I think that's just going to make me more addicted to them. I just need them to help me get thru the fentanyl w/d the worst of it anyways. Then I want to taper back off these. I know your brain needs time to heal but I think 21 days or 6 months will be the same. I'm just trying to get off everything and I hope the w/d of the sub won't be as bad if I only take it for 21 days tho I could be wrong

[tryinsohardtokickit]

21days on subs sounds good. Is your doc on board with your plan? Now just prepare to come off subs w Items from the Thomas recipe. You may be able to take some of the vitamins and amino acids before quitting the subs. Now that your head will be a little clearer you have time to make sure you have everything youll need to be successful. I only wish I was more preparef when I quit cold turkey. I was so unaware that after getting thru the sick part that Id still have to deal with no energy and sleep. So make sure you know everything you need to know and have all the good things to feed your mind and vody to help it heal. Glad your feeling better and the vest of luck to you:).

[YesLife4Me]

Aww...im so happy for you!   Take some ibuprofen for the headache..and like weaver says, in a couple days your energy and sleep should return.   Wishing you the best on your sub taper.  You just demonstrated your strength to get through this.  :o)

[vicki595]

Great job Hope!! Proud of you and now just glad you're feeling better...

[weaver71]

I lost track of days in detox, glad you're feeling better. It will take about 3 days to build up the sub in you body, you will feel much better when things are stable. It's normal to feel a little off at first. By the end of the second day, I was feeling great, working on the roof, digging in the garden, just my normal routine. The headache is infamous. Also, you just put your body through detox shock for 24 hours, you are probably very tired. It will get better and you will be clear enough to build that aftercare support. So happy you didn't give in last night. Nice work so far, time for goal # 2.

[hope6hope]

I just took another 4 mg dose of subs I still have some of the symptoms but no where near what I was going thru

[hope6hope]

I so just wants to put a patch back on last night it was bad. After about 4 am several baths a some trazodone I was a able to get some sleep 10 minutes here and there but I was still happy about that :) I feel really achy is that normal? My head hurts also and I'm exhausted. But so Halley I made it to my first of many goals. Thank you again for all your support I can never repay you. Another thing I noticed today was the first time in years I actually laughed and was enjoying the small stuff. I feel completely different everything just is more positive.

[hope6hope]

I'm feeling much better :) thanks everyone for the encourage and support. Now my goal is to be off subs in 21 days everyone on here hold me accountable to do that.
@weaver I got confused on the time sorry. I'm sure my posts were confusing cuz my brain was going a mike a minute

[maria920]

Hey hope I was just wondering if u took ur sub yet and how u feel? Alot better right? For some reason if I took subs after an opiate I don't get sick. ( when I was using) if I didn't have anything I'd take the subs in its place. And sometimes I'd take it 12 hours apart and it didn't hurt me. I'm not saying u should do tht just trying to ease ur mind about waiting exactly 24 hours. If its like an hour off I'm sure u will b good but everyone is different ... I really hope u feel better now pls let us kno!!! Good luck! =]

[weaver71]

Oh yeah, you said you took the patch off at 1pm yesterday, when we talked last night, where you mistaken then or have you lost track of time?

[weaver71]

You're pretty close, does your skin look like a plucked goose yet? Are your eyes dialated? It sounds like you are almost there. Just hang in there and keep posting. We are all here for you.

[dominosarah]

I know you are miserable and this suks bad but keep fighting.  Let us know how you are after you take the sub.

[hope6hope]

Sorry for the mess up I can't even think straight I have a hour in half left. I'm so miserable

[ricart70]

Hang in there!  you will be feeling great in just a couple of hours.

[clean_in_ks]

Where are you right NOW on the COWS scale?  You should be close if you went off the fent.patch and percs yesterday at 2 p.m.????

I know  you are in the thick of it.....BAD....the fent patch is very strong....
Do you remember how to check where you are on the COWS scale?
You should be REALLY close and the subs will help a bunch once you dose.....let us know.

P.S.  This thread may have confused some that haven't been following you cause you said you were coming off suboxone and percs.....but you're just sick as a dog and meant to say fent patches and percs.  It will get better....
hope you'll check back in after you stabilize some....hang on.....

[Cira30]

I thought about suboxone as well but not sure of when came off of that of it would be just as bad? How much was your daily dose an wht was it of?

[YesLife4Me]

You CAN do this!  We find out how strong we really are by going through the he11 of detox.   What time zone are you in...how long do you have until 2:00 hits?  

[hope6hope]

Yes I am I have them here just need to make it to the 24 hour mark