Is it withdrawl? Shaking, Headache, nervousness

[The Dude]

Hi,
I am having a rough time lately.  I was hooked on Hydrocodone for about a year, 30-40 mgs a day.  I haven't had a pill in about a month, but lately I have been having excruciating headaches on the top/center of my head.  They've been here for about a month and WON'T GO AWAY.  I don't think it's migraines either.  These things just don't go away.  Today I noticed my hands were shaking.  I have been having anxiety attacks for the past three days as well.  I got the drugs anyway I could, do you think I could have caused brain damage to myself?  Or a neurological disorder?  Is this normal for the first few months?  I had a CT Scan of my head and it revealed nothing.  Neurologist can't find anything either.  I just don't feel right you know?  I have fear of death everyday, I can't do anything except worry about it.  Is it Parkinson's disease coming on?  Help me please?  Anybody ever go through this?  I can hardly type right now I'm so worked up.  Does anybody know anything at all?  Thanks and God Bless

[wrenagain]

please someone help me

[jennyfla]

I know just what you mean, when i am in withdrawal, everything starts to turn dark, it's when i am high that i feel 'normal'.  I can't wait for the day when the straight time turns back into my world of sunshine again, and the dark time belongs in the past, left behind with my pills of addiction.
My triggers would be withdrawals symptoms of course, but my worst time is when i get home from work, very much in withdrawals by that time, and my need to get everyone dinner, and keep up with the childrens' demands, i quickly run for 'the shelter of the mother's little helper, it gets me on my way, gets me through my busy day'.  Even worst, my husband is a very big trigger, but i am hoping, when he returns home, drug-free, that trigger will be gone.
We were both very uneasy when we first met eachother 20-years ago, and alcohol helped us ease into a less-stressful environment at the time... he was very insecure, and i was very shy.  We both loved alcohol, and our relationship seemed to be a good fit for both our addictions...  But, i am ready to have a relationship with my husband, drug and alcohol free.  I know our love for eachother will grow even deeper being out of our numb state of mind.  I love him very very much, and he does me too, so i feel confident with our love for eachother, and i hope that triggers will be long gone now!!!
It is good to understand your triggers, so that you will be ready to pull out the 'big guns' during those times of temptation!!!  Good luck sweetie!
Lv Jenny

[wrenagain]

please someone help me

[Witchywoman]

Hi Jenny,
How are things going for you today? I'm sending you positive energy, and lots of that "unconditional care"   :-)

These are indeed hard, hard times...
Among all the huge challenges is the sneaky self condemnation. I don't even realize I'm doing most of the time, and sometimes need to have it pointed out, and sometimes still I don't believe it.

Let's be gentle with ourselves along the way, and redirect the self hatred toward hatred of the addiction.

So far today I'm doing well. Two doses and I only took what I'm supposed to, but was way tempted. It is the nighttime that is my biggest trigger, that is when the temptation is hardest.
Do you have specific triggers?


WW

[Angelica]

...jb jb jb jb.....how are you these days??  I think i read somewhere that Marty had those treatments.  I know this is a stupid question, but I'll ask anyway...... how is she?  Truly?  You listen to all of our problems.... ya know we are here for you too.  It's been a long time since you've unloaded.  So, I've noticed.  Look forward to hearing from you.
Love,
angelica

[jennyfla]

Thanks sweetie, and i know in my heart that is the rigth thing to do.
the hub is sounding a little more shaky today, and that his scaring me real bad!
This whole thing, all the way around, is going to take some doing!
Wish us luck!
Lv Jenny