Just Babbling

[troubleinohio]

I was just thinking yesterday.... I remember watching a doctor phil show a few years ago about vicodin addiction. they had on some Mom who took 12 or more a day. ANd I remember my jaw dropping and saying OMG HOW COULD ANYONE TAKE THAT MUCH, thats terrible!  I just couldnt imagine anyone ever working up to that in a lifetime, it seemed so surreal to me.   And now here I sit in the same boat (well i was "only" up to 8-10 a day but whats the damn difference).  I so wish i could go back to those days when I needed NOTHING.   When i first started this mess, I would take one, yes just ONE measly Darvocet a day. I would call it my "once a day party in my head". Just one of those made me so high for the whole day pretty much.  THis was after I had just had dental work done about 5 years ago or more. When the pills ran out, I didnt even ask for more. So much time passed that I didnt need drugs until my back started failing on me, got the arthritis, the DDD, the fibro, etc etc.   Never did I imagine I would be a chronic pain sufferer all these years later.

I sure wish I could find a non-narcotic medicine that would help my pain.  Maybe after Ive been off the narcs for awhile, regular medicine will work on me right again ?  I sure hope so.        

[johnnykelly]

Trouble in Toronto too. Yes i to remember back in the day. I would pop say 3 percocets and groove to the new country station.moreover i would say,boy this is great, i feel as you stated that there was a party in my head.I guess we downgraded our neuroreceptors in our pleasure centre of the brain.I remember i wasin treatment in Florida and they made a blanket statment that as addicts we develope a condition called (ANADONIA) that is a general sense of general depression and at First an anti-depressant can be useful to some. Keep up the good work in ohio john

[VOsRose]

I suffer from chronic joint and muscle pain due to Systemic Lupus.  I found that the more pain med I took the worse the pain was.  I am amazed to find that after getting off all pain meds I don't have pain anymore.  At least not the way it was before.  I realize that my disease is one of flare-ups and remissions, but the difference is incredible.  Looking back, it's hard to believe I was in an active flare-up for 8 years and then, as soon as I quit all pain meds, went into remission.  I've got to think that the body, as it heals, deals with pain differently.  For me, Motrin is a life-saver for pain now.  Hopefully you'll get back to that point, also.

Good luck.  I too, remember a time when I would hear about people taking drugs and thinking, no way I could ever do that!  I HATE the way those things make me feel.  

Rosie