I was just thinking yesterday.... I remember watching a doctor phil show a few years ago about vicodin addiction. they had on some Mom who took 12 or more a day. ANd I remember my jaw dropping and saying OMG HOW COULD ANYONE TAKE THAT MUCH, thats terrible! I just couldnt imagine anyone ever working up to that in a lifetime, it seemed so surreal to me. And now here I sit in the same boat (well i was "only" up to 8-10 a day but whats the damn difference). I so wish i could go back to those days when I needed NOTHING. When i first started this mess, I would take one, yes just ONE measly Darvocet a day. I would call it my "once a day party in my head". Just one of those made me so high for the whole day pretty much. THis was after I had just had dental work done about 5 years ago or more. When the pills ran out, I didnt even ask for more. So much time passed that I didnt need drugs until my back started failing on me, got the arthritis, the DDD, the fibro, etc etc. Never did I imagine I would be a chronic pain sufferer all these years later.
I sure wish I could find a non-narcotic medicine that would help my pain. Maybe after Ive been off the narcs for awhile, regular medicine will work on me right again ? I sure hope so.