I am 21 years old. I have been clean for just under a year. I was addicted to Oxicontin(8-10 80's/day/ IV use) I am currently on Subutex, getting close to stopping. The problem that i have having, is that I feel like i've lost myself. I still work I own a small construction company, but I just don't feel the same....ever. I worry about everything all of the time, I never react the same to situations, I just feel....i don't know just anxious all of the time and lost, confused, and scared I will never be back to my old self. I did lose everything because of my addiction to Oxi's, lost my business, my girlfriend of 6 years, lots of trust and respect from family, and many friends. I have gotten the company back, and my girlfriend is letting me back in, but it's not the same....nothnig is. I keep thinking back to when i was younger and how I felt....I was in lots of trouble then, I moved to Florida and got my life on track, then had a back injury and got hooked on Oxi's. Does anyone else relate to this, I am currently going to therapy but the doctor just doesn;t really even listen he just makes notes. I don't miss the drugs or the high or the sickness obviously, I miss myself and who I used to be.....will I ever feel right again? Thanks for reading