Lack of motivation/ can't stay focused

[CKN30]

So I have been clean almost 3 weeks. Physically better, mentally I am happy and glad I am doing this! I just cannot get motivated and stay focused at work!!! I guess the pills were giving me that extra umph. I am getting behind, I have a ton of people counting on me. Help!!! Any suggestions?

[CKN30]

I see you are 113, that is why you are so wise!

[CKN30]

Thank you for the kind words :) this week really seems to have been a turning point. I have had some crazy, stressful things going in at work and I have managed them... Without pills! And I am OK!

[ricart70]

Glad you are doing better  !! That 21 or so day mark is a real magic number !
I think the addict brain really concedes defeat (at least temporarily)  at around 3-4 weeks .  Keep it up friend You are doing great ;)

[CKN30]

Ok all my sweet friends, I joined the picture party haha!! Now it's a personal thang!

[CKN30]

I left out "am" several times in my post... Darn cell phones

[CKN30]

Thank you thank you all :) 3 weeks, whoop whoop. I think this is my best day yet!! I did t get much sleep but I  actually starting to chip away at my backed up pile at work ( if I could stay off my cell and quit checking in here haha). You guys are amazing and I am so thankful for your cheerleading. I feel like it has really been the "mAke it or break it" of this ordeal. I want my tracker to keep going up in the days and I feel like I  accountable not only to myself and family but to you guys too!! Thanks again!

[evilpills]

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO! Don't mean to sound like Vicki from the Housewives...LOL........ CKN30 you made 3 weeks today!!!!!!That is awesome!!!!!! I know you are happy...... : )...I hope your day today is an amazing one....

[LisaH_NYC]

I felt no motivation until around 40 days, so you are getting there! Until then, someone else said it, fake it until you make it. Show up, do your best, and know you will be back to where you were in time. Until then, try to get enough sleep, work in bursts as you are able, and just keep chipping away at the pile. don't worry about being perfect. As most addicts, we are perfectionists who always fall short, since we also have low self esteem and are very hard on ourselves.
As for the RLS, I could not take it. The magnesium and potassium would help, but I did eventually get Requip from my doctor, its for RLS. I only needed to take it about a month, one at night, and it helped a ton. And then when the symptoms started to disappear, I went to one every 2 days, then one every 3, then just stopped and had no issues with any side effects getting off of them. it got me over the hump of RLS which I had at night and every day from around 3 - 7 pm at work. I would have to walk around the block and bounce my legs constantly to get relief. It made working after 3 pm nearly impossible. The Requip really helped. That is just my experience.
CONGRATS on 3 HARD WON weeks!

[VICourageous]

You are doing a Fabulous Job and one day you will hit a stage were all you want to do is sleep. I called it my Catch Up Sleep. Are you trying any Magnz, Calcium and Ds at night and maybe even some Melatonin. This helped me about 11m ago but I now have no problem with sleep..But the emotional wave still comes in and out but the "in" is getting less and less. It ALL just takes time as the Brain needs time to re-adjust from the removal of Stims..Hang Tight and Keep up the Fight, sooner or later you can take off those Boxing Gloves.
Bless

[meegWpaw]

sounds like you're well on the way to that.  every day you will be turning back into the you that you used to know ... more and more each day.  keep going ...  !!!  :-)

[CKN30]

Thank you!! Yes I am starting to feel better. I just wanna get back to being me :)

[meegWpaw]

Cira, just wanted to congratulate you on 3 weeks!!!!  freakin awesome!!!! I think you have a great attitude and you sound like a very strong person.  hang in there with the sleep.  for me it still goes in phases but for most people I think it gets better consistently.  super job!

[CKN30]

Gonna be another sleepless night, maybe :/ my biggest problem now is lack of sleep and then being sluggish all day. But tomorrow will be 3 weeks clean time!

[CKN30]

Thank you! Yes head is in a better place so far. Gotta rise above this!

[Dane74]

Glad to hear you are starting your day with a great positive attitude!!!  You got this!

[CKN30]

Thank you all for your comments :) I did sleep better lastnight. I feel good this morning, it's gotta be a better day! Yesterday was such a crazy emotional roller coaster! Anyone who was around me probably thinks I have went off the deep end! Pulling it together for a funday Sunday!

[evilpills]

It will get better. I'm on day 31 and I know you are right behind me. Each day gets better it's just such a slow process. I know it *****! But you made it through today. You allowed your body to heal another day. You are that much better for your babies. Go outside and take a few deep breaths, I'm needing to do that myself. Anxiety is kicking in.......

[atthebeach]

congrats on your clean time, you are doing awesome
everything gets dulled and stopped up during opiate use.
so during detox everything comes flooding back.
emotions, smell,  touch, sight, appetite, sex drive, and  the sneezing, runny nose, bathroom issues.
all the senses become heightened in the initial stages of detox.
it will all level out,

exercise and move around as much as possible. your natural brain chemistry needs to produce again on its own.
exercise helps with this.

have you tried melatonin, valerian root, sleepy time tea, alteril or sleep by nature made to help relax you and maybe get some sleep?

have you considered counseling and/or support groups to help with your coping skills?

your breakthrough is just around the corner, hold tight
time will be your healer..

[CKN30]

Thank you :) I just hope the better days are sooner than later.  I guess weekends are the worst. Just being at home and not really feeling like doing anything

[Dane74]

Yeah unfortunately we have some good days followed by bars days:-(  Hang in there it will get better, you are doing amazing!  I know what you mean about the saddens, you just have to fight it, look at all the good in your life, look at your kids and count your blessings.  I know we all hate to hear this but in time (as addicts we want immediate gratification) things will all start to come together and life will start looking bright again:-)  Keep up the good work.....

[CKN30]

I am having such a rough night. I just feel this overwhelming sadness. I can't get it together. Then it makes me feel guilty because I want to feel good and do things with the kids. It just hasn't been a good day :/

[evilpills]

Yeah it's like Groundhog's day for me everyday. I can't wait for the day that I actually want to get up and go shopping or take a walk on the beach........Ugh.......

[CKN30]

Maybe that's what it is! Yes without all you guys I would be crazy by now! This day has been such a slow day, I am going crazy! Bored outta my mind!!

[evilpills]

You're cracking me up right now.......I loved my Pantene...I can't use it anymore. It doesn't stink I guess it just takes me back to where I don't ever want to be again. Isn't this the strangest thing? I'm glad I can come on here and talk about this stuff because nobody in my life knows what I am going through. This process is really humiliating....