Let me know that I'm not the only one

[Gacktlover]

My mom, sister, and brother all snort roxys and do xanex and god knows what else. They are all selfish and no matter what I do, something is wrong or it just wasn't good enough. I'm in AP and honors classes and I hate being called stupid by my mom, whose a pill popping high school drop out. The only thing that keeps me happy is my boyfriend but he moved to play football and I think I'm getting really depressed. My dad doesn't do drugs, he hates being around all of this but he never does anything about it. He would divorce her but he couldn't make enough money to pay for his own or rent for his own house. My mom doesn't have a job, she sells pills for a living. I hate the random people that come in my house with blood shot eyes. I just want to leave here. My sister has a one year old baby boy and I'm more of a mother than she is. She's never home, and when she is home, she has me or my mom watch him. I consider him mine. It kills me when she takes him out with her and her piece of **** boyfriend and does god knows what in front of him. She can't take care of him because she'd rather be parting like she's my age. I'm 16 and I feel like I'm 30. As cold as it might sound, I hope that she goes out one day and never comes back. The world would be so much better with out people like her. My brother never comes around. He only does when he wants pills or money from my mom, and of course, she gives it to him even though she couldn't pay my $16.00 school fee...which I still owe. My mom makes me feel like **** all of the time because I don't clean the house everyday. Right now, I'm the only one that turned out normal, but she still favors the druggies. I hate being around this, I just want to graduate and be some where far away in college and never talk to anyone of them again. I don't know... I guess I just want someone to talk to. : (

[avisg]

Wow , I am so sorry you are going threw this .You keep doing the best you can to better your life .I have a 16 year old daughter. I am glad you are there to help your niece but I find it sad that you are not able to be a 16 year old. You have been thrown in the position of have to play mother to everyone in you house and you are the child .What year are you in high school?  I am going to send you a friend invite plz feel free to e mail me anytime you want to talk.Plz stick around there is tons of support her that can help .....
avis

[extrmeski]

Wow that is a tough situation to be in and I really feel for you.  It sounds like you have the right attitude though just please keep it up and make something of yourself and don't look back.  Sometimes a bad example can be more effective than a good example, you know what you don't want to be.  Keep your head high and your goals just as high, you go to college and get out of that place.  I know that it isn't much help right now but I'm not sure what else to tell you.  I wish I had the magic answer.  My ex-g/f grew up in a similar envirnoment and she finally became just like the people she despised.  Don't fall into that trap.

[Madisonjsmom]

You are not stupid, you are the smart one for wanting out of that enviroment!
Hang in there honey, I see you going places in life

[Gacktlover]

Thank you guys. I really don't have anyone to talk to about this kind of stuff. But you're right, if I didn't grow up to hate people like this I could have easily become one. (I just started the 11th grade by the way). I really owe a lot to my boyfriend who led me in the right direction. Keep in touch.

[joann1975]

Hi sweetie. Welcome to the forum...and I am so sorry for the situation you are in! My general observation of people like your Mom favoring the druggies (as you said) is she is doing that b/c the "approve & accept" her "lifestyle" she knows YOU know it's WRONG! That is why you are getting the short end of the stick. Stay strong....stick it out and when you are old enough you can get out of there. I am proud of you for caring for your niece...that is awesome of you. I am also sending you a friend invite and like Avisg said anytime you want to talk just PM me and I will be here for you ok?

This is a great place for support...info etc.

JoAnn

[enemy48]

You're a sweet young lady.

I like the part you wrote:  . I hate being around this, I just want to graduate and be some where far away in college.

Well, that is a great goal and only YOU can make it happen.

Please keep a positive attitude about that, and go far in life.  Far from what sickens you and far with what makes you happin in life.

Really, college isn't that far away for you.  What do you have....like 2 years?  That's enough time to work on keeping good grades for assistance with college.  

Do you have any idea what you would like to do?

[ali3674]

Hey sweetie.  You are a good girl.  I am a social worker and I want to tell you something.  Follow your dream of finishing highschool and getting out of the house as soon as humanly possible.  These people will bring you down, if you stay.  This is a terrible situation for you to be in and you sound very mature for a 16 yearold, so you should be proud.  What does concern me is your neice.  How old is she?  Do you all live together?  This is not a good environment for a baby.....so I would ask if you think your sister should really have custody of a baby giving her status.   Im not going to tell you what to do, but this is a serious concern for both you and the baby because you are under 18.  Your mom and sister could be in big trouble if child protective services found out.....what they re doing is illegal, and against the law as well as child welfare.  
I know you may feel stuck in the environment, but 2 years will go by very fast, and when it does, please go to college, and please work your hardest to stay away from this.

[Gacktlover]

My nephew is a year and a month. His mom still lives at home with me and my mom and dad. I'm really worried about him too. If he continues to see what he sees, he's going to think that that stuff is cool or it's just normal. I really want custody of him but that's impossible. I'm 16, plan to go to college, and jobless. I've tried convincing my mom to video tape my sister when she is all passed out on the couch or when she comes home at 2 in the morning with the baby still up, but she just doesn't... I don't know why. I started to think that I just over react but thanks to you guys I know that isn't normal. I want my sister to go to jail or rehab or something else to get her off of this stuff. But I don't want my mom to get in trouble. Even though she's not the greatest mother in the world, I still love her. Plus, I think the only reason we have food to eat is because she's getting money by selling drugs. How can I possibly get my sister arrested? I think I might do something about it this time.

[Coolio Hernendez]

Remeber " Doing well is the best revenge"....

I cant even imagine what thats like....but it sounds like youre a strong person....

Hang in there.....and you can vent and ask for advice here...

[extrmeski]

I like that Coolio!!  I've always said, I don't get mad, I don't get even I get successful!!