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how r u?
..i`ve managed to be "straight" 4 a week!
...but my biggest enemyz still R my nervz,
my hands shake i dont know what to do with
my self..........IM NOT HAPPY...!
I cant stop thinkin `bout "it".....
i wish i can remember what was my life like before i started
hittin yellow pillz...but i cant...i only remember my crisis
time.....i dont know what to do with da #@!$ feelinn i have,
all tha time,i sleep all day tryinn to forget and my dreamz
r pretty sick! "i ride bicycle all night"if u know what im sayinn and i know u do!
your havy times compadre,
?P_A!
we r gonna make it,
im sick of feelinn like %@#$!
PA
We are disappointed in your attack on Dr. Steve. He has donated countless hours and expertise to this forum for the past few years, asking nothing in return.
We don't think you realize that there are thousands of people who visit this forum, without posting and find it very helpful.
We would have preferred to have you work with Dr. Steve & Med Help to improve this forum, rather than opening your own forum. However, we wish you well and would appreciate it if you would not use this forum for free advertising of yours.
Cindy Thompson
Med Help International
So the logic is because Dr. Steve has put in countless hours, and thousands of people visit this site, I have no right to be critical? Come on Cindy.
I think I was constructive - if you read the post I noted Dr. Steve has done some great work in the past (I've read his stuff). It just seems like this has become a bothersome chore rather than a labor of love.
Dr. Steve at this point is not posting substantial advice. I would like to ask anybody who has recieved advice from him in the last 6 weeks to go on record as recieveing substantial advice. His answers are pat. You would be better off in my opinion, going back to your original format and letting people visit and share. If someone wants specific medical advice ( with your caveats) they could ask Dr. Steve and then he wouldn't have to come in weekly and give meaningless refains.
I simply feel, and I am not alone, that he has done more to hurt this board ( threatening to close it, posting simply "delete") than to help it - that is my criticism.
Yes, I want to help people. If that means occasionally letting them know there is another site, so be it. You can call it advertising although it's a little odd. We sure ain't making money off it, it's labor intensive as you know, and we only started it because your Dr. Steve threatened to close this one. And, as Kstuebin says, we have listed your site on our board and we will continue to do so. God, this is not about competition. I just feel he is doing this place, which I said has helped me, a disservice.
So that's my two cents worth. I will stay off your board for a while if that will help. But I must tell you, I still care about this place. That was why I posted.
Frank
Geez! This is getting frustrating! I believe I said in my previous posting that we would have preferred that you work with us to make this a better forum, rather than taking public pot-shots at Dr. Steve for thousands of people to see!
Regarding publicity for your forum - you do not have any qualified medical professionals working with you and therefore, Med Help cannot, for the sake of our commitment to medical quality, support your forum.
In addition, we told all of you that if for some reason Dr. Steve chooses to leave the forum, Med Help will do everything we can to see that it continues, yet you decided to start your own forum.
As for the "delete" comments you see under Dr. Steve's name, these are software errors - not Dr. Steve being arrogant! We're working on correcting these.
This is a week during which America traditionally gives thanks -
We ask all of you to take a moment and really think about the words you are putting out for the world to see. How would you feel if your credibility was being attacked by annonymous people? Wouldn't it be kinder to offer suggestions for improvement?
Think about the thousands of people who have been helped by Dr. Steve and ask yourself, doesn't he deserve better than remarks like:...
"His rash of short brain-dead responses this weekend, coupled with is audacity to post "delete" ( I thought that was up to you) has sounded the death knell for your board."?
Dr. Steve has supported you - now is your chance to give a little something back! Talk to him - support him!
Cindy Thompson
Med Help International
Good luck with the site.
F.
I don't think Frankie's remarks are pot shots. They're legitimate criticism. And they're shared by most of the people who post here.
And for the record, we started our forum prior to your suggestion for a new Medhelp venue. It was already up and running with great success when you posted that offer. I think Frankie has pointed out more than once that there's certainly room for as many forums as will be supported.
You're right about one thing. It's time to let this issue die and get back to the business of helping people.
I am also a permanent denizen of a melanoma bb. And I can tell you for a fact that many doctors don't know their butts from third base when it comes to that disease, one of the most deadly and most frequently mis-diagnosed cancers on the planet. The "non degreed" yet well-informed regulars on that site have saved many lives in the four years I've been on it. Those people helped save my life. And there's not an M.D. among 'em.
And as desparate as addicts can become, I'm all for telling all who post here about the new site. The fact that you don't want Frankie Lee to advertise the new site on this one leaves me absolutely breathless. I cannot believe my ears! Um, eyes! That's far too much elitism for me. This site hasn't all the answers, and Steve has become less than desultory. And it's hard as hell to post here, an original one anyway. What gives you the right??? Do you honestly feel that position is ethical?
And now that I have your attention, supposedly, perhaps I can finally get an answer to the oft repeated, never answered question, "why do you delete ALL the Ibogaine posts and refuse then to discuss why you do it?"
Standing by,
Francois
I honestly don't see the purpose of continuing to stir this pot up.
When I saw the word "delete" from Dr. Steve, my imediate assumption was that he had somehow intended to delete a certain post, but had made an error because he is not used to the new software format.
I could be wrong. But I think a lot of assumptions have been made in this debate, on both sides, and I think this had caused it to go from bad to worse.
I truly doubt that Dr Steve has any ill intentions. My "assumption" is that he does not have the time to give to this board. I tend to not get a whole lot of from the posts that he does offer, but I think that calling him names over that is at best ineffective.
My policy with this board has been to "take what I like and leave the rest". I've continued to post here because I've gotten so much help. I've chosen to let go of my feelings about my deleted posts, and continued to be a member of a community that saved my life.
I am not ready to say goodbye to this forum. It holds a very precious place in my heart, just for being here. Those who are unhappy with the format here have a new place to go. Please remember though, that there are hundreds of new people every day who find this place, who NEED this place as badly as I once did. The bickering that is going on here is hurtful to them, and may prevent them from getting the positive warmth and caring they need. If I came across this site now for the first time, I'd cruise right on by.
I remain extremely grateful for the help I've gotten here. I just would like to ask that we let this bickering die down. Let's focus on the positive, sharing our experience, strength and hope, as we all struggle with this addiction demon. The bickering is a huge distraction to the real work that we need to do, the work of recovery.
To my friends who may disagree with what I'm writing, please, let it be ok to disagree and still hold love in our hearts for each other. But please, lets stop the name calling and go to wherever each of needs to go to do the work of recovery.
love,
WW
He had a good life. Recently engaged, good job. As a result of a car accident two years ago, he was given Percocet for pain. His addiction led to Xanax and now the Oxy. From what I have learned, he was taking up to 160mg. every couple of days. The girlfriend swears she didn't know, but I have my doubts. She's gone now, and he's in jail, and I am the only one standing by him. His natural father, nor his step-dad, have anything to do with him.
While we wait for the trial, which isn't until January, I can only talk to him via phone. He doesn't want me to visit. His doctors give me updates on his progress, and we hope to have him clean by the trial date. It's been hard on me, but I stay cheerful on the phone. His bouts with paranoia and hallucinations are scary. It takes him 4-7 days to return to normal. This has happened twice since mid-October. I can only sit and wait for a call from the doctors.
Well, thanks again for your kind words.
Geri
Love Butterbean
I may be having an irrational reaction to this ear ringing, but it is hard to keep the fear away that this means I did major damage to my hearing through my years of hydro abuse.
I feel overwhelmed, sad, scared, and helpless. I'm taking action by seeing doctors and doing what I can to find out what is going on, and I am trying really hard to stay focused on the positive.
No matter what ends up happening, I know that I have a lot to be grateful for. Yes I have bad back pain, but I have two legs that work and some folks don't. I may end up with more hearing damage, but I have two eyes that see and some folks don't. I need to focus on what I have, and not let the fear over run me.
I don't mean to sound like I'm whinning, but I am feeling very scared and vulnerable.
Any and all support right now is greatly appreciated, so thank you, very much.
How are you doing Butterbean? How is your detox coming along? I thought about you, and Telby, and Ginger over the weekend and prayed you were all doing ok. Please let us know.
love,
WW
Love Butterbean
You keep on keepin on and stay grounded and close.
Power & Magick 2 U All,
Wiz
I've had my blood pressure checked, and all kinds of other things checked, and there is no explanation for the ringing in my ears except for my past history of hydrocodone abuse. The doc said ibuprofen (which I take high doses of for pain) does not cause ringing in the ears. So, I'm convinced it is from the years of hydro. It started when I was still using, but has gotten worse lately. My doc is supposed to refer to me to a hearing specialist to test further, but I haven't heard from the specialist yet. I'm going to call on Monday myself...the squeaky wheel gets the oil in HMOs. I'm still worried, but not running as much anxiety about it as I was.
My addiction cost me a lot already. I hope I haven't permanently damaged my hearing. I"ll keep you all posted.
I hope you are all feeling more comfortable by now. How is the withdrawal going? Have you been able to fight the Dragon? It is soooo damn hard..I know.
love,
WW
WW, I thought I would post this tidbit of information that I have about ibuprophen. It is unrelated to the ringing in the ears problem, but it might help another woman one day. I had a total hysterectomy a few years back due to some female problems and was put on Premarin
I always preferred motrin to tylenol and I would take it if I had nothing else. I noticed that when I would take the ibuprophen the cold sweats and chills would come on faster than when I did not. I asked my Dr. and sure enough, ibuprophen hinders the hormones, making an uncomfotable situation worse.
I also have a suggestion for your tinitus.(sp?) Start taking Ginko Biloba. It increases the circulation in the brain. Check it out it may help. It comes in tea form, bulk herb or capsules. You may have to take it for a month or two before you realize the full effect, but I have heard great things about it.
Wiz- Thanks to you as usual, you are a wise wiz and I appreciate you.
Telby-butterbean, where are you? I am thinking about you.
Power & Magick 2 U,
Wiz
Good advice about the ginko biloba...however, I've been taking ginko biloba every day, in fairly high quantities, for the past two years. I find it helps with a lot of things, but it doesn't seem to help the ear ringing. My acupuncturist gave me a chinese herbal formula that does seem to be lowering the ringing a bit, which was the first bit of hope I've had in a while. She also put the needles in points deep inside my ears..LOL..it felt so wierd, but it really did help.
I hope your Thanksgiving was a good one!
love,
WW
Love Butterbean
Love Butterbean
I was incredibly busy at work yesterday and didn't have a chance to do any posting all!
Yes, I do think acupuncture would be a great thing to try. It helps me a lot with my back pain, and it also helps the body handle the side effects of opiates. In addition, if you ever try to detox from opiate, acupuncture has ways of making that much, much less uncomfortable.
I've been getting acupuncture at least every other week for a while now, and though I hear it doesn't work for everyone, it works very well for me.
Email me at ***@**** if you want info on the other forum, we've been (understandably) asked to not use this forum to advertise for that one.
I hope you are doing well..you're in my thoughts.
love,
WW