I have been off opites for 2 years and in still feeling my natural levels of dopamine and seratonin bouncing up and down, it takes time, real time. But ur going to get worse and worse and run out of money. And dont abuse suboxone, thats even worse to get off of.
Thanks all, im still oxy free, or should i say all drug free except for my blood pressure med.
All is well now however the mental wd,s continue here and going on week 4, i again to all stopping opiates, PLEASE just stop cold turkey and make it past the first 3 days and then it gets better from then on, I PROMISE!!
such a great post and heres hoping you continue the good fight never give upsnowflake
Way to go Rusty...very proud of you...the way you described your growing up could have been me....sounds so similar....what happened to those days..I'm no naive enough to think we were all so lucky...but what happened in our world? I used pot in the 60's, got busted in the 70's and cut back my usage considerably....why? because i could see how it disappointed my parents...(not tooting my horn) would that happen today?
Anway, getting away from you...congrats...and stay with us..
Jim
The urge will be there at different times for a long time. As long as you realize what it is you are fine. You can deal with it then.....it will gradually lessen and go to sleep....
Starting week 3 w/absolutly no drugs whatsoever.
No physical wd,s whatsoever but still the mental urge is still there and i guess will always be i dunno however it seems to have lessened but still remains but is np really.
Thanks again for all the support, im living proof that this can be kicked and as many have noted it will be a lifetime battle to stay off of the drugs but im sure time will heal and help me surpress the unwanted physical and emotional need of opiates.
I am not on day 11 and my energy level has really come up,not 100% yet but getting there day by day.
The physical wd,s as noted are gone and now its just the mental battle but i just keep my mind occupied on something even if its cleaning up my home as it helps immensly
Congratulations, rusty!! It isnt over yet - but you have won a huge battle. Read up on PAWS - and see how well that fits your description. I had good luck with L-Tyrosine as an amino acid that promotes energy. Many other amino's are much needed for nutrition and supplements are also a good thing.............
Thanks all for the votes of confidence and yes i know its going to be a ride from now on, i will always have the back pains and bad arthritis that grows more painful every year from my body being so banged up from the above mentioned car accidents, i have been disabled from all of this since 1990 and it is something i am going to have to live with and do it drug free.
I now wonder if the oxycontin actually make my pains amplified in some way as honestly the pains really dont seem to be all to bad now that im off of the oxy.
Can this really be?
Has anyone heard of this?
CONGRATS ON 10 DAYS!! Way to go! Everyday will get better. It is amazing isnt it? All the things we didnt notice while high.. Just small rewards of sobriety! Take care
It sounds like you got over the hill of withdrawal. Now you can focus on the mountain called addiction. Because it is a life long illness, like diabetes, make sure you put a plan in place to tackle this.
you mentioned the urge to pick up and call for more oxies. I know the feeling, and that never goes away completely. Yes, things will get easier the longer you stay clean, but the addiction switch in your brain has been flipped, and unfortunatly can never be turned off.
Try and develop a support system. Find a therapist, or a support group in your area you can talk to.
Congrats on day 10!! Your story is filled with you overcoming so much. So make sure you have a plan to keep going in the right direction!
Now clean on day 10 and no more wd,s, well at least physically anyway as the mental part of the addiction lingers on but i havnt even thought of picking up the phone to get more oxies as i was in the first few days of the wd.
My evergy level is still low but is getting better everyday and food and drinks have such a nice forgotten taste to them again, its amazing
Thanks Ella789
Your thoughts are much appreciated :-<)
Awesome post!!! Good for you man!!
Yes, the mental thing comes around frequently at first and then as the months pass they become less and less consuming. It's the mind games, the roller coaster, these are words most commonly used by us when dealing with the mental. They will ease up as you are changeing your habits and lifestyle!
Best wishes to you on your journey, it sounds like you deserve good things to come your way!!!
Ella
Sorry i had to continue here
So this past friday or 9 days ago now i should say i took my last oxycontin and said this is it,im done with this **** and need to get my life back as noted up above my wife then,, i have been married a few times since then and i attribute most of them falling apart due to my ongoing opiate use even though its all been legally prescribed for the most part but you know as well as i do it dulls all of your senses.
Anyway as noted ive been off of it for 9 days now.
The first day w/out was the next day , a saturday, i awoke and felt fine till around noon time, then the aches began, not only for what i was taking it for but the wd,s of the oxy.
Well later that eve those pains increased and even though i slpt pretty good that night.
So on comes sunday morn, the wd,s are really kicking in and i had actually prepared myself for this and had bought plenty of immodium and gatorade and especially the new \
v-8 fusion drink that has a full day dose of fruits and veggies in 1 8 ounce glass, it taste great,akin to koolaid and has no sugar added and is all natural especially the acai berry fruit version.
Anyway the hurting legs and all over body pain was kicking in along with the hot/cold sweats so i just stayed in bed w/a fan blowing on me while watching tv and when i would get hot i would just pull the covers off and vice versa.
Well monday morn comes along and the hot/cold sweats have eased a bit but still there, i have no apetite but easily drink down the v-8 fusion drink and the day goes on and im pulling the covers off/on all day and night.
Then tues morn comes along and the hot/cold sweats have really eased off but my body feels like its on fire to the touch and my wife even mentione this so i guess its the norm.
So later on thru the day i still dont have much of an apetite but drink plenty of gatorade and v-8 fusion, tues night comes along and i actually sleep pretty good.
Wednesday morn comes and all hot/cold is over and gone, bady feels back to norm at the touch but then come the mental stage, oh how i would love to get my hands on some oxy, all i have to do is pick up the phone and be at the doc,s office w/in 2 hours for a refill and i had the phone i my hands at least 2x that day but put it back down.
Wednesday night comes and i sleep good, up a time or two but just to goto the restroom from all the fluids ive drank and np at all w/diareah as ive kept plenty of immodums down.
Well thurs comes and im feeling even better no sweats and the pains are all but gone but here comes the mental addiction and again pick up the phone and stare at it for a few and finally put it back down.
I feel good but am very very low on energy and know that just a good ole oxy would alleviate that prob w/in 45 mins but i held on and got past that.
Friday comes along and feeling even better as my senses are all coming back, my smell and taste is like its on steroids as i can walk outside and smell the flowers blooming in which i havnt smelled in years from being on narcotics and same goes for my taste as even a pice of bubblegum taste fantastic now!!
Saturday comes along and i go outside again and actually go for a drive, wow!! its almost overwhelming to see everything in a new light so to speak and so overwhelming i had to turn around and go back home.
Well not only have those senses that have been surpressed by the opiates but my sexual senses have awoken, my poor wife as im now like a 16yo guy stuck in a locker room full of naked cheerleaders but luckily she,s not complaining at all.
Hope it was ok to post that but im just being honest and telling it like it is and the negatives of opiate addiction.
Anyway its now sunday as i write this which is 9 days clean from any drugs, my energy leval is still not at its peak but day by day is growing and all of my physical wd,s are 110% gone totally, now i will say that i still have the mental wd,s from the oxy and that is where im at in this battle now but as each day goes by i find it easier and easier to make it.
I hope and pray that maybe this little tid bit i have written will maybe help someone in some way in their addiction to whatever opiate you may be on or struggling with.