thank you lifesaride, sheri and sarah for all replying. This morning was pretty rough. I had horrible stomach pains, which was causing me to get really depressed and I was just completely in a funk. This afternoon got better, I took my oldest for a hair cut, went and did some shopping, and took 2 of my kids out to dinner and to the park. So this evening was alot better. I wish I just felt better, and that way I could keep busy all day. When you feel like ****, you really can't do very much, but I am trying and that is the best I can do. Well, I can't even tell ya'll how much it means, for complete strangers, to care about me so much. I have gotten so many pms, and replys, that it makes me cry. You all are soooo awesome. I love each and everyone of you. Thank you, Thank you! I can't say it enough.
I have memory problems pretty bad,I think the medication has something to do with it also I had electric shock treatment I'm pretty sure scrwed me up, I wish you luck.
sheri40
dont be depressed, watch a movie, put on some music, ya gotta get that void filled. stay occupied. we're here for ya
Thanks all for your support. I am going through so much right now and I just feel so confused about so many things. Today is day 5 on on tapering, and I feel really bad today. My stomach is killing me and I feel my mind is thinking of a million different things. I feel really depressed today and I don't know why.....
I'm not sure about the memory loss. I don't know if I have had any, but it would be hard to tell because I do not have anyone asking me if I remember things when I don't. I did notice that I would become absolutely obsessed about things that wouldn't bother me before. Researching about politics constantly for hours and hours is an example and if I were to get something in my head that I have to do I would do it right there and then no matter what even if it wasn't really important. I am only on day 4 now so I am hoping when I get better that will all change back to the way it was.
Another example...I just told bandnmom yesterday that I will be 34 next month... welll if we all do the math... DUH... I will be 33 next month.... can we say fried on drugs?? Maybe mine hasn't come back as much as I thought.... I need to increase my supps & aminos maybe?! LOL... and get some more sleep. :)
Its true it really did...uuummm..what were we talking about??? Oh yeah thats right....LOL!! Just kiddin!
The memory thing i think happens to us all but with time it does come back. Like some Sarah said above..slowly but surley!
Good luck to you and stay strong!!!
What were you just talking about?
LOL. YES!! YES!!! And yes, the memory comes back and your brain will recover slowly. :)
Love and healing;
Emily
Pain killers LOVE to give you the thought, "You're going CRAZY!" Stupid drug thoughts ...
I couldnt remember alot of things while i was using. My kids actually thought there was something wrong medically. Now that i have cleaned up some of my memory is coming back. Slowly but surely. sara
I know I kept telling my husband..NO you didn't tell me that... now being sober and looking back I feel really bad b/c he probably did tell me. He understands now though... but still... how horrible b/c I wasn't nice about it at all!
I know what you mean, my big problem was telling them something and then telling them the same thing over and over again. They also got really aggrivated at me when they would tell me something and I didn't remember it. There is hope because as bad as it was at the time, we look back at it and laugh now. I am not saying that addiction is a laughing matter, it is just better than sitting around crying about things that you can't change
Good for you! I wish you all the luck. I am just sick of trying to remember what I did with stuff. I have 3 kids and have OCD, where I don't like a messy house, so I put stuff up and can't remember what I did with it. I run a business too, and I keep having customers ask me about a previous conversation, and I don't even remember speaking with them. On top of all that my family keeps asking me, or my kids, do you remember this and I want to scream, I can't because I have been doped up, while running away crying my eyes out.
you are a funny one lifesaride. I have also started taking some vitamin supplements that said they would help with memory, but I can't remember the name of them.
I am sorry girly. I am by no means trying to make light of your concerns, but sometimes we get silly on here and try to lighten the mood.
I too lost many important memories. That is what made me decide to get clean. My daddy was dying and they let him leave the hospital to come to my home for his final Christmas with the family. I had taken something and I don't remember anything that happened. Then he died on New Year's Day. That sealed it for me. I am determined to stay clean for my daddy and to make him smile down on me.
Memory was definetly an issue with me. I have 41 days now and I can actually say that my memory is really improving. You are right it suc*s but look at t this way......You are only 27 so there is hope for you. For some of us we have used for over 20 years and then the forty-something age thing begins to be as factor too. lol I promise you your memory will get better but if you are taking ambien to sleep, don't expect it to get better while you are on that because it is an amnesiac. Hang in there girl!!!!!!
i coulda psell before i did drugs, or type either. meant spell
I also take cymbalta for my depression, I am just hoping by mixing the 2 hasn't done any permit. damage. Can't even remember how to spell some words.
One of my motivations for quitting was the day after my son's bday we watched the video and I don't remember half the stuff I said and did during his party....just random chit chat.. but still... I sat there thinking that was me? You know b/c I had to take extra pills to be "happy" and "fun" at his party and "deal" with everyone... so yes it happens... I am remembering things better now but not quite 100%..... but I chase a toddler so I like to use that as an excuse too! LOL
I CANT REMEMBER! But then again at the end I was doing 8) 80's a day. I'll let you know when i get my memory back!
Absolutely!! That was a huge problem for me when I was using and has had some residual side effects... I still have a slight memory problem today! That's what happens when we beat on our brains like that! Don't stress tho, it will get better.
Is that all you are taking? Have you been taking any kinds of sleeping pills or anything like that?
When I was on the ambien, I NEVER could remember anything. It was really bad! I don't know how I remember to put my clothes on before I went to work.
I am tapering, so the minute I get off, will my memory get better? Will I remember where I put stuff?
Nope.....that used to drive me crazy......I would constantly do the same thing. I don't have that problem anymore now that I am off that cr ap.
Nauty.......