Messed up once agin

First thing a grabbed this morning at 7am after getting only 3 hours of restless sleep....5 norcos.....I told my self I'll just take these 5 and that will last me all day....which I say everyday (when I'm getting low) and it never happens. I have 20 left and a refill for monday.... And I'm like in a panic about what I'm gonna do tomorrow when I have to go to work for 10 hours and then saturday as well. I'm off on sunday..so I can be as miserable as I want on sunday....but once agin I started off the day doing the stupidest thing by taking those 5..........I just needed to confess it to sombody....who would know how I feel...so I figured this would be the best place to do that...

[HelpinUtah]

Cyndie:
I'm so sorry that you messed up today!  Yes, it wasn't the best thing to do, but don't beath yourself up about it.  You still have the rest of the day to stay straight!  You can DO THIS!  It is so difficult, but find things to occupy your time.  Try to remember what it was like to be clean when you had your head clear and free from drugs.  I can tell you that it's a wonderful feeling!!!  It's not easy, but it is SO WORTH IT!  

Please stay the course and DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF!

This is the best place to come and continue being honest with us and we can help you!!!!

[johnnykelly]

Cyndie its a vicious cycle.I liked to take my pills especially in the morning. If you are anything like me you will take any and all pills available.The work will eventually suffer and if the addictive disease keeps growing,we become unimployed and unimployable.One thing any addict has to have .Is the desire to be clean? Being clean as a result of waiting for the next RX,or not using because we are broke,are all excuses.Cyndie lok inside and if you truly want to be Clean,maybe get the prescribing Dr. to help you Medicaklly taper,and that may mean going to the pharmacy on a daily basis.If theres excuses like its to Far,no car,Icant afford it Yata yata,yata. then maybe you are not emotionally ready to Quit Best of luck john

[cathy5841]

hi cyndi, one thing i have learned as an addict..if we have pills we will find anexcuse to use them.  i tried to taper ha right, i could not.  i finally knew i had to go c/t and suck it up.  i cut off all suppliers legal and illegal and made sure i could not get my hands on any.  addiction is a cunning disease and will give you every excuse to feed it.  it takes determination and will power.  goingtomakeit says we will get clean when our desire to be clean is stronger than our desire to be high.  its true.  if you are serious about getting clean you have to take all the steps that lead to being clean.  have you tried NA or something similar?  it really helps too.  i promise as long as you have access to pills chances are you wont quit.  if you choose a taper you will probablly need a responsible party to dole them out.  i had to do that when i had surgery after i got clean....it takes work to be clean.