Methadone treatment

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Hi, I am a newbie and find this forum to be very helpful, well written and therapeutic.  I began my addiction to hydrocodone back in 2003 due to severe back problems. After a while ( 2005) I began slowly increasing the recommanded dosage and instead of taking 3 pills/day I was up to 18. I then began running out of rx's all the time until one day. I showed up to my specialist to have a Rx refill. I never had a problem getting them before but, this time, he decided to look up at the substance abuse data base and I was told that he was not going to fill anymore rx for me because it appeared that I was getting it else where. Okay, on a few occasion, I did but never more than 10-20 and very seldom and mostly on weekends when I could not contact my specialist. I left his office so embarrassed and humiliated, to me, the way I felt was by far worst than the craving. Anyways, I decided that day to contact a methadone treatment clinic and joined 2 days later since I read that it was best to be into withdrawl. My withdrawl were not as bad as I had anticipated from reading others but it sure felt great to get in and meet with the doctor.  I started taking the methadone at 15ml and I am now at 25ml. This treatment is just amazing and truly makes the cravings and the flulike syndrom disapear.  I started in mid-july and I am feeling great and do not have the needs for my worst ennemy "hydro".  I never tought that I could get out of that circle but, it was not as hard as it seems.  It is a bit hard at times because I am travelling 2 weeks out of 4 for work out of state and since I have not being a patient long enough, I do not yet qualify for the take home privilege besides on sundays. Basically, when I travel, I have to find out of state clinic, have my clinic fax the info for courtesie dosing. At times, I just can't do it because of my schedule so, instead of going through the withdrawl and feel like I am going to die if I don't dose, I am now capable of limiting myself to 1 pill/day at night time when I travel only and when I get back home, I go back to my routine and my 25ml of methadone daily or each other day.
My question is: I don't know if it is me but, I used to take the pills for the pain and euphoria, now, when I take the pill, I have basically no effect, no euphoria, nothing besides taking the pain away. Does methadone kicks out the euphoric effect of the hydrocodone?
I am sorry for such a long note but, I just feel that I had to share my experience with others who can rely on something similar. There are ways to get out of it and I feel that there is a big difference between "addiction" and "dependency" and right now, I fall into the "dependency" category. For the ones who never really wanted to quite by fear of not being able to because of severe withdrawl when we run out,next time you run out, instead of going shopping of becoming ill, you should try to enroll into a clinic near you and just give it a try until your next refill is up, you will see that when you next refill is up you will not be interested really anymore because, from day 1 that you start methadone, it will be your first step into your own emotional freedom....
Have a great evening and I hope this helped a bit.
Thanks for your time,

[beachtowel]

Welcome to the forum and I hope one day soon you will read this post and understand the distorted thoughts going on in this post......

Your words:

I then began running out of rx's all the time until one day. I showed up to my specialist to have a Rx refill. I never had a problem getting them before but, this time, he decided to look up at the substance abuse data base and I was told that he was not going to fill anymore rx for me because it appeared that I was getting it else where.

Your words:

I decided that day to contact a methadone treatment clinic and joined 2 days later since I read that it was best to be into withdrawl. My withdrawl were not as bad as I had anticipated from reading others but it sure felt great to get in and meet with the doctor.  I started taking the methadone at 15ml and I am now at 25ml. This treatment is just amazing and truly makes the cravings and the flulike syndrom disapear.

Your words:

There are ways to get out of it and I feel that there is a big difference between "addiction" and "dependency" and right now, I fall into the "dependency" category.

If I may comment with out offending you........

You have decided with careful thought that your not an addict but just dependent on some pills......

When your doctor can't keep up with your habit you go else where to acquire an adequate number of pills to deal with your pain.........

And of course you go to a Methadone clinic to keep W/Ds under control and I am sure you have a plan to wean yourself off the Methadone before that becomes a dependency too........

I am not judging you but only trying and hopefully succeeding in making you aware that you sure sound like an addict to me...............and soon not ony will you have a pill addiction but a terrible
Methadone addiction problem as well.....

Your in trouble over there with addiction and I hope one day you will quit using and get your life back.......

I hope the best for you........

[FLaddict]

Using Methodone for a hydro dependency was not the best choice in my opinion and I am sure others here will agree with me. Methodone compared to Hydrocodone is taking a way stronger drug to get off a weaker one.. or like killing a mouse with a gun for an elephant..
I am not one that is big for replacement therapy.. usually it leads people onto deeper addiction since its such a stronger drug that has a really long half life. And doesn't get them past the core issues or pain that got them there..
Welcome to the site.. I do hope you find it helpful if you decide to get off the methodone..

Stephanie
Day 51 (as of midnight est time)