Hi Jen.....well as you can see this drug is very cyclic and your traped in a cycle now.....just know you will cycle out of it just like you cycled into it it can last a hour 5 hours or even a day.....I wish there was a way to get around this but there is not....you just have to go threw it to get to the other side....I t will get better I promise you....even when it dont feel like it every day your not using is a victory...how are you sleeping??? no sleep or broken sleep makes it harder try a nice hot soak in epsom salt 1/2 hour b/4 bed...you sound like your eating right that helps to....just know your doing everything you can to get well you should start having more good days then bad your sorta got to ''fake it until you make it'' until then keep posting for support where here for you
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Hi Jen,
So, if I am reading this right, you have 5 kids to take care of?? Plus you are working at this point? Do you have any kind of sick time or vacation time you can take for a few days or a week??
I really feel for you, but in one way it does keep you busy and your mind re-directed. There are some open meetings that you can take the kids too.
Are you taking the clonidine during the day too?? I would knock it back to just at night. I did not even take that until I had 22days of high, high anxiety and no sleep and I could only take it at night. They did give us some med called Buspar and it is not addicting. It is to help with the anxiety. It does not work when you are in full blown detox, but it will kick in and help later. I ended up quitting them both after 40-60days. Try taking some good Magnesium, Potassium, Calcium and D3. These will help relax the muscles & help with sleep too. Just keep your head up, keep your Faith and we will be Praying for you as well.
Bless
Vickie
CIK hit it right on the nail.
It will take TIME & PATIENCE!! Recovery will Crawl at first and then the Baby Steps, soon you will be taking Bigger and Better Steps. I have almost 4yrs in and I finally have the best energy I have had in a very long time..NOW, that does not mean it will take you this long. I had a Heart Attack and have 2 stents put in and I lost most of my Family when I had 18 months in, so that right there set me back mentally & physically. Just stay in the Day!!
You are getting better each and every day, but we want BIGGER results because that is the Addicts thinking. I promise YOU will get that energy back and when you do it will be the best you have ever felt. Hope is Faith and do not let that go!
Hang in!!!
Vickie
Feeling like a slug and aching all over is part of the process, Jen. Don't let it get you discouraged. Have you tried some ibuprofen or Tylenol for your aches and pains? How about an Epsom Salts bath? That will really help because you need the magnesium in the salts and it will also draw out toxins at the same time.
Your honeymoon cruise is a whole month away and you'll feel different by then. It's hard not to think about the future but we have to re-train our brains to stay in "this 24 hrs". We're only given enough grace and strength for one day....then we tackle the next day when it comes.
Even just a little walking (even if it's in your house) will help things along as you heal. 2 WHOLE WEEKS is good!!! You are going to turn a corner before too long. Keep talking to us, ok?
Keep it up , your doin great, Everyday is one closer to being free. somedays are harder then the next , but you got this look how far you have made it
Hi Jen hey it has been a wile you still with us please post to let us know how your doing
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hey jen.....sorry it tok me so long to get back to you but I have been really realy sick with the flu....anyways so your at a 5....that is to be expected but at least your making progress as for the tummy ishues try some yogurt with pro/biotiics and eat a couple a day this will really help the leg aches are also normal this drug just dont like to let go of you .....just keep your eyes on the prize and you will overcome this with time.....you and your husband should take time to pray over this when a husband and wife pray together it is powerful ...me and Kat do all the time and it has been life changing....anyway keep us up to date you will recover I promise
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hi Jen ....welcome back home....im so happy for you congrats on getting married and it sounds like everything went off well......I have been trying to get my wife on a cruse forever but she has a phobia about drowning so no luck there....you couldent have picked a better honeymoon.....those ships are very relaxing ...all our friends have been on them ....where the odd couple out....anyways im so glad you where able to enjoy yourself in spite of the methadone withdrawal your progress is doing very good....im also happy to hear your a Christian with the power of God and threw prayer those that believe do a lot better then those that dont I will content to pray for your recovery....thanks for posting to keep us up to date on a scale of 1 to 10 10 being energy level back to where it is suppose to be where do you stand???...and what if anything as far as withdrawal symptoms are you still feeling??? let us know keep posting for support
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Gnarly she is on her cruise till the 14th was just reading the posts
Hey Jen how goes it...we havent heard from you in a wile please post when you get the time...........Gnarly..............
Congrats on the wedding Jen, 6 weeks so happy for you. Wish you the best on your trip. If you get a chance update us.
God Bless
Hi Jen...well a big congrats on getting married and what a great gift your giving your new husband....a clean you!!!! me and Kat have been together for 36yrs and married for 33yrs so where lifers if I had to do it all over I would pic her again we have shared a good life together we raised 5 children and now have 4 grandchildren even threw the tuff stuff we weatherd the storm... try not to get to overwhelmed with all this your emotions are still fragile at this point in recovery so try not to have to many expectation's just let go of all the little stuff and enjoy a day that you wont forget....I dont know if you believe in God or not but if you put him first learn how to forgive...never go to bed angree with each other you will prosper if you get a chance go to my home page and read my journal ''where is god in all this''...try to just relax and enjoy your cruse most of them offer massage's it would be great for you and your husband to share one and there worth every penny....im so happy to here your sleeping threw the night it took me 2 months to get anything close to a good nights sleep so your a head of the game my wife and I will say a special prayer for you.....that you will prosper and that God bless you abundantly..... let us know how things turn out when you get back your friend Mark..............
Thanks! I sure will get back with everyone next Sunday 8/14 at the latest unless I discover that I have phone service on board. I'm feeling okay. It was a rough couple days cause I've had a lot on my plate but emotionally I'm feeling good just hurting physically. On the bright side today is 6 weeks!! Yay!!!
I'm sorry I've been so wrapped up with getting stuff together for our wedding. Tomorrow is our big day...22 hours to be exact! I'm doing okay but yesterday and today took a lot out of me with setting up the travels and chairs and decorating. I hurt. I had been feeling pretty good before that though. I'm sleeping great. I had 2 nights now where I didn't wake up at all!! I'm at 6 weeks today!!! My complexion has changed for the worse. I've never had a greasy face/complexion but I do now and u can't stand it. Did anyone else have that issue? We leave for a cruise tomorrow and won't be back till next Sunday so I don't anticipate posting because I don't believe I'll have service. Thanks for all the support!
HELLO.....Jen, how are you feeling??
Congrats on your time and your wedding. This is all great news.
I never had Headaches like I did coming off my 3 pills, but I was told that the brain has billions of wiring and this all had to adjust back. The body aches come from this too, as my Dr called it Somatic Syndrome, which is your brain sending false singles to your body. Also, we have that rebound pain for awhile, while your Endorphins are clearing out. Hang in...YOU will get past this.
Have a wonderful time on your Vacation too. Come back and give us a Update!!!!
God be with...
Hey Jen where are you???? please post to let us know how your doing............gnarly
Hi Jen....well the pain your feeling is from the methadone that leaches into your bones over time it slowly comes out as time goes by....just know there will be a end to it your doing really good for a little over 30 days clean your 1/3 of the way there if it goes the whole 90 days like it did for me just hang in there and post to let us know how your doing
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Also while I'm thinking of it...my wedding is 1.5 weeks away on 8/6...next Saturday. Sooo....I'm going on my honeymoon which is a cruise to the Bahamas from 8/7 to 8/14 (late) and i won't be online at all so don't get worried if I don't post. I will update everyone once I'm back though. I'll try to remind all of you next Friday. I will definitely be okay and clean so no worries there!
You know i never had pain issues or any accidents that should cause pain...never even broken a bone! Lol. But some days I wonder if this is what my life will be...pain forever. I keep trying to tell myself it's just the withdrawals but some days it makes me wonder. I'm only 31 so it darn sure better not be old age yet. Lol. But I'm run down a lot and get tired easy and have minor aches and pains that won't go away. They are tolerable but annoying and just make me question if this is my existence now that I'm off methadone. I know better but the thoughts still get in my mind from time to time....
I'm doing okay. I have 31 days today!!' Yay!!! Feeling better by the day now (for the most part). Emotionally good, great really. I have to worst headache I've ever had in my life today which s u c k s but such is life. My complexion is bad now and I sweat and get chills but I'm alright. I stopped taking my clonidine and I'm sleeping well. I only wake up 2-3x a night and it takes maybe 30 minutes to fall back asleep but overall not too horrible.
Hi Jen just got home from a looooooong monday but wanted to see how your doing.....you mentioned the headaches.....God I thought I had a brain tumor they where so bad....it is just one more thing....this is the drug that just keeps on giving....it s u c k s but like all of your symptoms it will pass try a cool washcloth over your eyes in a dark room the otc pain relevers may help excedrin worked the best for me....this stuff is really dragging you threw the ringer but I promise sooner or later it will let up....we just dont know when.....it your at 1/2 your capacity your doing better then I was...I wish I had a magic wand I could make it go away with but you just have to go threw it.....both vicky and I had a ruff detox so we both know what it is like just take time for yourself like a nice hot soak after work.....treat yourself to a message it does wonders for both the mind and sprite....I know it may not seam like it but your beating this thing and even a bad day puts you one day closer to getting well...just know where here for you...my heart goes out to you and I pray for you daily keep positng for support and when you find the time post to let us know how your doing
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Hi Jen.....well your doing it 1 day at a time....your scheduled at work sounds like mine....we put over 400 new companys on and it is up to me a 3 guys to make there websites blend with ours and as always it needs to be done yesterday....it is hard to come home after a 10 hour grind on a computer and still make time for this but some how I manage.....just know what your going threw is a very typical withdrawal from this drug....it is not so much the severity of the withdrawal but the length of time it takes to recovery every day you dont use is a victory and just know your on the right path with time you will get better.....defiantly get the epsom salt for the bath it will really help with the body aches just a cup ful to a nice hot soak it will also give you magnesum that is a great sleep aid....try not to get discouraged a positive attitude is your best friend going threw this I remeber all to well just how lousy and tired and achey I felt for months but today it is a distant memory every time I get another year clean I take my coin to the clinic and show the staff that with some will power and perseverance you can over come methadone as for work just pace yourself keep posting for support
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Calling Jen..Hello!!!
How are you doing???
How you doin Jen , keep truckin along your makin it moment by moment.
Try you hardest to keep yourself re-directed and just tell yourself that you are HEALING..physically, mentally and spiritually. I will not even mention out here how long my physical took, let along my mental..However, it did take the mental more then a yr or so. I did c/t 3 meds and each one hit different areas of the brain in one way, and hit other neurotransmitters the same in another way. I can tell you what drug hit what areas, but I am sure you know. I was on a upper, downer and a all a rounder. Ha! My anxiety and anxiousness was on the moon and I was still rocking back in fourth at 40days. I felt like I was in outer space and nothing seemed real in my own world. Each day there was a new Light, we just do not see or feel that at first but others can tell. The re-bond pain will take its toll. The enorphines (pain receptors) are clearing out toxins everywhere, and it will take time for them to produce the natural chem to help relive the pain. I had more pain on my methadone then I did off, but it took some time for me to feel no pain all over.. My Dr told me back then, that as the brain heals all those receptors & transmitters, they will send off false singles to the body. He called it "Somatic Syndrome". Also, being that I c/t a Bezo with mine, that was one more reason the anxiety was on the moon. All of this affects the Nervous System and this takes time to heal too. Time, Time and Time is becoming a nasty word out here..Ha!! By the time I had many, many months in, I was so mad and thought I would of felt SO much better, I felt "Hopeless" too, but I was getting better, it just did not seem so. The good day will come and when it does it will stick around. The roller-coaster will shut down, then you might be on top of the ferriswheel looking down. Your feet will hit the ground and the park will close up for good. We just have to be careful because that monkey can jump right back on our backs. CIK used to call recovery, like peeling layers off of a onion. I heard them say that, on one of my Christians shows just the other day. Someone said on here back in 2012, "Do not tell you God how tough the Storm is, tell the Storm how tough your God is", something like that..lol=Lots of Love.
As far as the sleep goes, well that will take Time too. Make sure you have the room cool and dark. Turn off all lights including blinking ones. Put some lavender in your sheets & blankets when you wash them and put them on the bed. The smell will help relax you. Try not to fight it. A day came, months later and all I could do is sleep. I called it my catch-up sleep. (: Hang in and keep the Faith up, one day all of this will be behind you. The H was more natural, so it does detox out faster, but it is a harder craving. Trust us, you will get better!!!!!!! Keep us updated!
Bless U
Vickie