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So of course, Jenny goes on the internet and starts to look up info on livers to see what a level of 1000 actually means. I know not good, but how bad? I called my internal dr and left a message to ask some questions. He was wonderful back 2-months ago when i had a blood test because i was achy in my ab. My levels were fine ALT of 12 and AST of 21, range is 0-40 (normal). My husband told me that one of the levels came back at 1000, i am assuming either ALT or AST, they told him the normal level was 40. He doesn't have hep, and he doesn't have cirrosus, according to the dr. They will recheck him in 1 week!
I'm sending him a little care package today with a few things that he requested. He's getting a bunch of literature on the liver, you can bet that!!!!!!
I remember back in the late 80's he had elevated levels back then, he must have a miracle liver, but i fear the poor tired thing is all worn out. He just has to stay clean!!! And i have to get clean!
Lv Jenny
I'm sending him a little care package today with a few things that he requested. He's getting a bunch of literature on the liver, you can bet that!!!!!!
I remember back in the late 80's he had elevated levels back then, he must have a miracle liver, but i fear the poor tired thing is all worn out. He just has to stay clean!!! And i have to get clean!
Lv Jenny
My dear Jenny, Your will and determination is so strong,,that dream of yours is not that far out of reach,,it is just at the tip of your fingers...one day with the willingness and desire your husband will be well..remember this disease is not "curable" but it is treatable like diabetes...it takes powerful medicine to keep it down...I have always said that while we are at meetings or doing what whatever it is we do to keep ourselves ok,that monster AKA addiction is patiently waiting for us in the parking lot,,doing push-ups gaining it's strength to strike at us when we are the most vulnerable..during times of stress, pain emotional or physical, complacency etc..that is when the dragon (hi wiz) gets up his strength and strikes...so we have to be stronger than the dragon, we have to never become complacent, and when we are stressed et. we have to work an even stronger program,,,when we finally surrender and admit our powerlessness and let our higher power in our lives is when the fog seems to lift. Keep in mind that spirituality and religion are 2 seperate things....NA/AA are not religious programs but spritual...now, go take a hot bubble bath,,,use a fragrance that is designed to relieve stress, do your hair and nails. read a book do some gardening,,something you enjoy...and kiss your babies....I always kiss my kids before I do something nice for me so I won't feel guilty LOL hang in there and I promis no more lectures Love ya cin
Thanks girl! It's still feeling numblike, but not hot anymore. Feels like it is all located directly on the surface, nothing deepdown, no bruising, no swelling, nothing. It will probably just go away. No other meds except for opiates, and even those are at a pretty lowdose.
I have both my daughter at work today, my 1-year old is always with me, and i'm bringing my 8-year old with me for 3-days while my boss is in california. Saves me $15.00 a day in childcare costs.
I did spend some money at lunchtime, by husband had asked for a few cassette tapes for his walkman. He wanted The Allman Brothers, and Eric Clapton. It's money that i don't have, but it is theroputic for him, and i want him to love his music again, he shut that out long ago. I would love to see him pick up the guitar that i gave him for his birthday back in April. He hasn't been able to play, and when i gave it to him, he cried and had to leave the room. He really was happy, but sad. So i want him to have his music again!
He talks about getting back in Karate, which he used to study back in the 80's, that would be great because there is a lot of self-disapline involved with Karate, and it is spiritual in a way. It's the closest i will ever get that man to church, i'll say that. I think i had mentioned the part about him wanting a motorcycle. That too would be good.
I know what you are probably thinking, what is Jenny going to do for Jenny. I just want to be able to enjoy my life with my well husband and my beautiful children. I would like to have a job that is somewhat interesting, and people to work around would be nice too. It's all a far away dream for now.
Thanks for listening!
Lv Jenny
I have both my daughter at work today, my 1-year old is always with me, and i'm bringing my 8-year old with me for 3-days while my boss is in california. Saves me $15.00 a day in childcare costs.
I did spend some money at lunchtime, by husband had asked for a few cassette tapes for his walkman. He wanted The Allman Brothers, and Eric Clapton. It's money that i don't have, but it is theroputic for him, and i want him to love his music again, he shut that out long ago. I would love to see him pick up the guitar that i gave him for his birthday back in April. He hasn't been able to play, and when i gave it to him, he cried and had to leave the room. He really was happy, but sad. So i want him to have his music again!
He talks about getting back in Karate, which he used to study back in the 80's, that would be great because there is a lot of self-disapline involved with Karate, and it is spiritual in a way. It's the closest i will ever get that man to church, i'll say that. I think i had mentioned the part about him wanting a motorcycle. That too would be good.
I know what you are probably thinking, what is Jenny going to do for Jenny. I just want to be able to enjoy my life with my well husband and my beautiful children. I would like to have a job that is somewhat interesting, and people to work around would be nice too. It's all a far away dream for now.
Thanks for listening!
Lv Jenny
Hey you,,,,you should probably have your thihg checked out by a physician....All though I can't diagnose I can make suggestions :) you may have had some soft tissue injury did you fall bump yourself,,,is there bruising...all though the top of the thigh is not a real common site for like a phelbitis,,)inflammation of a vein) or a thrombosis (clot formation) the temp of the skin and sensation that differs from other areas of the leg may be reason enough for me to say go to the dr. anything is possible... other than opiates what meds do you take? if there is numbness etc, I would not attempt heat therapy for fear of burning yourself....ok sorry I could not have been of more help but it is sooooooooo hard over the computer.... Now my fee :) be wll my friend Love ya cin
I have a quick question for you, since you are a nurse, maybe you know what this is.
Since last night, i've noticed a numb feeling on my left tight, right on top, and it even feels a little warm. It's only numb if i put my hand on it, about the length of my hand. I can feel it isn't as sensitive (the skin) as my other leg.
Very weird. I can't afford anymore doctors, i have about 12 doctor's bills to pay off right now as is.
Any ideas? I know it sounds weird!
Lv Jenny
Since last night, i've noticed a numb feeling on my left tight, right on top, and it even feels a little warm. It's only numb if i put my hand on it, about the length of my hand. I can feel it isn't as sensitive (the skin) as my other leg.
Very weird. I can't afford anymore doctors, i have about 12 doctor's bills to pay off right now as is.
Any ideas? I know it sounds weird!
Lv Jenny
Hey girl,
No, i could never be upset with you, you are only trying to help me... I respect your opinions because i know you have been there and back, and there and back again and again.
I get like that sometimes, feeling optimistic, but really, deep down, i'm bracing myself for the day he returns, it's not going to be a picnic at the beach.
We went to see Robert today, and he looked good, considering what he is going through. He is off the meds, as of today, and he was really starting to feel sore and achy 1/2 way through our visit, so we had to go. Having the kids with me didn't help, my 5-year old can be very vocal at times. I think he is suffering the most out of my three children. I need to spend some time with him, alone, and try to understand what he is feeling and try to put his worries at ease. My 8-year old doesn't help matters much, she teases him, and bosses him around, and it is very frusterating for him. I plan to work with both of them so that we can all live happier together in the same house! (ugh!)
I'm feeling a bit beat-up tonight, everything is getting to me, and i feel like the entire world is laying on my shoulders. My husband had a list of things he wanted me to bring, and one of them was some tapes. Well, the only ones i could find were ones that he didn't like (actually, he liked a few). I told him that i am trying to be careful with money, there isn't much to go around. I even brought him $30, and that's a lot of money for me right now. He even asked me to pick up a walkman for a friend there, he was admiring my husbands. He will pay us for it, but i think my husband plans to keep the cash. I don't think he realizes exactly how tight things are. If i bring it up, he tells me not to worry. Well that's all fine for him, with all his fancy foods, and getting to eat everything and anything he wants. My frig is starting to echo a bit, and it's not cheap feeding a family of four, not the mention the gas i used in my car to go to visit him. I'm just a little hurt that he isn't in reality, but i understand that he is focusing on himself right now. It's the combo of that, plus all the disrespect i've been getting from his mother, including when i try to explain my point of view, she hangs up on me. Doesn't she realize all that i've done to keep this family going, and that he son would probably be dead by now if it weren't for me.
After my son making a scene, and seeing robert having the same look in his eyes of frusteration with the kids, although he really tried very hard, and i haven't seen him be that patient with them for quite some time. I can't help but wonder if he would just be better off alone, or at least without all of us. I just can't picture him coming home, same old environment, demanding kids, him trying to find work, dealing with the hot, florida weather, and everything being ok. I almost feel like i should just set him free into the world, and let him make his own choices, and live his life without all the constant crazyness of having a big family. He used to say that he never really wanted kids, and he never really wanted to get married (to me), that he was happy living together, and i was the one who wanted all these kids. I don't know why i'm bringing all this up, he hasn't said anything for quite some time, but it hurt, and it's a wound that will never heal.
He just doesn't seem to understand, or realize all that i do or have to do to keep things going. I make it look so easy, that it's overlooked at how difficult it is working full-time, taking care of a house, and three young children, not to mention the two dogs, a guinea pig (his cage is constantly needing to be cleaned), and a grouchy lovebird. He wanted some magazines, and i brought some of his old ones, but he made a face when i didn't have anything new. On the way out, i piled the kids back in the car, stopped at a drug store, grabbed a $5 magazine, when back to the facility, loaded the kids out of the car (with a 1-year old, there's always a stroller involved, and usually the child does not go willingly, not to mention getting her in and out of the car seat, she's 28lbs -- i'm only around 106), so back to give him the magazine. That's just a small example. So we're driving home down I-95, and i had promised the kids Wendy's if they were good (my son really wasn't, but i gave in anyway), i had spent all my money on the magazine, plus the 3-stops i made on the way out for little things that he requested, so i had to run into the supermarket to cash a check. I get out, and it is raining (one of those terencial florida downpours), i run with my son with 2 gallons of milk, bread, and a few other things in hand, get into the car, drive with 3 nosey kids to wendys. It was raining so hard, i had to put up the umbrella in the drive through, back home, change the wet kids... and go on with my nice peaceful evening (HA!!!!!!)
I guess i'm just feeling unappreciated, and big time sorry for myself (pity party)!
I'm just tired, tired of keeping everything going, and trying of the 'strong' one! When is it ever going to be time for someone to take care of me! Of course i would probably hate that, i'm a control freak and would probably run screaming and yelling as fast as i could. LOL!
I'm just blabbering, so don't pay any attention to me, it helps to get this all out, i'll feel better tomorrow. Oh, and there goes the baby crying, it's about midnight, wonder what she needs.
Talked to my parents today, and my mom offered money to help pay off debts that we might have so that we wouldn't be paying interest on credit cards, etc.
I told her that we are fine, that everything is ok. My dad, who is 69, is trying to retire this year, and i know they lost a lot of money in the stock market this year, and his profit sharing is down quite a bit, i don't want to take anything from them, they've done so much for us throughout our lives. They always pay for our airfare, and my dad doesn't make that much money, but they are very good with budgeting! I would hate to ask them for a penny after all they've done, but it's nice to know that they are out there.
I filed unemployment for by husband on the net, so if that goes through in 3-4 weeks, then we will be ok. His counseling, whom i spoke to this morning, is thinking that the suggestion will be to have him continue in extended care for an addition 2-months. If his sister is willing to help, then fine, but there's no way we can afford it. Our credit is lousy, so we wouldn't even be able to get a loan for it. My mom said there is no way you are going into debt over that (extended care), that's another story, it's really not her decision. My mom is very controlling, and is adding a little too much, but i know she is trying to hold back her opinions, i can feel them in the air even if she doesn't talk about them, i know her too well! But it's only out of love for me and the kids, and they are concerned, i know.
So that's my story for today, and i thank you for listening and for caring enough to tell me like it is, because you are right!
Thanks for being you sweetie!
Love Jenny
P.S. A party sounds great if i can ever get my life together enough to actually participate in anything fun and for me, for a change.
No, i could never be upset with you, you are only trying to help me... I respect your opinions because i know you have been there and back, and there and back again and again.
I get like that sometimes, feeling optimistic, but really, deep down, i'm bracing myself for the day he returns, it's not going to be a picnic at the beach.
We went to see Robert today, and he looked good, considering what he is going through. He is off the meds, as of today, and he was really starting to feel sore and achy 1/2 way through our visit, so we had to go. Having the kids with me didn't help, my 5-year old can be very vocal at times. I think he is suffering the most out of my three children. I need to spend some time with him, alone, and try to understand what he is feeling and try to put his worries at ease. My 8-year old doesn't help matters much, she teases him, and bosses him around, and it is very frusterating for him. I plan to work with both of them so that we can all live happier together in the same house! (ugh!)
I'm feeling a bit beat-up tonight, everything is getting to me, and i feel like the entire world is laying on my shoulders. My husband had a list of things he wanted me to bring, and one of them was some tapes. Well, the only ones i could find were ones that he didn't like (actually, he liked a few). I told him that i am trying to be careful with money, there isn't much to go around. I even brought him $30, and that's a lot of money for me right now. He even asked me to pick up a walkman for a friend there, he was admiring my husbands. He will pay us for it, but i think my husband plans to keep the cash. I don't think he realizes exactly how tight things are. If i bring it up, he tells me not to worry. Well that's all fine for him, with all his fancy foods, and getting to eat everything and anything he wants. My frig is starting to echo a bit, and it's not cheap feeding a family of four, not the mention the gas i used in my car to go to visit him. I'm just a little hurt that he isn't in reality, but i understand that he is focusing on himself right now. It's the combo of that, plus all the disrespect i've been getting from his mother, including when i try to explain my point of view, she hangs up on me. Doesn't she realize all that i've done to keep this family going, and that he son would probably be dead by now if it weren't for me.
After my son making a scene, and seeing robert having the same look in his eyes of frusteration with the kids, although he really tried very hard, and i haven't seen him be that patient with them for quite some time. I can't help but wonder if he would just be better off alone, or at least without all of us. I just can't picture him coming home, same old environment, demanding kids, him trying to find work, dealing with the hot, florida weather, and everything being ok. I almost feel like i should just set him free into the world, and let him make his own choices, and live his life without all the constant crazyness of having a big family. He used to say that he never really wanted kids, and he never really wanted to get married (to me), that he was happy living together, and i was the one who wanted all these kids. I don't know why i'm bringing all this up, he hasn't said anything for quite some time, but it hurt, and it's a wound that will never heal.
He just doesn't seem to understand, or realize all that i do or have to do to keep things going. I make it look so easy, that it's overlooked at how difficult it is working full-time, taking care of a house, and three young children, not to mention the two dogs, a guinea pig (his cage is constantly needing to be cleaned), and a grouchy lovebird. He wanted some magazines, and i brought some of his old ones, but he made a face when i didn't have anything new. On the way out, i piled the kids back in the car, stopped at a drug store, grabbed a $5 magazine, when back to the facility, loaded the kids out of the car (with a 1-year old, there's always a stroller involved, and usually the child does not go willingly, not to mention getting her in and out of the car seat, she's 28lbs -- i'm only around 106), so back to give him the magazine. That's just a small example. So we're driving home down I-95, and i had promised the kids Wendy's if they were good (my son really wasn't, but i gave in anyway), i had spent all my money on the magazine, plus the 3-stops i made on the way out for little things that he requested, so i had to run into the supermarket to cash a check. I get out, and it is raining (one of those terencial florida downpours), i run with my son with 2 gallons of milk, bread, and a few other things in hand, get into the car, drive with 3 nosey kids to wendys. It was raining so hard, i had to put up the umbrella in the drive through, back home, change the wet kids... and go on with my nice peaceful evening (HA!!!!!!)
I guess i'm just feeling unappreciated, and big time sorry for myself (pity party)!
I'm just tired, tired of keeping everything going, and trying of the 'strong' one! When is it ever going to be time for someone to take care of me! Of course i would probably hate that, i'm a control freak and would probably run screaming and yelling as fast as i could. LOL!
I'm just blabbering, so don't pay any attention to me, it helps to get this all out, i'll feel better tomorrow. Oh, and there goes the baby crying, it's about midnight, wonder what she needs.
Talked to my parents today, and my mom offered money to help pay off debts that we might have so that we wouldn't be paying interest on credit cards, etc.
I told her that we are fine, that everything is ok. My dad, who is 69, is trying to retire this year, and i know they lost a lot of money in the stock market this year, and his profit sharing is down quite a bit, i don't want to take anything from them, they've done so much for us throughout our lives. They always pay for our airfare, and my dad doesn't make that much money, but they are very good with budgeting! I would hate to ask them for a penny after all they've done, but it's nice to know that they are out there.
I filed unemployment for by husband on the net, so if that goes through in 3-4 weeks, then we will be ok. His counseling, whom i spoke to this morning, is thinking that the suggestion will be to have him continue in extended care for an addition 2-months. If his sister is willing to help, then fine, but there's no way we can afford it. Our credit is lousy, so we wouldn't even be able to get a loan for it. My mom said there is no way you are going into debt over that (extended care), that's another story, it's really not her decision. My mom is very controlling, and is adding a little too much, but i know she is trying to hold back her opinions, i can feel them in the air even if she doesn't talk about them, i know her too well! But it's only out of love for me and the kids, and they are concerned, i know.
So that's my story for today, and i thank you for listening and for caring enough to tell me like it is, because you are right!
Thanks for being you sweetie!
Love Jenny
P.S. A party sounds great if i can ever get my life together enough to actually participate in anything fun and for me, for a change.
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