Took my last 5 tramadol at 5am Friday morning and since 5pm Friday afternoon the body aches haven't stopped. My body is WEAK and it hurts to stand. I've got two children, on my own - one being a baby only two months old. I spent 4 years prior to having children in and out of rehab for heroin addiction and stayed clean for almost 4 years. Only 11 months ago did I start eating pills again. I tell myself over and over that I need them - back accident when I was 16, gall stones that give MASSIVE attacks (that if taken to the ER I'm given morphine), migraines etc...legit pain but when the pills are in my hand I'm anything but legit with them. The urge to take more take more take more consumes it. I am totally at the mercy of the pills. I spend my days (and nights) chasing that first morning high. It's too much and I don't want to live this way anymore. I drove down the road Friday morning and decided enough was enough. I took 5 last tramadol and threw the rest of the script out the window. I've been taking 5 tramadol 5x a day or 7 500mg hydrocodone 4x a day. My tollerance has recently become so insane that I don't even bother with hydros anymore.
It'd been 5 days since I'd taken a hydro and was only taking tramadol...secretly waiting for when I'd run out so I could finally STOP. I thought about tapering...I even threw out ALL but 7 so I could take 1 every morning for 7 days so that I wouldn't feel this withdrawl but knowing I had those pills ate me alive so I finally took them...and threw the rest out.
My body hurts, my arms and legs are weak and I'm sooo tired. I'm advertising that I've got the flu but I just want one more so I can go to sleep. These aches are so painful and irritating I just want it to be done...
I just need to know I'm not alone...
no wd experience from tram but watch my friend monthly when she runs out early...the depression is what gets her...if u r off the trams u can try the thomas recipe and the 5htp, SAMe and tyrosine will help...mekatonin for sleep a nd valerian root, gaba as well can help,,,high doses of magnesium and calcium can help too at night taken with tonic water...exercise each day no matter how short sand sweet can help tons....u r on the right path...r u going to meetings?
i'm not going to meetings. single mom and two small children that i dont let out of sight prevent me from going...the meetings are all so smokey.
and i can't do thomas' recipe because sleeping all day and night are dangerous for my children...
did u take the tam when u were pg? Just curious I am very pg and trying to taper off the tram and it is hell. Some days I feel like I can't move at all and everything is an ordeal. I also have a 6 year old that needs me it can be exhausting. Especiaslly during the holidays. Course I find that I have an excuse all the time for why it isn't a good time to w/d so I had to have H hold my pills. He is very worried about the baby. Keep in touch:) I feel your pain
Please dont feel that way...You are not alone. SO many people go through the exact same thing and we are not ALL loser failures :). All I can say is try not to give in...if you already did then hand those pills over ot someone so they can dole them out slowly and help you to take the edge off of the withdrawal process.
Hang in there.
Thanks - ive eaten every one of them...luckily (?) fast enough that I don't think I'll have any withdrawals.
just wish i had a swimming pool full of pills...I just can't beat the way I feel when I'm pill high - it's the only thing that makes me feel as happy as it does..
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