Misery

well it has been severalonths since i have ben on here and tried to get off these pain meds, i had health issues that were preventing me from getting off them. i have found out i have fybromyalgia and RA which in both terms make me in pain alot. but here is my theray pain meds make it worse espacially when i tried to detox. when i try i go through withdrawlsd that are unbearable and i can't stand it. i can't stand sleeping the days away and i can't stand the mental mood it has put me through. i know in my heart once i get off them i will feel soo much better but getting over that hump is what is stoping me. i have all the tool si need like the anti anxiety meds and b complex and food nausea meds and imodium (immodium) but after the first day the secound i feel lost disconnected from the world and no motivation and have no idea what to do then the 3rd day i get rebound pain and its soooo annoying and motrin doesn't help. its a constant battle and i am sick of it. i can't go to a detox ccenter for i will freak out and have major depression and anxiety i can't be far from my comfort zone or i freak out. plus just the thought of leaving my husband makes me cry. i have thought of many ways to be put in the hospital so it would be easyier but i can;t gewt them to admit me so any helpould be great.

[gnarly_1]

HI Welcome back im sorry to here your still struggling with you addiction   I see where neighbors im in phx az....its been a wile since you been on....when you finely get sick and tied of being sick and tired  your ready to come off this stuff if you have made it to 3 days you where so close you could tast it....now the mental part takes a wile to get past we really mess up our brain chemistry but if your ready to give it another go we are here for you
you dont have to live this nightmare you can break free from it and I can ashureyou you will feel so much better once all this crap is cleared out of your system just let us know when your ready to start....I think your far enough along in your addiction to start living in recovery
it up to you  mabe pray about it....good luck and God bless......Gnarly