Missed the 4th parties. Feeling blue.

I know I'm doing the right thing by starting the Sub. today but the fireworks are going off outside my house and my husband and friends are at a party I was supposed to go to. I feel to ill to go anywhere. Waaaah!!! When the stupid fireworks stop going off and my husband comes home I'll stop being a baby. I hate missing out on life because of my addictions! Atleast I'm home to comfort my terrified kitties. Ok. Just had to vent a little. Thank God I have you guys! Ggin35

[grievingwidow]

Hello friend,

Now this it not to negate your feelings in any way, I repeat, not to negate what you are feeling as I would feel the exact same way I promise.  But you just have to focus on the fact that (1) you have a husband who will be home with your shortly and (2) that there was a party you were at least invited to and know that you can go next year.  I have not been invited anywhere, holidays or not, surely not the 4th of July, probably in 10 years.

Just think this time next year, you are finally going to be OKAY.  That is what I think all of us want, just to be OKAY, it does not seem like too much to ask for, huh? But why is it so hard to get there?  I am sorry you are feeling down, on top of probably the anxiety you are feeling about this new adventure ahead - recovery.  

Thinking of you...........................

Love, Cindy

[ggin35]

I didn't mean to make light of other's and your situation. I am not feeling well, that's why I'm kind of blue. What I really mean is that my addiction messes up a lot of stuff in my life. I am glad my husband is coming home. The only reason people still want to be around me is because they never see me the way I am now. I am such a recluse. I haven't seen a lot of these people in years because I don't want them to see me like this. And if I were having a party you would be at the top of my guest list! You guys are the only ones I ever really tell the truth to besides my husband. I really feel bad if I sounded shallow. I am so very sorry. Ggin35

[fishmeal]

Ahehehh we went... it was the same thing...good fireworks but it took 45 minutes to get out of the dang parkinglot so... I woulda just a soon not go...