Mom that needs advice

[Qshy]

I hope that someone sees this and can help me!!! I've been on norcos for 2 1/2 yrs and have finally had enough! It started out as 1 a day for dun! Did that for about 8 months and then 2 aday for 6 months now I have worked my way to 8 a day:(!!! I don't want to do this anymore and have decided enough!! I have never been addicted to anything ever!! I just need some advice!! Nobody knows about this and it's killing me!! I feel ashamed and hatred!! Have children and feel like a bad mom!! My boyfriend has no clue. I just would love to hear back from anyone:) any advice on ways to help and how long this withdrawal will last! Qshy

[jifmoc]

Listen, feeling like sh!t at day 4? You are right on schedule. May be a few more days til you feel an improvement. This is an inch by inch thing. I know it blows, but you just gotta give it time and accept that you won't feel good for a while. It's temporary, it will pass, that's a promise, just keep going.

[Qshy]

I know this hasn't been!!!:/ but every day I tell myself it's going to get better!! The anxiety part and sleeping is the hardest for me!! I feel as if I'm going crazy in my head!! I try and stay busy and it helps!!

[waterLilly7]

Hey Friend,
Congrats on reclaiming your life!
iw ill be totally honest with you. This is not going to be easy, if it were this forum would have no need.
it will however get better each day in the beginning. It takes about a week to feel physically better, and about a month to feel mentally better. After that, each week and each month will seem like wonderful milestones to you.
your brain has to recover, and it takes time. you may feel heavy anxiety. that monster was my biggest hurdle. Just know that it WILL GO AWAY. I am two years and 4 months clean now and I have my life back.You will too my friend. Just take each day at a time, each week and each month.
keep posting, you have friends here. We care.
hugs,
lily

[Qshy]

So today is day 4!!! And I still feel really crapy!! I was wanting to know if I took half a sub would it help?? Would I start a whole new wd once that wore off?? I hope someone response to this!!!

[Qshy]

Well today is rough!!!! Feel very sick to my stomach like the flu!!! Didn't sleep well at all!! Tossed and turned slept for Maybe 4hr.. Take hot baths for the chills and stomach! I notice if I sleep sitting up I can actually get comfortable! Any advice on how to not feel so sick? And maybe something to help me sleep? Thank u all that are helping me through this!! I do know now I hate those pills

[jifmoc]

Hey, girl, just wanted to see how you are today. So day 2? Good for you!!! Kellygirl is sooo right: cancel that pharmacy script NOW. It will call your name. You don't wanna have 12 days clean and go back to day one, right?

Keep posting and keep going:)!!

[Nellie1919]

Great job! Day 2 is a huge accomplishment! I'm on Day 6 myself. I was taking 4-6 a day since 2008, but went up to 8-10 pills last year through earlier this year. I started cutting back this summer - with the intention of weening down/off the meds next year. My husband and I bought a house and got a puppy this summer, and I knew I wanted to try living without the pills. I do have legitimate pain issues, so I'll be working with a pain psychologist to work on non-narcotic methods of dealing with my pain. This whole thing is a process, and a lot of it is a mental game. Each time the doubt wiggles in, look at your kids and remember you're doing this not only for yourself but them too!

[Qshy]

Well here comes day 2!!! What a night! I slept but kept waking up stressing about it!! I haven't told my bf just to scared! I just want to b a good mom! I'm now lazy and don't really give a ****!! It's time to be the old me!! I can I will do this!!

[kellygirll]

and please DONT let the pharmacy fill that script in two weeks dont get it and give it to your family member call the doc/pharmacy and CANCEL it ASAP that NEEDS to be done in order to be successful with this and you must tell your secret this is something that cannot i repeat CANNOT be done alone i tried for 7 months to do it alone and be successful and its not possible believe me great on your 4? days is it?? keep it up girl!!!!

[NeverAgain127]

Hi honey:

You can do this; the withdrawals are unpleasant, but no worse than a bad stomach flu for a few weeks.   Just resolve that you are DONE, finished, over, etc.   Get through the first 10 days and I promise you will feel so much better.  

Keep posting...

PS  Did you tell your boyfriend? Sorry if I missed that

[Qshy]

I totally agree with u jifmoc!! I do believe that my family member wants someone to go down with her in the family!!! And this family member has been doing pills for way long!!! Just found that out a couple of days ago from a friend of both!! I can I can do this I know I can!!!  

[jifmoc]

P.S- about your family finding out...try not to freak out about that, so so many people are terrified of it, too and it NEVER goes the way they think it will. If they find out, they find out. There is a saying: our secrets keep us sick. See what it's doing to you right now?  Often times our loved ones know it. We think we seem the same, but we don't. Don't underestimate your family in that way.

If you keep stressing about that, you will use that as an excuse to keep using. Try and let it go:)

[Qshy]

Don't know if I posted anything but today is the first day without my buddy:/ I never get the ruins and can sleep:) eat a lot!! I feel as if I'm going crazy in my head!!!!!!! Is that normal??? Can't focus at all!!! *****!! What day is the worst or should I say days are going to be the worst? When's the point of the withdraw that I start to feel better? I have my script ready to pick up in 2 weeks not going to get it but my family member wants me to for them!!! Wtf way to tempting!!!

[jifmoc]

Qshy, if you don't mind my saying this, your using family member may not have your best interests at heart: he/she may to keep a using buddy and/or money coming in. In other words, listen to folks that have recovery, not those that are still in their addiction!

Not sure if you said, but did you start? What day are you on?  This is close to impossible to do alone so great start reaching out and letting peeps get to know you.

Everyone builds up the fear of wds so much. When you're in it, you just won't feel well. We think we're gonna die but we won't. It passes. You can be FREE of this crap!!! That's why the stress on cutting all contacts: friends, dr. pharmacy etc.

I agree w/ you about starting NOW. You don't wanna talk yourself out of it: it only gets worse. 21/2 years can turn into 10 or 20, trust me it happens all the time.

So keep posting...make yourself known and we will continue to support you! You are no different than the rest of us: you can do this:)

[Qshy]

I stayed clean for about a month but yes there is a but I was taking tremadols:( got really I mean really sick when I stopped!!!  I have always stopped but by the 3rd day I go back!!! My family member has put a lot of fear in my head!!! My family member is the one that got me started on this. Now the family member is telling me to just take an half for a week then quit!! I say it's now or never!!! And by no means do I blame this person I'm an adult:) I'm not really all that scared for the not sleeping or the aches just more worried about people finding out! It really I mean really stresses me out!!!! I'm so happy to have actually post something!!! I normally just read on what people say! And as far as after care idk??? That is something I need to look into:) it's so thoughtful that people actually take the time and respond back!!!  

[jifmoc]

Hey there! Oh boy does that sound familiar! I had never ever been addicting to anything either. I learned that I had an addictive personality I just hadn't found "my drug" yet. Anyway, you will get mucho support here. Everyone identifies I promise.

First thing to set yourself up for success is to cut ALL your contacts. I know it's rough but you gotta cut that enabler person of yours. It's not a matter of willpower, it's just not being tempted at all at the beginning. If you don't have access to any, you can't cave.

Also, you said you've done this before. How far did you get? Did you get to check out aftercare? Imperative for staying clean.

Keep posting:)

[Qshy]

Thank you so much for ur response:) I was getting worried that no one would read my post!! I am Christian and have been praying for guidance:) I know that it is extremely mental I have quit before!!!! My problem is a close family member is an enabler so every time that family member stresses me out and tells me how bad it's going to be on day 4 that I go back!! Not this time!!! How long where u on them and how many a day!!! So glad to hear that ur on day 5!!!! I soooooo want to be there and I will!!!  

[Nellie1919]

Hi Qshy! I'm 5 days into my recovery from hydrocodone. I'm going to let others tell you more about how everything goes since I'm so new to the process but I wanted to make sure you knew that you weren't alone! My two cents are this - tell your boyfriend! My hubby has been nothing short of supportive through all of this! The other piece of advice I can give you is to be positive about what you are doing! I truly believe in mind over matter - if you believe you're going to feel bad then you will. I'm not saying I've felt great the past few days, but it hasn't been as bad as others have had it. Finally, pray to whatever higher power gives you comfort. My husband and I are Christian and pray for guidance and strength through my recovery, and I do believe He is by my side through the worst of it! Read through old posts here and keep posting yourself! You can do this!