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[ThursdayNext]

today my husbands old professor called and said his 24 year son was dead.  He went to the service tonite.  The boy died of od.  He went to rehab stayed clean for a while got a job last weds and died on Sat. after celebrating too much. I was not going to take my boys out of respect for the parents but now I will.  This is so hard to say.  When I wrote my letter earlier post. I asked for God on one side and my father on the other he died when I was 9 alcohol.  Now here I am strung out on these pills.  I did not start for fun.  I had back surgery and eventually a hysto which has solved my problems.  I still have herniation but that's a cake walk compared to some stuff.  AY I told my boys 10 and 7 that tomorrow they should look around at the parents and the brothers and sisters of this boy because now they will never be whole again. EVER.  We've talked to them about drugs yadda yadda but maybe this will help reenforce things for them.  They don't know about my problem my husband does and has been supportive in helping me quit.  I told my boys that once addiction gets a hold of you you no longer have control.  What they don't know is you have to bust a** to take it back.  Some guy wrote the other day he can't stop because nothing bad has ever happened to him.  Well I hope he reads this post. I'm not tapering.  I'm quitting.  I've got 12 norc and 10 10 valuims.  I'll just stretch s**t out til I'm done.  Ya'll be seein a lot me over the next few days.  It's gettin cold here later.  i'm going to bundle up hunker down and try and kick some a**

[nefesh]

Sounds like your resolve is really kicking in!!... that's good, I reckon you'll need to draw on quite a lot of it during these upcoming days and weeks...  you're on a Nobel Quest - and with Heaven's help, you gonna pull through!!   Keep us posted...  Nefesh

[ThursdayNext]

Wow,  I've never done any of that you are lucky to be alive.  What a road you've traveled.  ACIM says when the teacher is ready the student appears.

[JT-MX]

Thursday. I remember (well was told when I woke up)back when I was 22 or so. I will be 43 in a month. I started snorting coke, then found smoking it was 10 times better than snorting, then found shooting was a hundred times better than smoking. Sraight downhill. One night in my apartment with my buds I just fell over and started choking and swallowing my tongue. THAT WAS MY BAD EXPERIENCE THAT MADE ME QUIT. Didnt have W/D but I always craved it. Took years to get over it. Dreamt about it waking up sweating ect.. Then started drinking too much after I got married. Drank way too much up until my wife at the time got sick. It eventually killed her. Multiple organ failure January 2005. Horrible for our 14 year old daughter especially. I quit drinking and smoking altogether then because it scared her to death. After they put my wrist back together with 7 screws 3 pins and a plate along with multiple bone grafts because of a moto cross accident last year I became dependant on the oxy. I also cracked a helmet off my head and had swelling and bleeding on the brain. I knew I had an addictive personality ( i seem to have a problem with moderation of any type lol)and I needed to stop asap. I am on day 5 or 6. Not sure because my short term memory never came back right. I hope when this is over maybe that will improve too. Did I stop Sat or Sunday morning??Anyway, I still have 17 left and I refuse to touch them. Getting better every day but still have no energy and use the bathroom all day.
My point is that some people (me) never learned until something bad happens and you have to hope it doesnt kill you first.
I am writing this because it makes it real to me and not just a fuzzy memory. Everyone out there has helped me so much. Thank you and God bless.........JT

[rsd_al]

The same way my wifes younger brother died. It is a real shame, and he was about the same age too.

Talk about giving inspiration!