My 4th time c/t-getting better-Suggestion

[longing4life]

Hi all,

It has been a while since I posted.  I still lurk all the time.  I am now on Day 5 c/t, BUT, I feel better now than I have felt in many many months.  I did make it almost 3 weeks back in April, then caved and went to Dr. for a new script.  Of course there was more month left at the end of my pills, so I would suffer for 6-10 days, then get the script filled.  I had 2 refills for the script so I got them filled and now I don't have anymore or a script.  That is fine with me.  I have come to an understanding with myself that I cannot under any circumstances live a normal healthy life on these pills.  I think the pain is worse sometimes when I was taking the pills.  My addiction is Lortab 10's about 4-5 per day.  I know that doesn't sound like much, but that was where I was at.

As far as quitting, I have read "End Your Addiction Now" by Dr. Charles Gant, and have just recently purchased Julia Ross's book, "The Mood Cure".  Very good information in both these books.  Thank you so much CATUF for these recommendations.

I do suffer from depression and I take 20mg of prozac for 2 weeks, then 30 for 2 weeks per Dr.'s orders.  I also am prescribed Xanex on an as needed basis for anxiety due to what the Dr describes as "situational anxiety".  During the last 5 days I have taken the prescribed dosage of the xanex, but today I haven't taken any yet.  I don't feel the need to.  Situations haven't gotten so bad to where I have needed them.

I am determined to be and stay drug free.  It has not been easy, but I want to live again.  I want to be who I was 10 yrs ago, but a better me!  Without pain pills.

My suggestion and question:  Can an NA/AA group be started here in the forum.  I know alot of people have different opinions about the groups and that is ok.  I do not live near a city that has neither groups.  The closest one is over 40 miles and with hubby working nights, I have to be here with the kids.

I have read that a few like toomanypills, and catuf and probably more that have had success with these programs.  I do have "The Big Book" and I read it daily.  Just a thought.

I feel better today than I have in a long long time.  Hang in there guys.  We all have to have a plan or the demons will have a plan for us.  

Recovery is a Journey, not a Destination,
Until Then,
LL

[mom2rachie]

If you google and go to the NA/AA website they do have online meetings.  There is much MUCH more to those meetings than reading the Big Book.  It's about hearing and relating to other people's experiences and gtting and STAYING sober by leaning on each other through a program of principles and accountability and honesty that was set up many many moons ago by a man named Bill Wilson.
Check it out. It's saved many a life.  In the long term it's not about staying clean any more, it's about living a sober and fulfilling life and learning with each day how to be of better service to God and your fellow man.  Something, no matter how you feel about a higher power, we should all strive to do.

[longing4life]

Thanks for the info.  

I forgot to add that I have been taking flexeril for RLS for the past week.  My muscles felt really achy yesterday and I thought that the flexeril may have something to do with it so I didn't take one last night.  I feel really better today.  I am prescribed the flexeril for my TMJ and Fibromyalgia.  I am learning differerent ways to deal with that pain on a daily basis.  I have mouthpieces for night wear, but I chew them to shreds in a matter of just a few weeks.  I may have to go back on the flexeril but I do not want to at this time.

I wish insurance companies would pay for hot tubs.  That has been the most successful for me in dealing with the fibro.  Of course I only have access to them when we take our youth group to the health plex for youth events which is only about once a month.  Makes me feel like a new human being!

[GA Guy]

There is a forum on the internet that is heavy into the AA/NA 12 step "thing". I have had no experience with it personally. I do know that many people on here do go to meetings as part of their recovery. Google AA/NA forums and you will find the one I'm speaking of.